I feel like my lifes kinda empty. Shocking, right?
I miss interacting with people, art, books, sleep, music, videogames, the sense of acheivement and creativity, and laughter.
What happened to them?
Oh wait, I hide in my room because theres no point coming out other than for school; I have to much homework to do with no free time, late nights finishing work that wont really get me anywhere in life.
I need to get out more.
Going to go meet my half sister for the first time today, itll probably be insanely awkward, but oh well. I already promised, so may as well go through with it.
Also, I broke my toe Wednesday.
By dropping my ipod on it -_-
So, now its purple, and hurts like a motherfucker.
Completely lost my record of having never broken a bone.
Why is it so hard to be strong? I keep trying and trying and it just seems like theres some new monster awaiting me.
Im losing control of my anger and myself.
I dont really know what to do about it, I dont really have anyone to talk to anymore.
Ive ost my best friend and its hard to really talk to other people and feel better once I do.
I have a bad feeling that Ill turn into a hateful and miserable person..
I dont want to be that way, but it feels like Im fallings towards being that person.