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Dear diary,

I've not been here too long and so many things have changed in the meantime :frail: In the spring I began to really draw very much and I recently scanned a whole bunch of things I had in my drawer :coffeecup:... I think I'm fine. I have someone great in my life and I live on my place with a pile of übercute rats :heart: I wouldn't say this, but some recent things are just awesome... and I think that my new works too… I'm glad you like it :dance:

as we waited for the storm by rionka evaporation by rionka unstable by rionka
  • Listening to: Evanescence: If You Don't Mind
  • Reading: Meat Technology
  • Watching: my lovely little rat
  • Playing: Grimrock
  • Eating: beans in tomato sauce
  • Drinking: water
im obsessed with that "new" gadgets what i revealed here in last few days.  i dont know how much im retarded to write it but now :D but im playing with that a while and although i hate saying "cool", this is, definitely :D

after a long apathy break im trying to create something again. thank you all for your support. i love all your words here. :heart:

  • Listening to: Flyleaf: There For You <3
  • Reading: Jana Reckova: Pachatele zvlastnich cinu
  • Watching: staring to the monitor... forever.. and ever.
  • Playing: im an artist .. :)
  • Eating: dark chocolate filled with marzipan
  • Drinking: Kofola
do you know the feeling when you cry and smile all in one?
totally weird.
i've seen the K-PAX movie yesterday, maybe is because of that...
a perfect time for creating new, weird things.
  • Listening to: the gathering & K-PAX OST
  • Reading: evanescence-the open door thanksgiving at the end
  • Watching: staring to the monitor... forever
  • Playing: im an artist ... :[
  • Eating: chicken with rice
  • Drinking: water
this i found in :iconineedchemicalx:'s journal today :D ... and honestly i dont know what it means, when i'll check these boxes lol :D its something like i am a crazy gothic emo, probably! but there's no interpretation here, so what do you think?:)

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4 (163 cm - no.. but it's close.)
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes. (haha. who doesnt:D)
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily. (nooo. i'm paper-white all the year.)
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. (red - ineedchemical wrote and i wanna let it here:D)
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[x] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (maybe for  a case of some dermal and eye problems..)
[ ] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[ ] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've lost a child.

[ ] I'm in school
[x] I have a job
[ ] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[ ] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

[x] I was born with a disease/impairment (a little cardiac problem)
[x] I've gotten stitches/staples. (mainly on my head:D)
[x] I've broken a bone
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I've had measles

[ ] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] I've been to Europe. (yes, i live here)
[ ] I've been to Africa.
(boooring. i was just in Croatia and Great Britain by a traject and train. omg.:D)

[x] I've gotten lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drunk a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been Skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding

[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex, even a worshipful one.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[.] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[.] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder. (hell knows, i dont think about it)
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic. ?
[ ] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[.] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I've woken up crying.

[here's an uninteresting part with no x's]

[x] I can sing well.(hehe)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[ ] I watch the news.
[x] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person. (noooo at all)
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[ ] I bake well. (not at all, but i cook well:))
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue, dark red (just the red one.. but i like green, blue, purple and black more.)
[ ] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate (nooo keep it dark!)
[x] I bite my nails :(
[ ] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates. (no. im good at remembering faces:D)
[x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] All of those are answered honestly. (hell, i must to do that x's when i left those .'s bleah. :p)
  • Listening to: rock in the radio
  • Reading: work craps
  • Watching: staring to the monitor... forever
  • Playing: im an artist :-D
  • Eating: pastry salad
  • Drinking: water
i reorganized my favourites a little.. now i have some groups in there:D
and thank you all for all the faves.. i wish you a nice morning :)
  • Listening to: radio
  • Reading: Terry Pratchett: Monstrous Regiment
  • Watching: staring to the monitor... forever
  • Playing: dead:( i feel ill
  • Eating: cereal stuff with blueberries
  • Drinking: tea
let's see. i didnt much updates last months because it all sucks. im totally stucked into two of my last works which im doing by watercolours on A2. im not really sure when it'll be done. its all kinda weird because i'm just thinking about work and painting and CSS and i passed over it takes so long. and, yes, i submitted some evanescent wallpapers.. hope someone of you like it.. and i want to know how to do a poll. :D

okay i'm gonna try my PS brushes i've already downloaded. see ya :hug:
  • Listening to: nighwish : dark passion play [2007]
  • Reading: Wolf Girl (fantasy by Zdenek Zemlicka)
  • Watching: staring to the monitor... again
  • Eating: rigatoni
  • Drinking: juice
now i just see some weird things on my pictures. cause i have new monitor which wasnt calibrated  :D sorry for this, i try to fix all the last pictures :D

  • Listening to: evanescence: thoughtless [koRn cover]
  • Reading: calibrating manual :)
  • Watching: staring to the monitor
  • Playing: ... LARP at the weekend!! :)
  • Eating: tomatoes
  • Drinking: "vincentka", freaky czech spa treatmen
dear diary, im not available to scan any pictures. and my new (newer? :D) PC stands here under the table and sleeps. omg. im totally lazy and unable to do. some sickness kick me. im blowing my nose all day, bitching and bleeding. absolutely abstraction! hope you all are great :shakefist: and stay healthy!
  • Listening to: flyleaf: all around me
  • Reading: dA highly speaked comments to me!!! :)
  • Watching: from the window
  • Playing: i tried the "SecondLife" frenzy thing- c
  • Eating: pistachios
  • Drinking: uhm.. eggnog. :(
so how are you today? i have new eyes... well glasses. im SEEING at least. i stare to the computer playing with bitmap editor. i did that amazing amy lee tonight. im totally lunatic drowned in pixels. :heart: I LOVE THAT!!! :shakefist:
but diary... tell santa claus... i really need some new pieces to the comp, cause he won't eat of my hand :dead:
  • Listening to: evanescence: anywhere but home live in paris
  • Reading: c.j.cherryh: paladin
  • Watching: ....watching everything cause I SEE
  • Playing: the witcher .... woooohooo GRAPHIC ORGASM!!!!
  • Eating: dark chocolate with raspberry pieces.beastly.
  • Drinking: tomato juice
few years ago i burn out our scanner with hundred of pics. GREAT! Mum hates me. But i love deviantart. I finally updated some really good things. and i met here some Ev freaks like me. drawing fullfills me.

and i found a cure for bad moments (except evanescence music): it's orange-head and its called PARAMORE :shakefist:
  • Listening to: paramore: riot
  • Reading: c.j.cherryh: paladin
  • Watching: monitor.. still!
  • Playing: lineage II
  • Eating: porridge (oatmeal)
  • Drinking: czech national drink KOFOLA :)
:floating: three days ago mum calls me and she told me they have home a scanner, suddenly. lol :D that means i could convert all my works from last few years into pixels. woooohooooo :dance: heres gonna be a party!!
not bad. but im still sick and tired and bored. god bless the internet. i finally installed wi-fi that way, it works without problems. seven times. it seems to be happy number. :D
so im almost okay. but im without photoshop and the other stuff. im looking forward the scans. wrrr! i will eat fathers keyboard if it wont work. im horny to see my pics here. lol :D :lick:

im very very very tired!!! time to sleeep :sleep:
  • Listening to: evanescence: my last breath
  • Reading: wtf? freaking letters. nope.bleah
  • Watching: monitor
  • Playing: lineage II :)))
  • Eating: cheese and tomatoes
  • Drinking: water. booooring