As of recent, I've really be struggling with talking to people. As I'm sure many are aware, I afiliate with the furry community which I tend to believe is based heavily on togetherness within its members (I wrote a very detailed paper about that recently). Unfortunately, I'm starting to feel outcasted within the community as I slowly struggle more and more with talking with its members and relating to their stories.
While I am silent here most of the time, I'm pretty silent everywhere else nowadays as well. I find it difficult to understand the decisions people make within the communities I'm a part of and generally feel like I'm losing my friends rather than bonding with them as my senior year in high school comes to an end.
I'm finding that I'm becoming increasingly more reliant on my closest friends and straying away from my interactions online, but finding it more and more difficult to find ways to vent my frequent frustrations. I'm having feelings that I shouldn't vent my frustrations to anyone as the risk of offending someone with my words rises.
The recent election here in the United States (while controversial), feels like it's pulling the communities I'm a part of apart; that's not something that I want. It seems like over the past four years, I've changed as a person in ways that I don't really like and have seen changes that I've personally found distressing, but shit happens I guess.