racingwolf

So something I was very, very scared of happening has happened and I feel completely defeated and hopeless. I don't want to go into what it is because I don't think I could explain, and the advice I've seen given to others for similar things would 100% make it worse for me. I'm really struggling to find reasons enough to make me want to keep living and I don't know how to explain why. I just feel hopeless and like I'm at the end of the road. I'm not going to die right now or anything but I don't know how to keep going. And this has nothing to do with my ex-friend; this thing that happened is far, far worse than anything she could have done to me even at her very worst. I'd take all her abuse over this. I just don't want to see what's coming next, or live with this. I feel lost. Too much bad has happened. I can't deal with this. I feel like it's over for me, not in the sense of dying or anything like that, but in the sense that my last bit of hope is gone. And I'm afraid of what's