As many of you heard, My Chemical Romance has officially broken up. Yeah, I can't believe it either. I woke up this morning, and the first thing that I hear is that My Chemical Romance broke up. I was crying for about 20 minutes straight. I found out that I'm not the only one who is deeply affected by this. So, I decided to tell you my story and my memories with My Chemical Romance.
The first time I heard My Chemical Romance was back in 2004. I was 8 years old. My brother and I were taking turns watching music videos one day. We played music videos like Metallica, Linkin Park, Green Day, Alice in Chains, Slipknot, etc. At one point, I started playing the Wake Me Up When September Ends music video. After the video played out, it was my brother's turn to play a video. He then pulled up the Helena music video. When I first saw Gerard pop up on the screen, and as I was listening to the song, at first, I was like, "These guys are weird." But as I was watching the music video, I was liking it. When the music video was over, I told my brother, "Play. That. Video. Again." I was instantly hooked after that.
So, if you haven't figured it out, the very first MCR album I heard was Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge. Har har.
After my brother introduced me to this band, I would listen to them all day, every day. Then, 2006 comes along. That was the year that pretty much changed my life forever. I was 10 years old. I was in 5th grade. As many of you know, 2006 was the year that the recognizable album, The Black Parade, came out. I was psyched that My Chem came out with a new album. My brother bought the CD, and he burned me a copy of the CD. As soon as I started listening to the CD, I fell in love with them even more so than I did before. My brother and I were both so in love with that album, we got our dad to listen to them, and he was instantly hooked. He enjoyed that album. He thinks that The Black Parade is one of the best albums to come out of the 21st century. He calls it a masterpiece, along with American Idiot. Here's a little hint. I fell in love with Green Day the same year I fell in love with MCR, since Three Cheers and American Idiot both came out the same year. Lol. Anyways...
I have a lot of memories with The Black Parade. My dad and I would listen to the album every day, and we would always listen to the CD when he would pick me up from school. Throughout 5th grade, I would not stop thinking or talking about this amazing band named My Chemical Romance. I would always talk about them with my friends at school. They eventually got tired of me talking about them. I wouldn't blame them. Lol. I was also bullied a lot in 5th grade. I was bullied a lot through most of my school life. All through elementary and middle school, I was brutally bullied. From 3rd grade to 6th grade, the only bands that I would listen to all day, every day, were The Beatles, Green Day, and My Chemical Romance. Mainly My Chemical Romance. I had a huge obsession with MCR throughout those years.
Starting in between 6th grade and 7th grade, I kinda distanced myself from My Chem, because I made myself sick of them, and it was also because of the fact that I had a few friends who weren't into Rock (I went to a small K-8 school). They were mainly into the Rap and Hip-Hop shit, so I was kinda forced to listen to that kind of stuff. But because I made myself sick of My Chem at the time, I then went on to discover other magnificent bands, like Avenged Sevenfold, Bullet For My Valentine, Lamb of God, Five Finger Death Punch, Slipknot, etc.
Then, 8th grade comes along. 2009-2010 was my 8th grade year. I was kinda getting back into My Chem, but not really. I had a different obsession that year. My 8th grade year was the year that I was completely obsessed with Bon Jovi. My Bon Jovi obsession was pretty much like my MCR obsession in 5th and 6th grade. I would listen to Bon Jovi all day, every day. I was so obsessed with them, it got to the point where my friends and family were sick of them. Yeah....it was that bad. *slowly walks away in shame*
Now, here comes my Freshman year of high school in 2010-2011. I was slowly starting to listen to MCR again, but again, not as often. Then, I hear around October or November 2010 that MCR was coming out with a new album called Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys. I was psyched. The first song I heard off of that album was Na Na Na. At first, it didn't turn my crank. It wasn't my cup of tea. Then, I eventually liked the song. But I didn't think it was the best song off of the album. Then, I heard SING. That song is just amazing. I would listen to SING every single day. I didn't have the whole album yet, but...it was something, right? Lol. So, that was when I fell in love with My Chemical Romance again.
Unfortunately, my Freshman year was also the year that I really started going downhill. Since I was in 7th grade, my family was going through financial problems, and there were a lot of times where we were on the verge of losing our house. It really affected me throughout 7th and 8th grade. It started to brutally affect me Freshman year, which eventually led to my depression. Throughout the entire months of December 2010 to January 2011, I was truly depressed. I didn't wanna do anything. I didn't wanna go to school, I didn't wanna do my homework, I didn't wanna be outside, I didn't wanna go to my karate lessons. I basically didn't wanna do anything except cry in a corner and wallow in my own sorrow. Then, around the end of January 2011 to February 2011, I was gonna commit suicide. I was gonna hang myself, but I couldn't find a rope, so that kinda annoyed me. I wanted to have a quick, 2 second death. But since there wasn't a rope around the house, I was gonna go into the kitchen and grab a kitchen knife. I was gonna stab myself in the heart.
I was about to go get the knife, and then, my iTunes was playing on my computer. My iTunes was playing The Black Parade. Famous Last Words, possibly my absolute favorite song off of the album, was playing. I was listening to the song, and then, I brutally bitch slapped myself saying, "What the fuck are you doing?!"
So, after that night, My Chemical Romance saved my life. About a couple months later, I had the privilege of seeing My Chemical Romance in concert. I saw them twice in the same year. I saw them 5 months apart. The first time I saw them was on Gerard's birthday. They played at the Fillmore Auditorium in Denver, Colorado, on April 9th, 2011. I was fucking psyched, since they were playing on Gerard's birthday, so I knew the night was gonna be very special. And it was. They opened with Na Na Na and ended with Bulletproof Heart. Since it was Gerard's birthday, I made a shirt that said "Happy Birthday, Gerard!" I drew the Danger Days spider logo on the back of the shirt, and I put the concert date and city around the spider logo. I wrote, "Denver loves you!" on the sleeves (it was a short sleeve shirt). I held the shirt up whenever we sang Happy Birthday to Gerard. I was gonna throw the shirt at him, but I didn't have a chance to throw it. I was sad, but I had a blast at that show, so I tried to not let it affect me. But it was an amazing show.
Then, summer vacation comes along. Unfortunately, I got depressed again. I was so depressed, it got to the point where I started cutting myself. Yeah, it was that bad. I didn't cut myself before, but when I made that first cut on my wrist, I truly hated myself for it. I promised myself that I wouldn't cut myself, but I broke that promise. And in no way, shape, or form did those cuts positively benefit me. Then, I started listening to My Chem again throughout that entire summer. I listened to them all day, every day. I then finally got the Danger Days CD, so I listened to that a lot as well. Once again, My Chemical Romance made me feel better.
Also, during that summer, I found out that My Chem was gonna be on tour again. They were gonna be on the Honda Civic Tour with Blink 182. I was so excited. The date of the show was on Gerard and LynZ's anniversary. And the show was at the place where they actually got married, Fiddler's Green Amphitheater in Denver. That was also very cool. The show was amazing. Both MCR and Blink 182 kicked ass.
I haven't seen a show of theirs since the HCT show. But after those 2 shows, I fell completely in love with that band again. Then, around July 2011, I created my deviantART account. I met a bunch of new people who were into the same stuff as I was. They are very loyal My Chem fans, and they're amazing. Yeah, you know who you are.
Since I became part of the dA community, I finally figured out that there are a lot of people who love My Chem as much as I do.
Throughout 2012, I still listened to My Chem like no other. Then, Conventional Weapons came out. I was stoked. They sounded amazing. Unfortunately, I don't have the records. But I still listen to them on YouTube all the time. Lol.
Now, here we are up to now. March 23, 2013. The day that I found out that MCR had officially broken up. Like I mentioned earlier at the beginning of this deviation, I cried for at least 20 minutes straight. It was the first thing that I woke up to this morning. Yeah, I'm still heartbroken by it. When I found out, it felt like my heart dropped. I was truly sad. I still am, actually.
But wait a minute, we shouldn't let this breakup tear us apart. Of course, we're all saddened by this, but that doesn't mean that we shouldn't stop believing in these guys. These guys have saved a bunch of lives, including mine. They'd want us to carry on. They'd want us to keep running. They'd still want us to be happy. Maybe this won't be a permanent breakup. Who knows? Maybe they'll take a break and eventually get back together, like Fall Out Boy did. That might happen, I don't know. I don't think that what they posted in that tiny paragraph on their website was enough. They really didn't give us a reason, but I think that it's for the best that we probably won't find out. I think that it's been explained already. With Mikey being attacked online by violent fangirls (yes, Mikey made a mistake, but it's his goddamn life), and plus, these guys have families. Maybe they wanna focus on their families. I don't know, guys. I truly don't know. I don't think we'll ever know.
Well, I hope you enjoyed this deviation. I wanted to write this to show how much My Chemical Romance means to me, and how I feel about this breakup. Remember, keep running, keep smiling, and keep carrying on. Those guys would want us to do that. Remember, all of us...we are the kids from yesterday.
So long, and good night...