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Ungrateful

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Ungrateful

It’s hard to be grateful for what you have, When you’re stuck thinking about what you don’t. So many people wish for material things, New things, Items that will make them feel fulfilled. I don’t care about that stuff Most of the time. It’s hard to be grateful for what you have, When all you can think about is what you don’t. My sanity, Some clarity, Maybe some antidepressants, Silence, real silence, where even the voice in my head shuts up. It’s hard to be grateful for what you have, When the thought of what you don’t consumes you. Someone to understand me, Some way to understand myself. But I

A Prologue to My Paranoia

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A Prologue to My Paranoia

I’m so scared of death. Not out of fear for my life; Out of fear for yours.

Burning in my Heart

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Burning in my Heart

There’s a story burning in my heart And sizzling on my tongue, But you would hate it. It’s as though the Devil himself is reaching Down my throat Trying to pull the words from my very soul. But you will never hear it; I won’t let you. Because I know that if I do, You won’t be able to bear the pain Of those burns.

Listening

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Listening

Listening shouldn't mean Memorizing my words And indifferently repeating them to prove a stupid point, Because all that means is that You’re lying to the both of us. While you sit there memorizing, I’m pouring my heart out About how nobody truly cares about What I have to say.

Passing Thought #1

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Passing Thought #1

Most of my work is just a summary of my thoughts. So how ridiculous is it that I find it all meaningless?

Spiral

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Spiral

Every once in a while-- No, almost all the time now-- I’ll find myself slipping into A hate spiral. It’s when I slowly succumb To my anger and disappointment, To a point where I can barely mask my rage. I barely know what I’m angry at anymore. Is it myself? My loved ones, Who constantly fail to make any effort To understand me? Or is it just the world in general? Whatever the reason, I can barely contain it. When I’m with my friends, I feel like throwing up Because the pressure to pretend to be okay Is too much of a burden. It takes so much effort to get up in the morning, That often I can’t go out at all. It fee

Peace

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Peace

I know that you’re suffering, And I want to help you, But you keep pushing me away. I don’t know how you feel; I’ve rarely ever been upset before. And yet, somehow, I can still feel your pain. I wish that I could share with you The peace that I’ve been blessed with.

Rage

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Rage

Red hot anger Boiling my blood, Clouding my vision, And moving my limbs. Giving a voice to all of my bitterest thoughts. I want to scream. I want to lash out. I know that I’ve gotten out of control, But I just can’t control my rage.
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Ungrateful

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Ungrateful

It’s hard to be grateful for what you have, When you’re stuck thinking about what you don’t. So many people wish for material things, New things, Items that will make them feel fulfilled. I don’t care about that stuff Most of the time. It’s hard to be grateful for what you have, When all you can think about is what you don’t. My sanity, Some clarity, Maybe some antidepressants, Silence, real silence, where even the voice in my head shuts up. It’s hard to be grateful for what you have, When the thought of what you don’t consumes you. Someone to understand me, Some way to understand myself. But I

A Prologue to My Paranoia

A

A Prologue to My Paranoia

I’m so scared of death. Not out of fear for my life; Out of fear for yours.

Burning in my Heart

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Burning in my Heart

There’s a story burning in my heart And sizzling on my tongue, But you would hate it. It’s as though the Devil himself is reaching Down my throat Trying to pull the words from my very soul. But you will never hear it; I won’t let you. Because I know that if I do, You won’t be able to bear the pain Of those burns.

Listening

L

Listening

Listening shouldn't mean Memorizing my words And indifferently repeating them to prove a stupid point, Because all that means is that You’re lying to the both of us. While you sit there memorizing, I’m pouring my heart out About how nobody truly cares about What I have to say.

Passing Thought #1

P

Passing Thought #1

Most of my work is just a summary of my thoughts. So how ridiculous is it that I find it all meaningless?

Spiral

S

Spiral

Every once in a while-- No, almost all the time now-- I’ll find myself slipping into A hate spiral. It’s when I slowly succumb To my anger and disappointment, To a point where I can barely mask my rage. I barely know what I’m angry at anymore. Is it myself? My loved ones, Who constantly fail to make any effort To understand me? Or is it just the world in general? Whatever the reason, I can barely contain it. When I’m with my friends, I feel like throwing up Because the pressure to pretend to be okay Is too much of a burden. It takes so much effort to get up in the morning, That often I can’t go out at all. It fee

Peace

P

Peace

I know that you’re suffering, And I want to help you, But you keep pushing me away. I don’t know how you feel; I’ve rarely ever been upset before. And yet, somehow, I can still feel your pain. I wish that I could share with you The peace that I’ve been blessed with.

Rage

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Rage

Red hot anger Boiling my blood, Clouding my vision, And moving my limbs. Giving a voice to all of my bitterest thoughts. I want to scream. I want to lash out. I know that I’ve gotten out of control, But I just can’t control my rage.
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  • Nov 16
  • Canada
  • Deviant for 7 years
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My Bio
I would write about myself but I'm pretty weird and I'd just end up confusing everyone soo... ;P

Favourite Movies
One Piece movies (all), Superman/Batman: Public Enemies, Superman/Batman: Apocalypse, The Dark Knight Returns pt. 1-2, Superman vs The Elite
Favourite TV Shows
One Piece, Attack On Titan, Adventure Time, Steven Universe, Regular Show, The Fosters, Hunter x Hunter, Fairy Tail, Anohana, Nagi no Asukara, Tonari no Kaibutsukun, Nisekoi, Soul Eater, Kimi ni Todoke, Ao Haru Ride, SAO
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Pierce the Veil, Hands Like Houses, All Time Low, Paramore, Bring Me The Horizon, Eyes Set To Kill, Motionless In White, blessthefall, A Day To Remember, Issues, Of Mice & Men
Favourite Books
Pride and Prejudice, the Heir series, the Seven Realms series, the Percy Jackson series, the Heroes of Olympus series, The Mortal Instruments series (still reading), the Divergent series, and a variety of comic books that I'm currently too lazy to name~
Favourite Writers
Cinda Williams Chima, Rick Riordan, Jane Austen
Favourite Games
Kingdom Hearts 1-2
Other Interests
Writing, reading comics, watching anime/reading manga

Hi

Hi

So I haven't been very active and I haven't been commenting or replying much if at all because I've been very busy. A few quick updates: I GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL so that's pretty fucking cool if you ask meI spiraled into the abyss and actually crawled out this time somewhat. It wasn't easy it was like scraping up a pile of sentient sewer sludge with chopsticks and tbh there might still be a few bits that I missed but meepI REALIZED THE IMPORTANCE OF TELLING SOME PEOPLE HOW STUPID THEY ARE WHEN THEY'RE BEING STUPIDI ALSO REALIZED HOW MUCH I LOVE !Bubblemaster7 (https://www.deviantart.com/bubblemaster7) TBH I ALWAYS knew that but our dear Simon has apparently forgotten how much I L

THANK YOU FRIENDS!!!

THANK YOU FRIENDS!!!

    OMG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME A HAPPY BIRTHDAY WHICH WAS LIKE 3 PEOPLE ON DA BUT THAT'S OKAY BECAUSE I LOVE YOU ALL REGARDLESS    I'M SO SORRY THAT I'M SO BACKED UP ON MESSAGES AND LIFE AND EVERYTHING, I'VE BEEN SO SWAMPED WITH SCHOOL WORK. THIS IS ONE OF THE FEW FREE MOMENTS THAT I HAVE TO TRY TO PIECE MY LIFE BACK TOGETHER.    Anyway, thank you guys. That really made my day. Literally all of my friends forgot except for one until my supervisor gave me a present in front of them halfway through the day. I feel so loved, truly -_- And then some of my friends saw my Snapchat story about all of the shit I got from my family an

Idk, whatever

Idk, whatever

So, my anxiety's getting worse. Like, a lot worse. I'm not in control anymore and it really sucks because I'm constantly freaking out and nobody really gets it because I only know like two other people with anxiety, and they've been working through it for years now so the stage they're at looks unattainable to me. Also, I turned my therapist down when she offered me meds, so they also have that as an advantage. I just feel like that unappealing muck that someone spilled on the filthy sidewalk of a busy downtown street, because my feelings about my anxiety have been making me feel more depressed recently and it just makes me feel gross. I als

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OMG THANKS FOR REMEMBERING AGAIN ILY
No problem, lol I just realized that we're both Scorpios.
Ayyyyy when's your birthday?? I'm never on DA so I wouldn't know
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Thank you for the support, I really appreciate it! <3
No problem! You've earned it from all of your watchers :D
HAPPY HAPPPY HAPPPY BIRTHDAY RADDD @!!!!!