OK, I just wanna get something off my chest... I acknowledge that I have Autism and Schizophrenia. I know that they are not to be used as excuses, and should never be used as such.
HOWEVER: People at the very least should try to respect other people, mental disorder/illness/whatever or not. I accept the fact that I have Autism and Schizophrenia. It makes me who I am, I do not deny that. I'm not going to ask you to be nice to me (even though I would appreciate it), I am not going to ask you to appreciate what I do (even though I would like that), what I WILL ask is that you treat me like any other person. And no, that is not me saying "I have a mental illness/disorder/whatever, so you need to treat me nicely!!!!!!11!!1!" NO. I am NOT like that. At all. I appreciate the fact that some people will be nice to you, and I acknowledge and know that there will be assholes out there who don't like me.
So I ask you this... Welcome me in open arms, or banish me to hell. It's your choice.
I am not some 12yr-old faggot or whatever who whines because he can't get what he wants, I realize and accept that some things can take time, and we can't always get what we want. What I WISH, however, is that people WOULD treat others nicely, regardless of what they are, and what illnesses/disorders/whatever they may have.
In fact, I am a 23 Year Old Adult, who can take care of himself, and knows what to do under the given circumstances. If someone pisses me off, I will try to let them know, but I cannot promise that I will always do that.
And listen... Even if I have a hard time controlling myself, which I don't always have, and I know that I CAN control myself, I always try to make sure I stay calm given the circumstances required and presented at me.
So I ask you: What can you do to help me? I'm not asking for help, I'm not trying to do anything out of the ordinary, I'm asking you a simple question:
What can you do to help me?
I take my medicine regularly, I have an alarm so that I never forget, and even when I do forget or put it off, I try to make sure I take my medicine before it becomes too late.
I wanna make sure I will never become the person I was in the past. But that part of me helped me to learn, like it or not. I try to learn from my mistakes, and I learn not repeat them, lest I want to repeat history. So I just wanna ask you again...
What can you do to help me? Please leave your answer down below. I don't know if I've upset anyone with what I've said, or what I will say, but I can say that I am sorry. You don't have to forgive me, I just want you to know that I am sorry. If you ask what I'm sorry about, please send me a message, and try not to frighten or threaten me. I am asking you that nicely... I do not appreciate threats, and I think people who use those are just sad, sorry excuses of a person who just try to get what they want in life. To those who do that, LISTEN : Things will not always go your way! There may be times when you have to make a penultimate choice! And that may be from putting off someone's art trade, commission or whatever to doing more important things in your life, and vice versa. What's more important in life? A painting that can be done later, or helping a friend in trouble? Think about these carefully...
It's a lot like asking yourself this riddle:
You're at a river, and you notice your mother, a bag of $1,000,000.00, and your best friend are all inside it. The rapids are very fast, and you only have enough time to save one of these things. Which will you choose? Who you choose reveals more about yourself. Me? I would save my mother or my best friend. Money can be gotten later, but most of the time, you can't always replace a best friend, but family members are NOT replaceable.
As for me, would I choose doing a painting, or saving a best friend? I would choose the best friend. Paintings can be destroyed and are always (mostly) replaceable, but best friends are forever, and need to be cherished. I would rather take the time out of my day to cheer someone up rather than to paint a masterpiece which can always be done later. Now, if you're someone who does a painting more than cheering someone up, I am not trying to attack you (I honestly am not), but you seriously need to reevaluate your life. Work comes first, sure, but friends are forever.
The reason I am saying this is because an ex-friend blocked me on FaceBook because I wouldn't paint him something that he desperately wanted, and that I preferred to rescue a friend instead. I would rather risk losing a friend who's being greedy and save a friend in trouble, than being forced to make a painting. You couldn't even force me to do that at gunpoint, I AM THAT DEAD SERIOUS. Now, do I regret having him block me on FaceBook? Not exactly. I wish he wouldn't have done that, and would understand that friends are something worth having... A friend who always asks for stuff he doesn't need and always wants is NOT a best friend. They are moochers. Now, in the past, I may have accidentally done that, because I was needy; I NOW realize that things cannot always go your way. I will not force someone to do something for me just because I am selfish. In fact, I'm not selfish anymore. (Or at least I try not to be.) I realize that people have important works that they want done, and in fact, we cannot always get what we want. I wish I would do some people's work, and it's not because I'm lazy or unmotivated, right, but rather because I have ARTIST'S BLOCK. I don't always have that, but sometimes, I will use an avatar maker or whatever to make sure my work gets done.
I would rather be lazy and have to credit someone's art than to take time to do something myself. Actually, I wish I WOULD do handmade art, but my art is so shitty I sometimes prefer not to share it. So sometimes, you gotta take the work and time out of your day to do something handmade you could have done ages ago. I know that's a bit hypocritical of me to say, but it's the truth. Something I should live by, I know, but we can't always get things done on schedule. And that's not an excuse, that's the hard truth of it all! I want to be a better person, and I know I can be, if I just respect people for who they are regardless of what they look like, and what ailments/illnesses/disorders they have. And I try very hard to do that!
I am a nice guy, but even I deserve a break now and then, don't I?
Thank you all for reading this, and I hope you all understand what I'm trying to come across to you as. Not a hypocrite, but someone who knows the truth after a few years of experience. Have a nice day.
Listening to: Touhou Music
Watching: Chuggaconroy's Yoshi's Woolly World
Playing: Poochy & Yoshi's Woolly World
Drinking: Sweet Tea