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It has been quite a long while since I have been on this site, for many reasons I have stayed off but I miss the sense of community I've received here, something I think I've been craving.

I am heartbroken to say I have lost another very close friend to me, and it has absolutely devastated my life.

This is Mark

Mark was a close friend of mine who tragically passed away August 20, 2016. He was one of the most genuine, caring people I've ever had to privilege to know, but was riddled with intense back pain and a depression brought on by tragedy in his own life. This pain eventually led him to self-medicate using percs, which eventually led him to Fentanyl, the beginning of the end. Friends and family all did their best to give him the love, help, and encouragement he needed. He voluntarily attended rehab for 35 days, and in that short time became much healthier than he had been in years. He would check in on everyone else before bed time each night to make sure everyone was alright, even though he himself was also there to get help. Things were looking up, but mere days after he left the drug was presented to him again, and the addiction was too strong for him to decline. Just five days after leaving rehab, Mark overdosed and was lost to us forever. It's a terrible feeling knowing that I'll never be able to see or talk to him again, and even worse knowing that his death was avoidable. His parents have put together a website in his honour, as well as to spread awareness of the dangers of Fentanyl. (SPLIT XD was his gaming tag, he was an avid COD player and actively enjoyed Dueling Network.)



Fentanyl is a synthetic opioid that is 50-100x more potent than morphine, and is prescribed for extreme pain, often to cancer patients. Only recently has the dangerous drug Fentanyl been brought to the public eye, and the amount of overdoses due to recreational use in recent years has increased significantly from the past. There are many methods of Fentanyl, the one I am most familiar with is the patch. Meant to be placed on the skin for release over many hours or even days, recreational users cut it into strips and smoke it. There is absolutely no way to know how much of the drug you are receiving this way (the drug is not distributed evenly on the patch), and as little as a few grains of sand too much is enough to shut your lungs down and cause overdose. There is now an even stronger version called Carfentanil, 10,000 more potent than morphine.

Fentanyl is also used in pill form (seen below). It is now becoming common for drug dealers to put Fentanyl into other drugs (coke, heroin, etc.) to increase the euphoria and addictiveness to have users come back for more. This can easily cause overdose, with many people unknowingly using the drug. Naloxone is the antidote, and when overdose occurs you only have 4 minutes to revive the person before it becomes too late (CPR and chest compression if you don't have the antidote since the victim's lungs have shut down and they can no longer breathe on their own.)

Fatal overdoses linked to Fentanyl have soared from 42 in 2012 to 418 in 2015. A huge part of the problem is that doctors are prescribing the drug far too easily (in 2015, enough prescriptions were written by doctors in Canada for every 1 in 2 Canadians), making abuse, misuse and illegal sale easier than ever. Ontario (where I reside) and its neighbouring provinces and states are being hit particularly hard ( Cincinnati, Ohio, having an outbreak of 178 overdose cases over a six-day period, Fentanyl found in 392 fatal overdose victims in past 2 years in Alberta, over 200 fatal overdoses in B.C. in first three months of 2016). The list goes on and on, but it is clear that this powerful drug is a significant problem and something needs to be done. Stay safe my friends, help those who need it and kids, don't do drugs.

My apologies for the depressing post, but I feel it's important that people know this is something that is happening, I wish you all the best my friends.
  • Listening to: Loverboy - The Cog Is Dead
  • Reading: Invisible Monsters
  • Watching: 13 Reasons Why
  • Playing: Monopoly
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Coffee
This is Michael Tuck. Some of you may recognize him from some other photos I've uploaded of him, he was always a great sport with my photography craze. In the early morning of January 28th, he died in a house fire due to unattended cooking. I haven't had the strength to post this here yet, but he deserves so much.

Mike by RaindropsOnRoses21

At 19 years old, Mike had his life together. He was an extremely avid runner, taking part in marathons and even making his way into the local paper occasionally. He was starting off in the military, something he always knew he wanted to do, and which left us worried, but proud of him. He was expecting an acceptance call back within the days he passed away. He rode his bike everywhere, even during our long Canadian winters. He was an avid gamer, spending a lot of his time on League of Legends, and Destiny. His favourite music style was classic/alternative rock, his favourite band was Queens of the Stone Age. He was a great friend, always positive and helping others over himself. I feel it's the least I can do to simply share this inspiring human being with others. This is the link to the only official news source of what happened:…

tl;dr: An amazing person was lost to us, but he will not be forgotten :heart:
  • Listening to: Stressed Out - Twenty One Pilots
  • Reading: The Child Thief - Brom
  • Watching: DarkNet
  • Playing: Binding of Isaac: Rebirth
  • Eating: Riesen's
  • Drinking: Coffee
Hello there friends! I, again, have been absent from DeviantArt for too long, and will be trying to focus my art life a little more. I recently went on a trip to Punta Cana, so expect some photos from that! I will be absent still for the following week as I will be camping, but after that I will definitely be back :aww:

I also wanted to mention the recent news of Robin Williams passing, which when I heard was like a punch to the chest, I couldn't believe it, and especially in such a way. My philosophy teacher would often say that it's the one who makes the jokes that has the darkest lives, which in some ways can be true. Being a sufferer of depression and suicidal tendencies myself, as well as a huge fan of Williams, the news really hit home, and I think it's extremely important for everyone to know how serious depression is for everyone. Please find help if you need it :heart:
  • Listening to: Death Rattle - Mallory Knox
  • Reading: The Odyssey - Homer
  • Watching: Soul Eater
  • Playing: Skyrim
  • Eating: Peach
  • Drinking: Water
Hey everyone! I've been gone from this site for quite a few months now, for many personal reasons. I haven't cared enough or been motivated to do anything lately, so I've had nothing to contribute. I'm trying very hard to get my life back around now, and I think this site and restarting my photography and modelling is a good place to start! I also appreciate all of the support I've received from the people here, I can't wait to discover new talent in everyone here again :aww:

                                                                                                                ~Julia Rae
  • Listening to: Daniel in the Den - Bastille
  • Reading: What's Eating Gilbert Grape - Peter Hedges
  • Watching: Blue Mountain State
  • Playing: Solitaire
  • Eating: Burnt Waffle
  • Drinking: Water
Hey all! I know this is a lot to ask, but I would really appreciate if you could check out a cover I did and tell me how it was? I would really appreciate it! :aww:… Please and thank you! :iconcameraglompplz:
  • Listening to: A Deep Slow Panic - AFI
  • Reading: Inheritance - Christopher Paolini
  • Watching: Lion King: Simba's Pride
  • Playing: Sims 2 Pets
  • Eating: Pancakes
  • Drinking: Water

I have been very inactive on this site as of late, and it's pretty unfortunate. I simply do not seem to have the motivation lately to go on, although I do still have many photos to upload. I hope that this period will pass quickly, as I miss all of the lovely art of you lovely people! Please forgive my absense, I'm sure I shall be up and going soon enough :aww:


Love you all! :iconheartglompplz:

  • Listening to: This Is Gospel - Panic! at the Disco
  • Reading: Inheritance - Christopher Paolini
  • Watching: Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy
  • Playing: Binding of Isaac
  • Eating: Cold Pizza
  • Drinking: Water
I know not many people, if any, are going to read this, I just need to get my little 'rant' out. I began thinking after I heard the news of Cory Monteith's death (rest in peace), and although I am not a fan of Glee, it is truly terrible and heartbreaking what happened.

I began seeing the infamous "millions cry for one, one cries for million' posts on various sites, and I must agree and disagree. Every person is equal, therefore nobody who dies is more or less deserving of their fate. It is also true, however, that we see celebrities as immortal, especially when their series/album/movie/etc. is not yet complete. So of course, when a tragedy does happen, we are in shock, some because the person who has passed is an idol to them, others are hit with the terrifying realization that they, and everyone they love, all have an end.

It is frightening to think about death, so many just don't. There is a part of everybody that believes we, and loved ones, will never cease to exist. Every illness, every threat of danger, we all believe we can overcome these obstacles with enough willpower and love. But we cannot.

The scariest of all are those (including myself) who fear death the most, yet at the same time contemplate, even to the point of planning, it's early arrival. Despite all this, I think what I really need to get out is that we should all just fucking live.

I apologize for this being so long, if anybody is even still reading at this point, I congratulate you for your patience! I love you all :iconheartglompplz:
  • Listening to: Kiss It All Better - He Is We
  • Reading: Room - Emma Donoghue
  • Watching: The Killing
  • Playing: Fable
  • Eating: Cap'n Crunch
  • Drinking: Milk
Sooo I made a MeetMe account to meet new people, make new friends, etc. I also did it so I can try to get over my social anxiety a bit more, so if any of you have an account, feel free to add me and message! :D :iconheartglompplz:

  • Listening to: Big Man - State Radio
  • Reading: Room - Emma Donoghue
  • Watching: Vines
  • Playing: Fable
  • Eating: Ice Cream
  • Drinking: Ice Cream ;)
Although I don't have a webcam and I'm very shy and uninteresting, I've decided to share my Skype account, so feel free to add me and message if you ever wanna chat!

My Skype name is JuliaRae21 :aww:

Have a lovely day!
  • Listening to: Broken Crown - Mumford & Sons
  • Reading: Alice: Madness Returns Artbook
  • Watching: Elfen Lied
  • Playing: Alice: Madness Returns
  • Eating: Kraft Dinner
  • Drinking: Ice Coffee

Points Feature!!!

Journal Entry: Thu Feb 23, 2012, 2:30 PM
I would like to thank here the few people who have been generous enough to donate some points to me! :heart:

Don't forget to 'like' me on Facebook!… :dummy:

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Harrison Ford as Deckard by Sitting-Brain Forest Rider by Sitting-Brain Second Id by Sitting-Brain Something Evil by Sitting-Brain My ID by Sitting-Brain

                                                                                                                            ~ :iconsugaree-33: ~

REVAMP ON FKA .... by Sugaree-33 HEART by Sugaree-33 :thumb345413796: Butters in Tartan Plaid by Sugaree-33 YO WHAT U LOOKIN' AT? by Sugaree-33

                                                                                                                           ~ :iconthehandsthatthieve: ~

                                                                                                                           ~ :iconteaphotography: ~         

Ostara by TeaPhotography Pure by TeaPhotography Through Herbie's Eyes by TeaPhotography The Magic Life of Sunbeams by TeaPhotography Goodness I Wish for You by TeaPhotography

                                                                                                                           ~ :icondeftones1979: ~

to see the beauty by deftones1979 bird castle by deftones1979 coneflower by deftones1979 Polyphemus Moth by deftones1979 sweet by deftones1979

                                                                                                                           ~ :icondhbraley: ~

Superman (marker practice) by dhbraley DARK VIOLINIST by dhbraley The Corner at Dawn in Early Fall by dhbraley DC's Trinity-Various Mediums-Batman-Charcoal by dhbraley I Swear I'll Return to You by dhbraley

                                                                                                                           ~ :iconmr-farts: ~

Deep inside Wallpaper by Mr-farts Natural angrybird by Mr-farts Fungi battle by Mr-farts Feather Dreams by Mr-farts Safest Edge by Mr-farts

                                                                                                                           ~ :iconmoodyblue: ~

'Random Acts Of Beauty' by MoodyBlue Fragments Of Perfection by MoodyBlue Fragments Of My Lyrical Despair by MoodyBlue 'LONESOME WANDERER' by MoodyBlue Internal Landscape by MoodyBlue

                                                                                                                           ~ :iconcaseydn: ~

Lake Tahoe by CaseyDN Flowers for someone so amazing by CaseyDN more magic by CaseyDN rainbow 2 by CaseyDN Fur Sarah by CaseyDN

                                                                                                                           ~ :iconxicycoldlovex: ~

An October Face by Xicycoldlovex Bright sparkle by Xicycoldlovex Perfect patch by Xicycoldlovex Firework by Xicycoldlovex Mountain view by Xicycoldlovex

                                                                                                                           ~ :iconturtledove21: ~

I love Turtles stamp by Turtledove21 Taped RomanceIf you stopped me,
here and now,
I'd tell you how
I want to rewind.
For us to be actors,
with a taped romance.
So what if it's corny?
At least it would be something.
To rewrite the script,
so that anything I ever said
or did to hurt you
would all be a dream.
I want to tell you
everything you mean to me
and how I couldn't bear to lose you
especially now.
But first,
we would have to meet.
And I don't think the script calls for that.
Frog.... by Turtledove21 In the Cold by Turtledove21 All Love Is Equal Stamp by Turtledove21

                                                                                                                            ~ :iconjoshi1404: ~

Chairoplane by joshi1404 Amazonia by joshi1404 Back for blood by joshi1404 Ready for venice by joshi1404 The loss by joshi1404

                                                                                                                            ~ :iconbowtiephotography: ~

Spring in Oklahoma 4 by bowtiephotography Mini Shoot 1 by bowtiephotography Mini Shoot 4 by bowtiephotography Streaking is Fun III by bowtiephotography Drive into the Sunrise by bowtiephotography

                                                                                                                            ~ :iconsketchbook-dancer88: ~

Red Field-Black Sky by Sketchbook-Dancer88 Sayuri by Sketchbook-Dancer88 Little (Abandoned) House on the Prairie by Sketchbook-Dancer88 Twilight Princess by Sketchbook-Dancer88 Water on a Wire by Sketchbook-Dancer88

                                                                                                                            ~ :iconhuicca: ~

:thumb281414991: :thumb291526962: :thumb309114179: :thumb312893621: :thumb314178536:

                                                                                                                            ~ :iconmadeleinealana: ~

Lily II by MadeleineAlana Cat by MadeleineAlana Ghostly by MadeleineAlana Highlands XXVIII by MadeleineAlana Plum Blossom XVIII by MadeleineAlana

                                                                                                                            ~ :iconsweetmarly: ~

Melancholy Blue Rose by sweetmarly Angel of Mercy by sweetmarly Celtic Skull by sweetmarly The Farm by sweetmarly Who loves ya Sweetie 2 by sweetmarly

                                                                                                                            ~ :iconveeegeee: ~

:thumb280593550: The Anguish by veeegeee Urban Eyez by veeegeee Speed by veeegeee Chain ReactionThoughts, inexpressable by words,
Are formed before my eyes.
The clear skies of reason
Are distorted by endless
Clouds of emotion.

                                                                                                                            ~ :iconan-illusion: ~

We are Broken by an-illusion Bhopal by an-illusion Tall by an-illusion Please Don't by an-illusion Toad 2 by an-illusion

  • Listening to: Lost In My Mind - The Head and the Heart
  • Reading: A Casual Vacancy - J.K. Rowling
  • Watching: Kick-Ass
  • Playing: Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Blue
  • Eating: Kraft Dinner
  • Drinking: Water