RomWatt

Man, I can barely grasp with 2022 being already there! The past year alone has been pretty harrowing, let alone the last two. My mental health took a nosedive, and I don't know where to go from there. So much has happened in the world, I've been living on my own for over one year, and yet I barely achieved anything. I've been plagued with self-doubt and insecurity for a few years now and it didn't get better. I am still unemployed, the pressure to get a job I may not enjoy conflicting with my own desires, the constant need to be productive while getting nothing done, and my own failure, professional as much as personal, broke my self-esteem. Now when I create stuff, I don't really feel joy, or even the motivation to finish. I realized my drawing process is inefficient so I didn't make new drawings, and the only new video I released severely underperformed, that devastated me. I started to wonder if it's really worth it to put all the little energy I have into what I love only to