Long time no see~! This isn't the best update but I figured there were prob peeps who don't follow my journals so I'm gonna post this here too I think...
So...I have stage 4 Fibrosis Sarcoma cancer.....Doctor says I have about a year, year and a half left, so.. ...I'm not really sure what to say tbh. I've been cracking jokes on twitter but, well, tbh I'm pretty stressed haha... though, I'm already pretty nihilistic so I really just need to get over my mortality haha...easier said than done tho xD. Uhh....well, I guess I don't have to worry about recycling anymore, my emission's about to get cut real short lmao. Still gotta crack jokes or it's just sad man lol
that's all I have to say right now. I appreciate all the support on twitter and people becoming my patron is just so sweet, thank you guys so much. I apologize my condition might only get worse before it gets better though, I still have a lot of pain problems right now actually...i think that's the worst part of this though, is the pain. god. I'm so tired.
ps. I don't JUST have cancer, I ALSO have a severe heart condition and I'm on a LOT of heart medication which I need to live, so please refrain from making medical advice unless you're an oncologist, cardiologist, or both. Honestly. Please please.
pps. I don't know how much I will use deviantart from now on. I just keep forgetting, sorry @__@;; Probably more than usual now. I'll be a little more active on patreon and twitter mostly, though insta too probably.
thanks for still following me on deviantart. I'm kinda surprised there are still peeps here on my page hahaha...
I did not know you at all, I only found out about you when you opened up about your stress of living with cancer as well as learning to deal with your mortality. When I looked further back, I was amazed at how beautiful your art was and I can see how much of a positive influence you have been. Despite me not being religious, I hope that there is an afterlife and you are thriving there, still drawing to your heart's content.
I wish she knew that I was making this comment, that the people before me who were also too late to say their goodbyes wrote theirs. I wish she knew the words of encouragement we have written and probably still will be writing long after this has been made. I wish she knew the words you are about to read:
I miss you. May you forever rest in peace.
Though your bones may turn to dust
Your hair never turned grey
Your eyes now glazed over evermore
Yet the colors you have used will soar
And though the sky darkens without you knowing
You showed your world with art, still glowing
We will miss you, though your time came
The impact of you on us will gain
And we will miss you, forevermore
I used to follow you on instagram since I made my account and you inspired me to start using watercolors and they are now my favorite media to work with. You are still deeply missed by everyone, fly high angel :(
More than a decade ago, I was just a kid browsing the internet, I remember stumbling upon your deviant art page and thought its pretty cool, I liked the art.
But because I was a kid back then and didn't really knew what I was doing, so I forgot about it almost immediately lol. now, I just finished college last year and have a job in engineering, I randomly came across this piece in my feed, the style looked somewhat familiar, took a while but I remembered that it was you. I was happy that I've rediscovered the long lost artist that I admired a decade ago.
And then I read all your journal and status updates, and...
That little flame of happiness that was lit up was extinguished almost immediately.
Ah well... Rest in Peace Qinni.
I'm just an old fan from a time gone by, passing here to pay my respect.
Thank you so much for creating such a breath-taking art. After seeing your art, I felt like the moon and stars are very beautiful in the way I've never seen before. Rest in peace. We will always miss you. 💕
I only found you after you passed, but I’ve come to pay my respects. I wish I could have seen your work while you were alive, and I hope you find your place in the heavens. Rest in peace.