Germany x Depressed!Reader ~ Save Me[Songfic]

You couldn't take the pain any more. The blood-stained knife clattered on the floor as your grip losened, your small frame racked by heaving sobs.

I want to breathe, I hate this night
I want to wake up, I hate this dream
I’m trapped inside of myself and I’m dead
Don’t wanna be lonely
Just wanna be yours

Why is it so dark where you’re not here
It’s dangerous how wrecked I am
Save me because I can’t get a grip on myself

He loved another. You weren't good enough for him. You were a wreck of who you used to be. He only visited you out of pity, yes, only out of pity for you.

Listen to my heartbeat
It calls you whenever it wants to
Because within this pitch black darkness
You are shining so brightly

Give me your hand
Save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall
Give me your hand save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall

And yet you still loved him. He was your lifeline, the only reason you existed, the only reason you hadn't poured out the tantalising, deadly pale powder out into glass of water.

Give me your hand save me save me
Give me your hand save me save me

Save me, save me

Today the moon shines brighter on the blank spot in my memories
It swallowed me, this lunatic, please save me tonight
(Please save me tonight, please save me tonight)
Within this childish madness you will save me tonight

I knew that your salvation
Is a part of my life and the only helping hand that will embrase my pain
The best of me, you’re the only thing I have
Please raise your voice so that I can laugh again

He had been your best friend once. Once, he had gotten angry, and his flustred, pink face was so adorable that you couldn't help but burst into giggles, causing him to calm down and crack one of his rare smiles at you.

Listen to my heartbeat, it calls you whenever it wants to
Because within this pitch black darkness, you are shining so brightly

Give me your hand save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall
Give me your hand save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall

The world swam. You didn't care. It was a welcome relief from the pain, oh the pain that made your heart ache so much, too much.

Give me your hand save me save me
Give me your hand save me save me

Thank you for letting me be me
For helping me fly
For giving me wings
For straightening me out
For waking me from being suffocated
For waking me from a dream which was all I was living in
When I think of you the sun comes out.

But then the sound of your name reached you through the haze of pain. Was it he? Yes. Ludwig Beilschmidt, love and tormemt of your life. His face was a mask of horror.

He rushed over to you, slipping over the pool of blood, finally crashing down on the space next your head. Gently lifting your upper body off the bed, he cradled you in his arms, tears slipping from his forget-me-not eyes, hating to see the wreck in his arms, the wreck he knew that he had made.

The wreck that he still loved.

"______.... Ich leibe dich..."

And from beneath mask of pain, you smiled.

Give me your hand save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall
Give me your hand save me save me
I need your love before I fall, fall

"I love you too."