PrinceofStars

Staring at your picture all night, Trying to figure out how to make things right. Seeing that smile on your face, Knowing of the hurt I want to erase. Confusion between us I could've prevented, The rules of my heart were circumvented. And what was wasn't nearly as it should've been, Shaken to the core, and I can't win. Want to know that on the other end I've made your day, Want to know that you take to heart everything I say. Damn, if this got any clearer, I could see straight through it, I want to please you; and the desire grows bit by bit. I asked, just wanting to know, Already acknowledging the truth in my heart; here I go Doing it aga...

Walking step by step, arms straight out ahead of me, Feeling around for anything that might assist me to getting where I need to be. Eyes blind from the unknown, no knowledge of what may come, Fighting desperately to grasp onto what eludes some. Every time I catch it, it slips right through my grip, And every time I take a step forward, I jump back, afraid to slip, Into the abyss where I'm afraid to fall, Into the darkness where my carefully cultivated logic doesn't make sense at all. I wave my arms madly, searching for something to stop me in my tracks, Looking around for the obstacle that will give me a reason to turn around and go back....

You've never seen me shed a tear, you've never seen me cry, You've never seen the look on my face after you said 'no' and I wondered why. You'll never know how I sit in my room and stare absently at the four walls, You'll never know how hard it was to not return those four missed calls. You've never seen me cringe at the thought or sight of you with someone other than me, You've only ever seen me hold my head high and make ignoring you look easy. You've never been able to see past the smile that held so much hurt and anger, Never knew how it tore me up inside to see boys play you like Lil Wayne in the CD player. All I've ever given you was...

Help me, I feel myself getting weak, Please, call someone and tell them what's wrong, because I can't speak. Get the ambulance; quick, things are going black, Make sure you get me my doctor, because only she can bring me back. Hurry, hook me up to an IV, So that you can put your love back into me. Can I get some kind of CPR, Breathe into me your affections again, or I won't get very far. Doctor, I can feel my line going straight, Only your medicine can save me from my fate. My heart's beating too fast, do something to slow it down, Give me something baby; please help me stay around. I'll die without you in my life; you not being here is pu...

Scrolling through Yahoo, looking at the accumulated messages, Clicking on each one with her name, reading the aged passages. So many hers have sent their joy and pain to me by means of a click, And so many of the words remain true, and so many of the thoughts still stick. Memories about good times with her here, Memories of bad times when I couldn't hold her near. Words of adoration and forever punctuated with a smiley face, Phrases of hatred and ended relationships peppered throughout this space. Too many frivolous promises about matrimonial bliss from this one, and this one, and that one, Far too many blames placed on me by women who pro...