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Devious Journal Entry

Tue Oct 4, 2011, 12:19 AM
Totally random introduction, because starting these entries are always the hardest part. Now with that out of the way, onto the actual entry:

January 6th. my body and other accessories finally gave up and I experienced that dreadful, but all to common feeling of collapsing onto the couch and cried until my eyes hurt. My husband put his foot down and demanded action be taken, so I called in sick the next day and spent the rest of the day coming to terms with the fact, that I had stress.

Wordy, huh'?

I always saw stress as a bad excuse for people, who should another job, better suited for their delicate, pansy ass mentalities. Turns out, stress usually only affects people, who have very strong mentalities: They only spread themselves out too thin and end up having breakdowns. Which I did. And I tried to do the right thing: I made doctor's appointments, found a psychiatrist, did pills. I even had meetings with my managers, so I could come back to work on reduced hours. All I needed was a final schedule from them.

I got a written termination by mail instead. Cue depression.

Funny how your entire self-esteem can be based on how well you think other people think about you. And funny how it takes hitting rock bottom, before you admit that you need help.

9 months later, and with the help of my husband, my doctor's apprentice, my psychiatrist, the best self help-guy in the world and a caseworker, who went above and beyond for me, I now feel better that I ever have. As anyone with depression knows, I will never be completely 'well', but I now have the mentality and tools to keep myself from falling into that hole again. I'm still between jobs, but I don't care for the moment. I'm happy, my husband is happy and my kid is happy.

I never used to have the self-esteem to be a part of groups like DeviantArt, other than a creepy-stalker type, who sits in the corner and watches. Now I feel comfortable enough to admit, that I actually like being the creepy-stalker type X-)

I can now wonder why I ever acted like a confident woman, when in reality I was just a lonely little girl who desperately needed attention. From anyone. It's so wonderful to finally be able to actually feel what I've been pretending to feel for all those years.

I recently turned 31, and it made me realize that I am now too old to have to pretend that I'm anything I'm not. I don't have to like a certain band in order to keep my 'nerd-cred'. I don't have to look a certain way to be sufficiently geeky. Hell, I don't even have to be polite, when I really, really don't agree with someone!

I weigh over 200 lbs, but my husband and I have the best sex in the world. I like Metallica, Eminem and Disturbed, but I also have Doris Day, Bruno Mars and classical music on my Ipod. My fantasy men are mostly burly and muscular, but I'm married to a semi-husky hunk who is the love of my life. And I think Adam Lambert is a very pretty man. Oh, and even though I don't like his music, I think people should get of Justin Biebers case, 'cause he's actually pretty popular with some people!

So don't mind me sitting in the corner, smiling at all you young folk: I'm just quietly contemplating old age and how to keep you of my lawn :)

  • Listening to: Apollo 440 - The Man With the Harmonica
  • Playing: Dragon Age
  • Eating: Toast
  • Drinking: Coffee


Lise Dahl Lewalski
Artist | Hobbyist | Traditional Art
Current Residence: Denmark
Favourite genre of music: Whatever suits my mood.
Favourite style of art: Black and white. Shades are my deity.
Operating System: Windows. Better the evil you know, right?
MP3 player of choice: iPod Mini
Shell of choice: Uhh, 9 milimeter?
Skin of choice: As long as it isn't burnt, I don't care
Favourite cartoon character: Raphael of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
Personal Quote: John's Revelations, chapter 2, verse 13... 'Nuff said!


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DelRosal Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2009
thanks muchly for the watch. ^_^
ripper24 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2009  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey, I always watch people back, when they watch me. Though I'm not overly fond of being reminded of what a procrastinating doo-doo head I am :)

I am working on new Human Remains pages, though.

It just still boggles my mind , that people are not only reading it but also care enough about it to write me and ask for more.
DelRosal Featured By Owner May 1, 2009
Just glad you are alive and well hun. I think most of us artists are procrastinating doodie heads. o.O :P it's like prerequisite or something. Otherwise the world would explode with our awesomeness if all artists everywhere actually managed to get stuff done on time.

human remains is great in that it doesn't really get old and dated. Mimi's adventures among the demonic are always going to be interesting and no matter what crotch kicking will always be in style. ;)
blood100101 Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2008  Hobbyist General Artist
um....i hate to bother you but .........when will you be adding a new comic to human reamains ? cause i check almost every day..... please tell me
blood100101 Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2008  Hobbyist General Artist
ello i love ur comic and i mean LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!! ^-^ also i like ur art too
GardHelset Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2007
Takk for watch og favs! n__n
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