Anorexia is constant fear.
It is constant hunger
It is wanting to be better but scared to at the same time
It is looking at yourself and crying
It is eating with the feeling of regret and anxiety
It is wanting to feel good
It is the need for control
It is the constant thought of your image in your head
It is hard
It is misunderstood.
People say "You look good"
they say "you looked better before"
they say "just eat"
they say "you are hurting others and yourself"
they say "It hurts me to see you like this"
they say "just get over it"
they try to use logic and reasoning
I know what they say is logical and reasonable
But my mind fights itself
I want help
But help takes a long time
and I am scared.
they say I could be hospitalized
this only makes my mind fight itself more
Anorexia is serious