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I've started to see the light at the end of the tunnel. 

After months of nothing but stress and struggling I feel like the broken pieces of my life are coming together to form a more pleasant picture. I've been going to physical and mental therapy, and I am on medications now to make my emotions easier to deal with. I've been getting better. My panic attacks are less frequent now but they are more severe when they do happen. I've still had suicide attempts occurring, about 3 in the past month. But I've survived somehow. Apparently its not my time or that semi truck would have crushed me. My artery would have been severed. Somehow life has protected me in various ways from my own self. Aside from those crazy moments where I lose myself, I'm feeling better. I'm happier. More positive. Stronger. I've become more independent, more capable of caring for myself and not expecting others to do so for me. I've become less controlling and judgmental, more supportive and caring and understanding. I've been going to physical therapy for my pain and it seems to be starting to help. My pain levels are slowly decreasing. I'm getting stronger again in that aspect. 

Its been very hard. And the process is still ongoing. My outpatient stay was rescheduled for this thursday. I've been off work since the 7th. Money wise this is going to be tough, but I needed this time off more than I can express. I haven't rested and relaxed since I moved in 9 months ago. I hit the ground running and kept running. Having this time has helped me quite a bit. I got to go kayaking and row boating with a close friend of mine last weekend, I've been drawing, cleaning, going out. I've been happy. I am assured a place at my job again on the 1st. 

My relationship with my mate has gotten much better. She has been seeking help for her own problems and with our combined efforts, stability and peace are far more normal than our turbulent past. We both have learned how to treat each other better. How to understand and work with each other. We still have our moments but that's normal for a relationship. I'm happy with this now. Despite what everyone has said to us, we prevailed and pushed through. We both have gone through with our words and kept our promises to each other. We've stuck together. 

I'm drawing again. Its been a slow process getting back into it but I'm getting there. I'll have more stuff to post soon. I've been biking again. I've got several plants now that I care for and that has been therapeutic to me. I'm starting to be me again. 

My current roommate is moving out but we have found another to take their place and I feel it might even be a better situation just in terms of living compatibility. I'm also hoping that this will be a step in repairing my friendship with the one who is leaving. Tension has grown between us because of this and that's never what I wanted. 

I'm hoping this is the end of the nightmare my life has been. I'm hoping that I reach that light and have some peace and stability in all aspects of my life. Wish me luck in this continuing journey. 

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Sketches
A basic pencil sketch of a character or scene. 
Inked Drawings
An inked pencil sketch of a character or scene.
Simple Colored Artwork
I can't do flats. Just can't do em. Too OCD. .////. So I will just go with simply colored artwork, pieces with very basic 1 color bgs.
Full Color Full BG
My most detailed, richest colored, most detailed art pieces. 
Reference Sheets
Reference sheets, usually with a frontal, back, and side view, as well as zoomed in detail on eyes, markings, and any accessories. 

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RaziiraoftheDesert
Raz
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
My usual mediums for artwork include paint tool SAI and Prismacolor pencils. I occasionally sew, and enjoy making fursuits/fursuit parts. I haven't had the opportunity to do much with this medium yet, however.

I live in Lowell MA with my best friend and my amazing mate.

I am pagan, and consider myself a furry as well.

LIKES:
-Fursuits
-Solitude
-Electronic music
-The outdoors (hiking, biking, walking)
-Reading
-Writing
-Drawing
-Sewing
-Salty foods
-Coffee
-Meeting new people
-Anime
-Video games
-History, especially European

DISLIKES:
-Smelly, dirty things
-Being forced to do something I don't want to
-Narrow minded people
-Children (unless in fursuit)
-Feeling trapped
-Clustered things (mushrooms, bumps, anything like that. It makes me want to tear them apart.)
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creepsome Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2018
Happy Birthday :iconspinningcakeplz::iconpresentplz:PartyFurry Birthday Hello:iconballoonplz:Airborne:iconhappybirthday2plz:Have your cake and eat it too Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D:iconrainbowbummiecakeplz:fella's Gobbler (Party)fella Gift (Party)Blower fella (Party)ballonsBirthday cake  icon:iconcaekplz: :icongiftplz:birthday cakeSprinkle Pop birthday



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TLC-Official Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2018  Student Digital Artist
Happy Birthday! Party 
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creepsome Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2017
Happy Birthday :iconspinningcakeplz::iconpresentplz:Party:iconballoonplz:Airborne:iconhappybirthday2plz:Have your cake and eat it too Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D:iconrainbowbummiecakeplz:KimRaiFan's Bday Cakefella Gift (Party)ballonsBirthday cake  icon:iconcaekplz: :icongiftplz:birthday cakeSprinkle Pop birthday



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Aki-Writers-Corner Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2016  Student Writer
Happy Birthday Rhia-chan. :heart:
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RaziiraoftheDesert Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much! How have you been?
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Aki-Writers-Corner Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2016  Student Writer
You're welcome my friend. I have been well enough. I hope that you and your mate had a nice time on your special day. Take care of yourself 'kay? ☺
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creepsome Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2016
Happy Birthday :iconspinningcakeplz::iconpresentplz:Party:iconballoonplz:Airborne:iconhappybirthday2plz:Have your cake and eat it too Super Fantastic Golden Platter Cake 3D:iconrainbowbummiecakeplz:KimRaiFan's Bday Cakefella Gift (Party)ballonsBirthday cake  icon:iconcaekplz: :icongiftplz:birthday cakeSprinkle Pop birthday



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SiwySzczur Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2016
Nice gallery:)
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RaziiraoftheDesert Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much! ^^
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