Riftrunner

Just got finished watching the Cowboy Bebop movie, and there's a line in there, when Jet Black ends up talking to Spike, and he says. '"My old man used to say, 'When a boat goes out to sea, it either keeps sailing or it sinks. There's nothing else.'" A man can relate to that. You start to think of yourself like a boat. Do you have the power to keep sailing, or are you sinking. At times... you just dont know. You really wonder  if you've gotten yourself into something that'sfor lack of a better phrase, much bigger than you. A nasty spot you just can't pull yourself out of.

Why things and people and life in general has to be so bloody difficult? Can anybody PLEASE give me an answer to this ever mysterious and too mind-consuming question? I swear, the last little while is set to drive me right up the damn wall. I need a vacation. I need a mind wipe. Hell, right now a rip roaring, shut your liver down drunk would do right about now.  If just to get my mind off things. Forgetfulness would be GREAT.

I really am. Nothing to do, nobody to do it with. Not in the mood for my standard r/p, cause my usual partner aint available (hurry up and get moved HOME and online, woman! *L*) And the imagination is severely depleted. Somebody PLEASE feed me ideas! Else I'm just going to start FF8 all over again, cause I need something to DO! Being  bored and in a funk does NOT at all mix well.