Nope, thats ok xD i think like that too.
I make sex jokes to people and people call me pervert, but i never meant it to anyone else. jokes.
And when people are (on my age.. girls boys crazy phase thing.)"oh i want to rip his/her clothes" its just weird.. i thought that was kinda direspect or something.. why didnt i want it. maybe because i dont feel like it.
My dad told me i was too young into marriage. no matter how old i am, i dont want marriage. since kid xD. i remember want to be a nun on primary school because i dont want or have marriage... i guess i have it since birth, i wonder if my mindset will change, or maybe not
its annoying when someone say :
"you want to be a (insert old age here) virgin?"
"youre weird... you dont like either gender. oh God"
"Youre too young to think like that"
"You should marry a person like him"
"you die alone"
and everyone die alone themself... really?
I hate flitring. like, what do you want with me? i dont want sex or boyfriend, you can have it with anyone else. like, stop begging me. I never be your girlfriend or your sex partner. ever. just friend
And i thought i was the only one who think like this. but after i found asexuality, omg its really fits. because i think i know something wrong with me, i dont feel heterosexual, gay, bi or whatever - I feel genderless, not a boy or a girl, i feel dont like either gender. I feel like both genders are threated same
Yeah. i could invite my friends or live, take care my parents. I dont want kids, i just want to work. i dont find the uses of Hot or Sexy either... i thought it was aesthetic not sexual. tho now i have internal struggles that i forcing sexual attraction to know how it feels like
sorry too long. i just dont know anywhere else i can feel through. i think i just dont know the name of it xD