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Left Behind
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Published: March 2, 2019
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VENT with my MLP sona. Not really based on any one specific thing. Just a lot of things. It's not really about anything on the internet, more real life stuff.

When I was a kid/teen, I never really fit in with anyone. Occasionally I would have a friend, but then they'd lose interest in the things I liked and move on, outgrowing me. The only place I could find people I could be friends with for a long time was the internet.

In real life, people have found so many problems with me because I "wouldn't change." Most other kids would grow older, find new interests, when I would like and do the same things. I didn't think it was bad for others to change, I just wished I wasn't alone.

Now I'm worried about the future because I know how much worse this will get as I grow older. Most people I know will move on to where I can never go (like having romantic relationships/starting a traditional family; I am aroace so that's not going to happen for me). Again I wouldn't mind this, if it didn't mean I'd be alone. I guess I'll be that person who lives alone with animals and just writes stories in all their spare time. I hope that will be enough to keep me happy.

On a more minor (but also sad), note, people have been speculating about the end of the My Little Pony series and if it would be about the characters saying goodbye to each other. I know if that happens, it would be a good lesson, it would help a lot of people, so on, blah blah blah. I GET IT. But...I want a fictional universe where a found family can stay a found family. I know it can't happen in real life so let me see it in fiction, darn it! /end rant
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Dragonwolf122191Hobbyist Digital Artist
I know that feeling well I feel time and people move on too fast and its hard to keep up, or it feels unfair to let go of something you've loved for so long... it's depressing really... but know you're not alone friend there are others like you, yes people move on and times change but all the more reason to remember the good things. things that you don't need to nor ever let go...
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racingwolfHobbyist Writer
Yeah, I can never keep up with other people when they change a ton. And yes, that is true, thank you. ^^
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Dragonwolf122191Hobbyist Digital Artist
of course ^^
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NavelColtHobbyist Writer
Change is essential to grow as a person, but it can appear scary. I've had an anxiety disorder that's held me back from going to school and following my dreams for years, instead content in a daily, predictable routine. The comfort zone can be a box that prevents growth, but at some point we all need to venture on outside it.

But from the looks of it you've matured in a creative sense, you've taught yourself a wide variety of things, as I mentioned in my other comment. Perhaps growth for you now is simply in a social sense, perhaps a higher education/rewarding job sense, as well. :) (Smile)

Just remember that you don't have to do everything alone. Reaching out for therapy or trying medication is not a crutch or a sign of weakness. I adamantly was against trying medication for years and am only now trying what's helped my family with our disorder for generations.

Your bug is very cute and I'm sure he'll find friends, just as you can. ^^
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racingwolfHobbyist Writer
Yes, I agree, I've been trying to post more things and try things I haven't before, even though I'm scared of what people will say.

Thank you! And yeah I definitely matured in ways from when I started to draw/write and do creative stuff. I just don't change in the way most people (in my real life) do. But there are people online I have a lot in common with.

And thank you, that is definitely true!

Thanks! =D
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Very depressing
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racingwolfHobbyist Writer
Yep :C
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MorningSunEspeonHobbyist Writer
I can relate to a lot of what you're saying here, Carly. Not everyone handles change well, while others embrace it. Me? I dislike change. Life's very much a routine pattern for me, so when something upsets that - even if it's minor - it annoys me. Still, change does and IS happening all the time, but there's no harm in loving the same things. I don't really know what advice I can give you, and I feel bad for you; like, makes me wanna add you on DS/Switch to play some Pokemon.

Speaking of, you looking forward to gen 8? :)
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racingwolfHobbyist Writer
Yeah, I've never been able to deal with change very well. And ever since I was a kid, I noticed I didn't really change like others did. Of course I would learn and stuff, but I still liked the same things and wrote about the same fantasy worlds. And that's okay. ^^ Haha, I still gotta finish Let's Go Pikachu! It would be fun to play together. =D

Yes, I love the starters so far. Can't wait to see more new pokemon.
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Yeah, I feel ya.
And it totally would be! Thing is... I don't actually own a Switch yet, will be when gen 8 gets closer. But yeah, I'll note you my friend code and such when I do, should be fun! ^^

Cool! Know who you'll be choosing, or you gonna wait to see their final forms?
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racingwolfHobbyist Writer
That's totally fine!

I'm waiting to see the final forms. I really like Sobble though. xD
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I was the same way when I was little. (I still kinda AM!!! xD) I feel for ya racingwolf. At least we all share the same interests on here! :D
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racingwolfHobbyist Writer
Yeah, same. That is true!
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craftingbyronStudent General Artist
I am feeling the same way sometimes, where your friends change but you are still the same and when they want to do something you don't they just... disconnect.
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racingwolfHobbyist Writer
Yep. :C
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craftingbyronStudent General Artist
At least we still have ponys!
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racingwolfHobbyist Writer
Yep. =D
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