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(again)standing up again...
Artist | Varied
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good art//traditional art//animation//comics//wholesome people//games//nature ♥
(occasional vape, smokin's bad...dont'smoke)
"but she told you to stay."
It is not true - and if that is what she wishes me to do, I need her to tell me directly.
So I know she understood what I talk about all this time.
If she can't do it, it means we still don't see eye to eye.

What's given or connected by God can't be severed, it will always be there. But everything else needs to be built up, like any relationship, friendship... if it's supposed to work longterm.
If what I say is bullshit and unrelated, no need to react to me, right.
you claimed your reactions are coincidence eitherway. no need to make it fit the situation, unless you are truly there to play mindgames and hurt people.


"sick hobby you've got."

the toxic and hurtful habits I've picked up after meeting you and wanting to please you are no hobbies of mine I enjoy or love to do. the actual healthy hobbies i do have i ceased to enjoy because of how much pain i had to deal with over past years. and it is time for me to focus my energy and love on those instead of pleasing someone who can't give me back nothing healthy or loving. It is what it is - bad habits done to please a toxic behavioral pattern of someone who operates from safe darkness. The toxic habits I've picked up in past few years do not define me as a person or my personality, it's things I've been forced to pick up or had to pick up in order to do right by you and help your lies blossoom into a real thing. i hope you can soon revert back to being a diary of someone, logs done for fun or ventilation. unrelated to me and not make bullying me the purpose of it.


i will always love my TF... but I see now reality of it - that it is a person who doesn't give a shit about me in real life, or so they act.
love and tender feelings are supposed to be told in person to the actual person, if you mean to build anything on those. if you can't, you cling to fear more than to love. i've expressed my self enough times to understand it moves not their heart, it just rustles their fear again. so i'll hold back now and open up to people who can accept me for who i truly am in real life, who aren't ashamed to be in aquiantance with me. who don't push me away.





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BaklavaLove Featured By Owner Jul 18, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
 Girl, I'm about to revive my tumblr so I can follow you again (assuming you're more active on there). I would LOVE to see some of your Undertale fanart posted here, too. >,< I mean, I love CATRAT, but that's definitely not the only reason I followed you.

I just wanna see your art again in general <3 Lovely Shoujo (Pretty Please) [V3] 
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Thekatlady123 Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2017
Your art is absolutely beautiful, continue drawing :)
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xTreefin Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
a long while ago, when we did an art trade, I promised much more art from my end. Now that I'm a bit more confident in my ability to draw, expect some fan art (an stuff along those lines) soon~

and also, congratulations on finishing Balloon Girl! Is it weird that I'm extremely proud of you...? Like, I haven't actually met you... outside of our art trade well I suppose that's just what happens when someone you look up to has accomplished something wonderful...oh goodness I really hope I'm not sounding like a total creeper right now (((( ;°Д°)))) 
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raintalker Featured By Owner May 21, 2015   General Artist
TT/////////TT Girl, thank you for all the love and kindness!! :hug:
You seem like a pretty cute, honest and awesome person, so no creepiness in that to me ;D I am a shy person so I might look like a big mouth on the net while being actually pretty introvert-esque. So knowing me on the internet is like knowink a side to me that I mostly don't show irl... Not many friends know about this DA site, so you actually know much more details about me than most people - in a way (because art says a lot and sometimes I am able to say some things only through pictures).
Don't feel pressured to draw, I also still haven't finished your giftart (still needs grey shades) so look forward to that. Take care and I am happy you like my art!
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xTreefin Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
(≧∇≦*) T...Thank you! And I'm kind of the same way (though not a lot of my art has any meaning... its just stuff... I envy you for your creative mind!) And  Ifeel truly honored to be able to talk to you and stuff. Seriously, your art is something that can make bad days into happy ones.

0-0 g...gift art?!??! I kind of just fell out of my chair oh my goodness gravy thank you so much!!! I mean wow! Just... I have no words! Thank you so much!!!
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Jaywing47 Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Congratulations on finishing Balloon Girl! :D I've been a big fan of your art for a long time, and finally hearing the news that your project is complete just gives me warm fuzzy feelings. Even though I've never really talked to you, I'm really proud of your progress as an artist. ^^ Congrats!
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raintalker Featured By Owner May 21, 2015   General Artist
:heart: That's sweet, thank you very much!!! ;//////; Seriously, thank you! I wish you the best of luck in whatever you want to accomplish!!
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epictoothpaste Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Do you know of any good protel (portal) fanfictions?
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raintalker Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2015   General Artist
Not recently, but if you have a tumblr account I am sure you'd find many helpful links there in the appropriate tag :) Out of the fire was amazing but didn't get nowhere near the actual conclusion....I think it's been deleted since. I stopped reading FF from that point on.
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