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A letter to my friends
Because even I have a manual, I wanted to share this with you.
I know that everyone has his own manual and sometimes this fits and sometimes it doens't.
Sometimes you change someone elses manual to make it fit yours, but this is a process.
A process with ups and downs, with highs and lows.
Feel free to change my manual where ever you see fit, but do mind the things that can't be changed.
You can't erease my PTSS, you can't erease my Lipoedema and you can't erease my Fybromyalgia.
This will always be part of my manual.
Even I have some principals that with a good discussion and valid arguments, can be changed but not eraesed.
I do have boundries, even though sometimes they are nowhere to be found.
Some people deserve me pressing my boundries and I will be dead tired afterwards, but they are worth it.
They are worth my time messing with their manual and pressing their boundries.
But sometimes, I need some me time, because I can't handle all those people changing my manual or pressing my
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Things are piling up
Things are piling up
peace
is nowhere to be found
when will there ever be time
for me
when can I actually start
to work things out
if I keep drowning
and no one is there to
help me out
no arms are strong enough
to keep me up
on the surface
to actually start working
things through?
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My life is my own
My life is my own
I'm the one that has to carry
the burden my life has
Totally alone
My friends tell me
it's okay to share
they pretend to care
but my life is overwhelming
even for me.
And they can't handle it
emotionally
My life is my own
I'm the one that has to carry
the burden my life has
Totally alone
I know I have someone
with who I carry the load
but some days the load is way more
than our ability to carry
with that, we still need to carry yours
I'm sorry
Sometimes I can't help
but
My life is my own
I'm the one that has to carry
the burden my life has
Totally alone
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The Story of Emmaline Monachopsis - Chapter 12
Chapter 12, Waking up.
‘Emma! Emma!’ Hannah was sitting next to her bed again and like every day, she was just talking to Emmaline. But now something was different. She thought she saw her move. She thought she saw her opening her eyes for a split second.
When I woke up, I saw this young girl sitting next to my bed. No, not my bed. A hospital bed. I was in the hospital. ‘What, what happened?’ I tried to ask, but the words couldn’t get out. ‘Stop talking, you’ve been asleep a while, I’ll get a doctor’, she heard this girl tell her. Hannah, that was her name. And I am Emmaline, right. This headache doesn’t help much. So I closed my eyes again, only to open them at the sight of a doctor. ‘Just doing some checkups’, I heard him say. Thirza walked in and hugged me. She never did that before, so I didn’t know how to act. ‘I was so worried! When I found you on the street, I didn’t know if you’d eve
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The Story of Emmaline Monachopsis - Chapter 11
Chapter 11, The true curse.
After I’ve talked for hours and hours with my mom and dad and sister, I was really tired and just wanted to get to sleep. They told her about the curse and how they wanted to help her get rid of it. Over here, in this sanctuary, the curse wouldn’t be able to get to her, but in the real world it would. I thought it was strange how they put it, in the real world. Wasn’t this the real world? Wasn’t there real magic in this world? Didn’t she just walk through some sort of tree and end up here? But I was too tired to think about it and just crawled into a bed.
The next morning I woke up to the scent of fresh pancakes. My favorite. At the kitchen table were my mother and father and sister already having breakfast and I joined them. They told me the curse was removed now, because all they needed was her to be here. The rest of the spell against the curse was ready before she got there. So last night, when she slept,  they did the
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The Story of Emmaline Monachopsis - Chapter 10
Chapter 10, She jumped.
Thirza found her, Thirza, the woman who took care of her since she was twelve years old and just didn’t know what to do with this girl. She knew Emmaline was depressed, but she didn’t know it would be like this. Emmaline seemed to have jumped out of the window of her bedroom. Now she is here, on the street, blood everywhere. Thirza called for an ambulance. It wasn’t too late yet. The ambulance took her and she went with them to the hospital.
Emmaline has been in a coma for a few weeks and the only ones that are visiting her now, is Thirza and Hannah, this girl that just met Emmaline a few days before she jumped. Jeremy came at first, but he just stopped coming. He left a letter and never came to see her. Hannah read books to Emma, the books she had found in her bedroom. Warcross, Illuminae and House of Night. She guessed those were her favorite ones.
Weeks after weeks Emmaline stayed in a coma and even though the doctors told Thirza she would w
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The Story of Emmaline Monachopsis - Chapter 9
Chapter 9, Witch woman.
‘Emmaline?’, I hear someone say. It is the woman. The witch woman that I ran away from and really wanted to find after that. ‘How do you know my name?’ I ask her, as I stand up. ‘I can’t tell you right now, I can’t tell you here, if you come with me, we can talk save’. I hesitate, just going somewhere? With some random stranger? Although, it does seem like this woman knows me, she knows my name and she told me before she knows the language the file on my mother is written in. I decide to follow her.
We walk in silence for 10 minutes, deeper into the forest, all the while the woman is looking around to see if someone else is following us, and we end up at another tree. When she walks around the tree, she is gone. That confused me, where did she go? She told me to follow her and now she is gone! I don’t like this at all. ‘Hello? Witch woman?’ I call out. She comes around the tree again and schusses
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The Story of Emmaline Monachopsis - Chapter 8
Chapter 8, School again.
Ugh, I hate Mondays, I hate waking up early after a late night of studying and I hate having to change into my uniform and go to school. But I do it anyways, even if it is just to see if Jeremy is okay. I haven’t heard from him this weekend and I didn’t contact him either so the panic attack is at the ready if I start to think about this right now. I hurry down the stairs and grab a banana on the way out. It would have to do as breakfast today. I walk as fast as I can, even running sometimes, even though it is almost impossible to run in this outfit. And when I reach school, I immediately go to the parking lot. Jeremy’s car is not there. I take a look at my phone and realize it is still early so he wouldn’t be here yet. I take a seat on the little wall and wait for him.
When his car takes a turn to enter the parking lot, I immediately stand up. Just to realize there is another girl sitting in the passenger seat next to him. Jessie, some
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The Story of Emmaline Monachopsis - Chapter 7
Chapter 7, the unbreakable file.
Dinner is already over, but there are always some leftovers in the fridge, so I’m warming these up in the microwave, as Hannah walks up to me. She asks me about my day and doesn’t really wait for an answer when she starts to tell about hers. I don’t really listen to her. I don’t want to get to close. As I walk to my room, Hannah starts to follow me. She wants to watch some movie together, since all the other girls are out and I’m the only one who can keep her company. I tell her I have homework to do and close the door.
I put my plate down on my desk and I open the file again. There must be some sort of clue as to what this all means, right? ‘Every locked door has a key’, that’s what Marie Lu taught me in the most recent book I’ve read. So, this file has to have a key.
That night, I have another dream about this woman. This strange woman, who told me she’s a witch. In my dream, she is not alone
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The Story of Emmaline Monachopsis - Chapter 6
Chapter 6, That tree, again.
I sit down in the same spot as the night before and I take out my dictionaries and my notebook. As I try to decipher the file, word for word, all that comes out is gibberish translations. A few words I can translate, even though I don’t know if the translation is right. I find the word ‘curse’ and ‘magic’. But magic can only be found in books. Books transport you to magical worlds, but not this world. Not here. Magic is not real. Even though the curse is, and curses are some kind of magic.
That voice again. That voice from before, a woman walks up to me and she asks me if I’m okay. I must be dreaming, but then again, when did I fall asleep? I didn’t and since this woman is still looking at me, a little weird right now because I’m not answering, I realize it’s real. This woman is actually talking to me. I close the file really fast and I tell her, I’m okay. I just needed a quiet space to do some hom
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Because even I have a manual, I wanted to share this with you.
I know that everyone has his own manual and sometimes this fits and sometimes it doens't.
Sometimes you change someone elses manual to make it fit yours, but this is a process.
A process with ups and downs, with highs and lows.
Feel free to change my manual where ever you see fit, but do mind the things that can't be changed.
You can't erease my PTSS, you can't erease my Lipoedema and you can't erease my Fybromyalgia.
This will always be part of my manual.
Even I have some principals that with a good discussion and valid arguments, can be changed but not eraesed.
I do have boundries, even though sometimes they are nowhere to be found.
Some people deserve me pressing my boundries and I will be dead tired afterwards, but they are worth it.
They are worth my time messing with their manual and pressing their boundries.
But sometimes, I need some me time, because I can't handle all those people changing my manual or pressing my boundries.
Sometimes, I'm choosing me.
Communication is key to understanding someone's manual and getting them to understand mine.
When I try to communicate with you, tell you how I feel, how I am, don't push me away but help me.
Help me understand and together we will be stronger.
I will do everything in my power to help you, even though this means pressing my own boundries and shoving myself to the side for a bit.
Because if I help you and you help me, that is what people call friendship.
That is what I call friendship.
It is what people need, it is what I need.

Love, your friend
Things are piling up
peace
is nowhere to be found
when will there ever be time
for me
when can I actually start
to work things out
if I keep drowning
and no one is there to
help me out
no arms are strong enough
to keep me up
on the surface
to actually start working
things through?

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I've started reading at an very early age. I went to visit the library whenever I could and I now I own so many books, I can't even read them before I die (and I will buy more!). I review books (in dutch..) on www.readingjournal.princesssam… and I love to do that. On the other hand, I've started writing more and would love to get some feedback. That is why I've made a DeviantArt account and started uploading everything I've already written. I will upload more short stories on the go and I will also add some other creative work of mine.

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