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  • Listening to: My mom snore
Hey guys.
I made a new account a while  ago. Again. It's drunkenpotatoepirate.deviantart.com. I am gonna post some of  my stuff from here on that account. I don't use this account anymore.
This account is so unorganized that I am angered by it. My new account is themistressofdeath.deviantart.com

Sorry for this impromptu situation.
  • Listening to: idk. tv stuff
  • Reading: texts
  • Watching: the same as what I am listening to
Hey guys,
    Sorry I haven't been around much lately.  I have been dealing with a lot of shiz that was forcibly thrown onto my metaphorical plate. School work has been piled sky high, my family has been all dramatic and whatnot. I have also been sick.  :/
    I am happy to say things are finally starting to settle down a bit. Thank the Maker! I will hopefully start posting stuff again ASAP.

    On another unrelated note, you should all go check out :icongamershrader:'s page! I have known him for years and he is awesome!  I think he would also appeciate a new watcher or two. Just sayin' >:3

I hope you all are fan-fuckin'-tastic!!

~~~ Ravinnia
  • Listening to: The clock tick by. Literally
  • Reading: Stuff
  • Watching: I have no idea. It just came on.
  • Drinking: instant coffee
Long time no see. In the time I have been away I have come to realize that my father, who was my hero, is a lying deadbeat piece of shit. My mother's fiancee also cheated on her and knocked up the other chick. My mom befriended the other chick and they both left the bastard. Karma'd!!
    All of this has made me question what is wrong with people. Why can't people be honest and selfless instead of deceitful and selfish as fuck???? My mother is in shreds. And my sister doesn't know what to do. She has lost the guy who has been her only father figure.
    As for my father,  it  has made me bitter. But oh well. There is some good to all of this though. I have gotten MUCH more social. ^^  Something I had trouble doing before all of this bad shit.
  • Listening to: Hurt by Johnny Cash
  • Reading: a text
  • Drinking: instant coffee
Hello, dear strangers, dear strangers and friends...
 I want to tell you that the darkness has enveloped me once again... My mother has gone back to being the way that she was before... I am hopeless now... I feel trapped... I feel caged in the cold... In the shadow... I want to be a cherry blossom. I want to push the bitter cold of winter away and blossom in the warmth of spring.
  • Listening to: Asleep by Emily Browning
  • Reading: a text
  • Watching: the snow fall
  • Drinking: instant coffee
Oh my gravy! I found a house! It has taken since Thanksgiving, but I finally found one!!!  :squee: 
I am moving in on Tuesday!!! I cannot wait to get the hell out of my grandmother's place. I have never thought ill of family until now... I am not considered family by my relatives here, except my muhm, sister, and baby cousin, who is too young to understand all the drama. >.< 
Oh well. At least things are starting to look up. My grades are good tpo. :happybounce:
  • Listening to: Freedom by Paloma Faith
  • Reading: an im
  • Watching: Bunraku
Oh my gravy! I found a house! It has taken since Thanksgiving, but I finally found one!!!  :squee: 
I am moving in on Tuesday!!! I cannot wait to get the hell out of my grandmother's place. I have never thought ill of family until now... I am not considered family by my relatives here, except my muhm, sister, and baby cousin, who is too young to understand all the drama. >.< 
Oh well. At least things are starting to look up. My grades are good tpo. :happybounce:
  • Listening to: Freedom by Paloma Faith
  • Reading: an im
  • Watching: Bunraku
I am sick as a dog... I have a bad case of bronchitis... :\ In other news, my area is getting an arctic blast... That's right... We are gonna party with penguins and polar bears!!!!! :squee: (Not really. We are gonna get sucky winter stuff.) 

GTFO WINTER!!! GTFO!!!! 

  • Listening to: children scream
  • Reading: a text
  • Playing: Adventure Town
  • Eating: nothiiiiin'
  • Drinking: a juice boooooox
Hello all. Please have a happy, safe holiday today. I wish you all the best this coming year. I promise to log on and make more posts, I have just been SUPER busy with school work and monitoring my epilepsy....  :/
  • Listening to: Santa Baby by Paloma Faith
  • Reading: a text
  • Watching: Mulan with my little sister
  • Playing: Adventure Town
  • Eating: nothiiiiin'
  • Drinking: water
My life has gone downhill quickly. Well, more downhill than before. My grandfather is dying of lung failure and I am currently living with him and 7 other people, 3 of which are children of the ages 3, 9, and 10. The house we live in is tiny. My family practically hates me and my mother and I cannot find a house to rent that we can afford... My grades are slipping and my sister probably isn't going to have a decent Christmas... My grandfather might not even make it to then with most of the people in this house smoking all the damn time around him... My dog is also crated all day and night and barely gets out when I am home... Luckily I am back in public school and can get a break from it all and see my friends... I was also just recently diagnosed with epilepsy. I had several seizures and had to have an ambulance come to my house to get me. Then the next day at school I had a seizure in the middle of class.... That is the major shiz that has happened, though I am probably forgetting stuff. I also have a sinus infection that makes my nose bleed and expel nasty and HUGE blood clots mixed with mucus. Ew.
  • Listening to: My family gossip about me
  • Reading: stuff
  • Watching: the news
  • Playing: Pinterest Time Lol
  • Eating: Performing photosynthesis. xD
  • Drinking: milk.
It's almost time for me to go off to war. All of my essential things have been packed save for a few items... I have gotten word that my grandparents are coming over tomorrow to say goodbye... I don't think I can face my grandmother, who adores me... I have been hiding my sorrow from her all my life... I hope to god she doesn't cry...

My father just stares into nothing... He barely speaks to me now...  He cleaned out my room before I woke up today... I feel like I have hurt him beyond measure... This does not feel like a new beginning... But new beginnings are often disguised as painful ends. As a wise man once said.

Tomorrow night I will be leaving home... And I have no idea when I'll be coming back...
  • Listening to: My Legs are Weak by Paloma Faith
  • Watching: the clouds roll by.
  • Eating: ramen
  • Drinking: berry juice stuff
I have started packing for my move, which has been rescheduled for this Friday... My father didn't want to prolong the move. It would make it harder for him. Last night I made him a PowerPoint saying that I was going to slay my beasts just like he did, because I want to be like him. He is my biggest inspiration.  He ran to me, weeping, and hugged me so tight. Then he said, "If I have to let you go for a while so you can slay your beasts, I will...!" Then I promptly burst into tears. I am a bit hopeful now. I know this is it. The final battle. My last stand. I WILL make it through this. I know it. 
No matter how bad the pain of leaving is now, it will be nothing compared to the joy of returning home victorious. I look forward to the day where I can finally say... I did it. I won. I have a battle ahead. But I have the support of the greatest army: an army of strangers who support me, and my loved ones who support me too. You guys are amazing. Thank you for your help. Without you I would have never been able to get to this point. :lardgrinn:   


  • Watching: an anime with a VERY long name that I can&#039;t s
  • Eating: ramen
  • Drinking: berry juice stuff
I have let my life fall apart completely... My emotions have unraveled into a mess of broken bulbs that once shone brightly with color and life...  I have let my entire family down... especially my father...who I will be leaving next week... I am moving nearly five hours away (by car) to live with my mother... I feel that I have betrayed him... I cannot go around pretending I am okay anymore...  I have lied to countless people... even doctors who were there to help me... I am at my lowest point... I finally am ready to help myself... I am finally ready to pick up the pieces of my broken life... I thought this would make me feel happy... but it hurts more than anything before... I am abandoning those I love... They keep telling me not to feel bad... That I need to get better... That my well-being is most important... but I cannot help but feel like I have betrayed them all... I am so sorry guys... I need to get better... I need to start fresh... We will still be friends and family... I just need to get my ducks in a row... I am sick of living this way... I really am... It has been almost 8 years of this... I am finally ready to be free of the darkness... I am sorry I have to go so far away.  But please know that I will definitely return once I am better. I am doing what I have wanted for so long. I am finally brave enoigh to face the beast. My sword is in hand. Wish me luck as I ride off to battle. I love you all so much! Huggle! 
  • Listening to: The pouring rain (very cliche right?)
I GOT BORED. THIS IS THE RESULT. ENJOY!!
:happybounce: This little dude just makes me giggle. 
Stare He is staring into your mind. And judging.
Nuu This reminds me of a little kid with pool floaties letting out a battle cry before doing a cannon-ball.
Oh Noes!  This reminds me of that famous Patrick Star expression
:stinkeye: This one is sick of your gutter mind. Lol. Or he is sick of mine, since I am the one who brought him onto this page and gave him purpose.
Have your cake and eat it too This is a frucking lie!!!!
Granny Let's face it... No one's granny looks this stereotypical.
:hooray:AWWWWW!
Eating WormsAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!
:bademoticon: Muahahaha
Jumping In The PuddleOMFG. SO. CUTE. *DIES FROM EXCESS RAINBOW LEAKAGE*


I got lazy that's why this is so short. xp. OOOOOHHHHH!!! I AM A GHHHOOOOOOST!!!!! (I died remember? From too much rainbow leakage. )
BYE!
 
 
 
  • Listening to: My cat snore
  • Reading: The Complete Idiot&#039;s Guide to Buddhisn
  • Watching: Numb3rs
  • Eating: chips
  • Drinking: a frappucino that I shouldn&#039;t be having. Shhh
Gah I feel like utter crap! This cold weather makes me sore and grumpy and exhausted! It already snowed here... I am not ready for winter...! I am already developing a cough, which is made worse by dairy, which I ADORE. I am also really stressed out over school work that I owe... Gaaaahhhhhh...... At least it is the time of day where I can relax.
  • Listening to: The noisy fishtank
  • Reading: The Complete Idiot&#039;s Guide to Buddhisn
  • Watching: Numb3rs
  • Eating: chips
  • Drinking: a frappucino that I shouldn&#039;t be having. Shhh
So, is it just me or can any of you not figure out if sloths are EPICALLY SUPER AWESOME AND BAD-ASS or horrible rapists? Based upon what the internet tells us of them, of course. 
  • Reading: English Shiz
  • Watching: Criminal Minds
Hello! And happy Hallows Eve! Please be safe tonight, and don't forget about this holiday's more... darker.... traditions. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!! I will not be taking part in festivities, for I have had my fun. Several days ago in fact. :/ Let me know what kind of delicious loot you get, or what cunning tricks you play! 
HAVE FUN!!!
Hey guys... Since it's been nearly a month since I have posted anything, I thought I would tell you all I am not dead. As I have mentioned before I am battling depression and other health issues as well as juggling a large amount of school work on top of that. So I rarely get any free time any more... I will try to post more! 






  
 
  • Watching: Helvetica
  • Eating: Cheesy garlic bread chips
  • Drinking: water
Heyyy, I was curious to know what you, my watchers, would like to see me post. What is your favorite type of thing that I have posted in the past? I would love to hear your opinions, they motivate me to actually work on art! :D 
If you guys want to challenge me to do something difficult, I am up for it. *Challenge accepted pose* 
Thaaanks!

  • Watching: Around the World in 80 Days (The classic version)
  • Drinking: Water
Hello, all! I just wanted to give yeh some updates and let yeh know I am not dead. xD
I am getting medical stuff straightened out... I had neurological tests today to see if I have been having seizures (not the kind where you convulse, the milder kind.) The doctor doesn't think I am having them, thank god. I am going back in four weeks to see what my MRI says and to check in.  I switched from public school into a cyber program. Again. I like this better. I can sleep in a little and work at my own pace. Plus I don't have to be around the annoying, ignorant creatures that make up my generation. x3 I am already done with a lot of work for this week. I got every bit of my math stuff done yesterday! *squee* I am so proud of myself!! I am actually getting out of bed and accomplishing what I need to! If I keep improving like this, I will... Well... I don't know what I would do, but it would be something EPIC. xP
    
I will hopefully be posting more once I get into the swing of being a responsible person again. (I am pathetic, I know. :'()
Anyway, thanks for putting up with my ramblings and absences! 
I wish you all the best! Heart 
  • Reading: Homestuck
  • Eating: CAKE.
  • Drinking: Water