I know that one of my friends did a similar blog like this, but I want to explain my own stressful situations now on my own terms.
In school, we have the dreaded 'Regents Exams'. Now I know that a lot of you (especially those who don't live in the USA) have never heard of these, but they're like final exams for us. Except they are called something different and are organized by the State :'D minus the language one but that's besides the point. The point is, I have a Regents this year in math, which wouldn't be a big deal on its own, except I suck at the subject itself and I can barely remember how to do things right after a few months of not doing them- it's like my brain refuses to make the connections. My grades aren't good enough for me to pass math this year if I completely bomb the exam- and it's in a few months..
Another stressful situation is my possible summer plans. I want to pass the math Regents with a good grade and so that is my primary focus, rather than my plans for over the summer, but both my parents and this lady I see every week (to vent and help manage my nerves) want me to find a more 'constant' plan for summer. I can't get a job so they are thinking art camp or something. I found a fashion program that I like- we get to see how the fashion world operates on a local scale- but both my parents have jobs and work, so whatever I find has to fit their schedules as well as mine. My parents and I have had a lot of fights these past few weeks over this particular topic and I just don't know what to do.. I had a nervous breakdown this morning and more might be coming if this doesn't get resolved.
And here is THE THIRD SITUATION.
I have the dA user blocked, so good luck trying to comment on this! *snaps fingers* I've been dealing with a bit of a tyrant, on this social app called Amino. There are two leaders now, but there used to be another one who I'll call Leader A. Leader A and the tyrant had a fight and there was a whole drama thing about it, but after that.. the tyrant doesn't want anyone to have contact with Leader A because we are so-called 'betraying the amino'. Leader A and another one of my friends got banned from the Amino (but have since been unbanned as of yesterday because the tyrant wants them back, even though they have no desire to have any contact with them) and now we are all very afraid. This person is nice until you do one thing wrong, until you do something suspicious in their eyes (even if it's really nothing) - they abuse their power as a leader sometimes and even send messages with sexual themes, which are not allowed on the Amino. Yesterday they sent a PM to me and one of my friends, demanding the truth from us about whether we were on/active on the other Amino. I had a panic attack because of that situation, I thought I was going to be banned right then and there..
Luckily I wasn't but I can't keep myself from being scared. I'm really afraid. The user who is doing this no longer means anything to me and I want to quit, but I can't because I simply won't leave my friends to face the user's tyrant ways on their own.
They've made me afraid to speak my mind whenever they are around or if there's a possibility of them finding out about any messages I send disagreeing with them. Yesterday they decided to use one of my chats for an upcoming event WITHOUT TELLING ME and upon commenting, saying, "I'm fine with you using my chat but I would have preferred you ask my permission before deciding to," they DELETED MY MESSAGE!aminoapps.com/c/officialalfeaa…
this is them. Please, if you're on the Amino, BE CAREFUL.
*takes a deep breath*
I'm fine now.
Honestly I don't know anymore...