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i was afraid i would lose him to the ocean
she had stories
she knew things and whispers and secrets
only i could wish for.
he was always curious
wanting to know all.
it was only a short while until
he told me loved me
but he also wanted to love the ocean
i waved him goodbye
and he chuckled
pulling me into the ocean with him.
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As with all fictional characters
With all deities and half ones
You come for a purpose
to cause chaos
to fix something that isn't broken
to show a new path.
Then you leave.
But the question is,
when are you going to leave?
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SW 100
is not entering during the sad time
and bringing it up.
Love is,
being in the middle of a song
that's not finished,
and helping bring it to completion.
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Sun Wizard
You are a sun god,
posing as a wizard.
Here to help all who would accept it,
and to be that person
who puts a smile on everyone's face.
With all gods,
and wizards too.
The best should always be shared,
the greatest exclaimed in poetic stanzas,
to any who and all who would listen.
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Here I thought,
this was the end all.
They say you settle down eventually,
that the fire burns out,
and you just stop.
But then again,
it's easy to start back up,
if you have  gasoline.
And you were the gasoline,
to my dying fire,
and I was ready to watch you,
burn others,
as long as you helped me burn.
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It was you behind the window,
the cigarettes flakes were
always getting under my glasses
as I sat in the back seat
front window open.
I felt alive.
Sitting in that situation
the cold air burning my lips
my face
and it burned,
when we got background music
of some thing rhythmic
and I thought
this was how it felt to be real
And then I got on one knee
and you said no
because it wasn't for you.
You never felt the burning for me
the passion
that I felt for you.
But it was still there.
Even if you said no.
And I let it go...
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It has been five days or more
since have i have blessed my words upon this site
i have not capture or taken that it is mine
and i have sit here being left behind
i will be the girl that will kiss you and say
perhaps maybe
one day some day.
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They talk about finding your forever
in a person that you love.
Some say it's a myth
some say it's true.
But I think I found my forever,
right here with you.
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trying to live it up,
but at twenty three with a dead end job
with the inability to go any further
it's like it's the end of the line.
everyone's doing better
having their babies
moving on out with their significant other.
and here i am
twenty three
woe is me as I try not
spontaneously combust
under the pressure that is put on me.
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I don't remember writing you a love poem,
and you my dear,
deserve hundreds upon hundreds.
You should be greeted every morning
with whispers and sighs of how I love you
and to the degree.
I suppose though,
that with those whispers and sighs
sounds of pleasure and that of laughter
I tell you how much I love you.
When I smile into your eyes
and willingly make myself open to you
I suppose that is showing love as well.
Kissing you with the lips that are trying
trying so desperately to learn a language you love.
As I say "Please," and "kiss me" over and over
until you teach me new words
to repeat and get hugs and smiles of happiness from you.
Regardless of how much I try and show you I love you
I feel that my words cannot suffice.
It'd take every romance novel and movie
every love song and then some more to show you the love I feel.
I've always disbelieved in the idea of soul mates.
when you think the same thing
agree too easily
again and again.
That's a soul mate.
Someone who is the sa
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I've written at least half a dozen
poems describing the little things.
Your keys and the way you walk.
Your hair and the way you drive.
The things we did
like cuddling real close
and being very cute.
But here's another,
because we aren't close right now.
You're sleeping in your bed made for one,
and I'm sleeping in a bed made for two.
So I'm writing a poem
to poke at loneliness and tell him to go away
he's not welcomed tonight.
And it's a poem to tell you
in words you'll never see
that it's been a long time
and nothings changed.
If the past years were erased
and I saw your face
I'd do the same thing.
I'd come up to you and say something.
I'd get your number I'd ask to see you again.
And maybe we'd still come the mutual agreement,
because that's what it was.
Maybe this time though
it'd be more of a forever thing
and loneliness would never be either of ours
bedfellow again.
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Once I wrote poems about how I feel today
and that was a few years ago.
They were about how I missed your face
the feel of you next to me.
How I felt that we were good for each other
but we were never going to be together.
I wrote about how I missed you
and the little things you did.
I find myself relating to those poems.
You still put your keys hooked to your pocket.
Your wallet and phone,
they go in the same pocket they did three years ago.
The way you walk and the way you talk,
it hasn't changed much since then.
It had been a year and a half since I saw you last,
and it wasn't on good terms.
But the minute I was around you
I fell back in the same patterns
that I fell back into the last time.
I knew what not to do,
I remembered what you liked and didn't.
We still slept the same together
felt the same together.
We could sit in comfort,
and I could be around you and not feel awkward
or always wonder what my limitations were.
It was like we never broke up.
We've been together the whole
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I thought about it
how you would be if you had a child.
I could imagine me
being in a hospital bed
drenched with sweat from labor
and you holding our baby girl.
A child that we had worked to create.
You smiled,
your whole world would be wrapped around her;
taking care of her
creating the best world for her.
But that image quickly changed
because I know there's always the possibility
that it won't be how I pictured.
You'll end up with a girl,
a lady,
who's better than me in all the ways that I wish I could be.
But I still see you
in a hospital room
holding a baby in your arms and smiling
because that is the most precious thing to you.
And that's okay,
because it means you're happy with
someone that isn't me.
But you're happy,
and that's the best part of it all.
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Today I found a paper
I said I wanted to marry you,
a boy I barely knew.
It's been five years since then
and I've gone through three other boys
and I thought maybe
maybe I'd marry each one
with varying degrees of seriousness.
Now I'm here today,
no boy
or girl for that matter.
I see no plans to marry anyone.
I see no plans to even date anyone,
because when you think you found someone
it can be exciting and thrilling.
But sometimes time changes that
and you didn't find the person that'd stay with you
for ever and ever,
but you did find someone that changed you,
and maybe that's all it's about;
constant changes.
I'm okay with this,
the whole looking back at how silly
we were
I was.
It reminds me that things do change
and maybe once again I'll feel that way.
Maybe I will find someone who truly is
"the love of my life,
the person I want to marry."
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