Back in 2013, I asked my spiritual daughter KyloRensMom if she could draw me with Jack Frost from the Dreamworks movie Rise of the Guardians, because... well, because my heart had chosen Jack to be my son. A love so strong that it hurts - sometimes, having fantasy/imaginary children hurts a lot, because you can't hug them in real life. They're only real for the heart.
Like with every love, it enters a phase of 'habit' after a while, when the bond has grown strong and the other's presence in your life has become something you give for granted. Which is normal, but sometimes the initial strength of the bond comes back with all its fierce power - especially when you experience separation or a prolonged time of intense depression.
That is the phase I'm going through now, and it feels like the right phase to (1) "feel" Jack Frost so strongly again in my heart and imaginary life, and (2) work on his "representation" OC for my "transferred motherhood" process, which I explained in detail here: On Motherhood and YOUR Characters -> (As of June 14) This is changing somewhat because I decided it hurts too much to force myself to stay invisible just so the fandoms don't get upset with me for sharing my own real feelings. While the "transferred motherhood" process is there to stay with fans' OCs/FCs, and it definitely stays in the overall storyline so I can keep it an original work (with all the freedom that follows), I'm going to talk about and share my motherlove to the characters from fandoms again, in art and writing - sparingly, but I'm gonna do it... for I have the same right as any other fans to be and love. (Thanks pika and TwistedxSaiyan for the reminder )
And about my motherlove for Jack Frost (and also Pitch Black and Sandman by this point), it's so strong and so real my heart was pretty clear about it a couple nights ago: it asked me to tell William Joyce (the author of Guardians of Childhood books, which the RotG movie is based on) about it on his Twitter and Instagram. I went all "NO!" at first and I tried to push the thought away, but how long can you resist a call of the heart, especially when it tells you in the face that "if other fans tell him about pairings, your innocent motherlove for Jack should be in the immediate clear"? There must be a little army commandant inside of my chest, but I generally trust its wisdom... so I did. I hope W. Joyce doesn't mind.
Who's Jacob "Iceheart" from Meravilla (The Berter Family)?
He's this guy:
Meravilla is a planet that was once a paradise: people kept their inner child alive and both adults and children adhered to a lifestyle of innocence, goodwill, and hope. But those who had been on visit on outside worlds had returned with ideas of manipulation, self-interest and greed that had slowly corrupted people's hearts to such an extent the Keepers of Innocence, a hundred of magical beings scattered all around the planet - who were created by their Mother Goddess in the down of times to protect Meravilla's very adoration for Innocence, and their lifestyle - in a last attempt to save her people from the corruption of hearts, built a fortress that extended for kilometers, surrounded by cold snow storms, strong wind and fog to keep the place away from anybody who didn't have enough of a pure heart and hope to find beauty even in that unkind weather - and reach the fortress. The fortress itself is only a "container": inside of it, the visitor enters another dimension, a small world where the original beauty of Meravilla stays intact, with all its magic, its wonders and all the adults and children who chose an uncorrupted life.
Stationed at the entrance Gates, Jacob is one of the six Keepers who decide who can enter and who cannot. He and the other Gate Keepers are nicknamed "Iceheart", because they were born as creatures of the snow (to survive the cold environment their mission demands) and because of the sword-like scepter they carry, that gives them the power to scrutinize visitors' hearts and find out whether they are worthy of accessing Innocence City through the Gates. Jacob also has the power to share thoughts and memories in the form of pure meanings and images via the touch of his fingertips (to another person's), and he can fly like all the Keepers.
So Jacob (later shorted as "Jake" in the stories) is the union of my childhood dream world and RotG's Jack Frost, and the journey I take in the story, as a mom and as a child-at-heart, through the secret Innocence City, is very much one of self-identity for me, not only one of motherhood. Because being "a mother soul with a child's heart" is who I am, and the reason why I often feel so outside of this world and society. (Not that I care, I am who I am, I can't and won't change to make others happy - and I took a sort of oath to myself that I'd protect my own inner child forever.)
If you decide to read this story when I publish it, you will learn more about myself as a person. Of course, this is also the story of how I met Jacob "Iceheart" and became his mom.
I'm working on this story on the side, because my main effort these days is to continue writing The Undeserving (Rolamaton Tale) and fix the old Rolamaton stories. I'm so inspired and in love, though, I feel it won't take so long to get this one done.
Thanks for reading!
Note: in the public version of the story, I'm going to remove all passages where mom-child bonding through breastfeeding is involved - because Jacob is not a baby and not even a toddler, but he looks eighteen - so the story is pretty much free of "off-putting" scenes (unless you mind cuddling, too - but sorry, I'm going to keep that one!). All my friends and people who respect and understand my own (innocent, strictly mom-child bonding act) breastfeeding symbolism - and why I don't put age labels on it - are welcome to Note me so I can send them the uncensored version of the story. Thank you!