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Young me is a silent film on the outside and a summer blockbuster within. She sees people playing house but knows nothing about keeping it shushes her own voice smashes plates mentally. You never really leave that place but the plates become houses and the daydream becomes the constant buzzing in the back of your head. We live in an old fridge and think we're going to travel the universe. The door is frozen shut over the years but older me has discovered fire. Get yourself a ticket for the talkies because I am setting my life ablaze and blowing the lid of this sucker.
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Depression is a crazy ex.
depression is a crazy ex who has had their claws embedded into you for so long you don't always feel it. depression is a crazy ex stating that 'if they have to go, they're taking everything with them'. so you lose your favourite things you lose your talent and some nights you lose the will to keep calm and carry on. depression is a crazy ex screaming at you with boozy breath when you are out having fun and moving on. depression is a crazy ex standing under a lamppost while you are walking through the isles of a grocery store at night. depression is a crazy ex silent for years until they send a text message or give you a call. depression
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I think the camera is flashing.
she said she'd wait for me as she shut the door with me standing in the doorway. my hello's sound like questions. in a dark room you can't see where you're going or if you're moving at all. she said she'd wait for me and left me  anywhere but home.
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Trafficking.
i circle around the edges and you get hooked on squares. friday night lights that shine throughout the week and we lose face in the dark. this beat isn't music this is a monotonous beating. and you watch and i smoke and you forgot and i laugh and you yell and i -- and you vaporise and i count the raindrops no numbers. and i don't mention letters and you overlook too much to forget. sometimes i wonder where i took one left turn too many i drift off saturday truly is a tedious day to claim.
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Simple as moo.
the people in front of me are wagging their tails trying to swat away the flies to ignore the fear of the unknown. they're acting like cows hiding in the grass under a shield of small talk that's been chewed over and over - it's pulp. there's an elephant in the room but i'd rather not talk about it. instead i offer a seat to the black and white who think i'm another cow because, after all, we're both in the field. and they wonder what happened - and what is going on - as my mind implodes with no time to take prisoners and no mercy to explain brain cell-casualties. confused look. i am dozens of milky way miles away. glazed
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A merry-go-round hostage.
i can't stop running home and i don't have nerves of steel but my compass is corrupted withdrawing me to a dirt road. and this fog oh love all this fog it came rolling in without giving a two weeks notice. all help is deaf and all your loved ones are blind. i've got myself a crystal present and i thought i wasn't running in circles when i got stuck in a reversed ball. a rag and bone future half clothes and half lives. and the bluebird vanished without flapping a wing or batting an eye and i'm left with background noise - i'm never right. war zone on the first floor red alert on the second top floor is off limits ede
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Post-Its XIV.
         duly noted. -- dear l., your secrets lie in the hudson river but you just wanted to throw a coin into a rome fountain.          dear k.,          you shed tears finding out it was over          i hope i only shed tears realizing          just a call was a good call. dear f., we divided zero and somehow ended up with two.          dear m.,   
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Mixed up.
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When it rains,the sewer cries.
There'll be a day when I will read back on what used to fascinate me and not remember what it was that pulled me in. Congratulations, you just got healthy. I'm waiting on the side of the road for the bus to come. It's pouring down, so I try to keep my umbrella as close to my head as possible. My vision is limited to white line – blue line – white line – blue line – white line... A strand of hair is blown in front one of my eyes and for a moment I imagine myself on the beach; except for the wheels of the cars that I can just see racing by. Which makes sense, reality is never a hundred percent correct. I can't see th
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If I don't know, it isn't so.
No matter how comfortable you look in the shadows, you know you're glowing. I wouldn't be burning if you weren't so bright. I don't know what will happen when you visit the depths again. Although you will defy gravity as I am pulled under by clawed hands. Oh. Ah. Life is so fair. (Ying yang, baby – anywhere but home.) My green mirror has been painted grey, or is it just dust on the surface. Scratchitoff,letthechipgetunderyournailandbitedown! I should not want it back to that state so badly - I should just need it. Wrong side of the one-way street, re-wire your brain, miss. Stop short-circuiting your discipline. Going around a
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Now in cinemas near you
Young me is a silent film on the outside and a summer blockbuster within. She sees people playing house but knows nothing about keeping it shushes her own voice smashes plates mentally. You never really leave that place but the plates become houses and the daydream becomes the constant buzzing in the back of your head. We live in an old fridge and think we're going to travel the universe. The door is frozen shut over the years but older me has discovered fire. Get yourself a ticket for the talkies because I am setting my life ablaze and blowing the lid of this sucker.
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Depression is a crazy ex.
depression is a crazy ex who has had their claws embedded into you for so long you don't always feel it. depression is a crazy ex stating that 'if they have to go, they're taking everything with them'. so you lose your favourite things you lose your talent and some nights you lose the will to keep calm and carry on. depression is a crazy ex screaming at you with boozy breath when you are out having fun and moving on. depression is a crazy ex standing under a lamppost while you are walking through the isles of a grocery store at night. depression is a crazy ex silent for years until they send a text message or give you a call. depression
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I think the camera is flashing.
she said she'd wait for me as she shut the door with me standing in the doorway. my hello's sound like questions. in a dark room you can't see where you're going or if you're moving at all. she said she'd wait for me and left me  anywhere but home.
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Trafficking.
i circle around the edges and you get hooked on squares. friday night lights that shine throughout the week and we lose face in the dark. this beat isn't music this is a monotonous beating. and you watch and i smoke and you forgot and i laugh and you yell and i -- and you vaporise and i count the raindrops no numbers. and i don't mention letters and you overlook too much to forget. sometimes i wonder where i took one left turn too many i drift off saturday truly is a tedious day to claim.
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Simple as moo.
the people in front of me are wagging their tails trying to swat away the flies to ignore the fear of the unknown. they're acting like cows hiding in the grass under a shield of small talk that's been chewed over and over - it's pulp. there's an elephant in the room but i'd rather not talk about it. instead i offer a seat to the black and white who think i'm another cow because, after all, we're both in the field. and they wonder what happened - and what is going on - as my mind implodes with no time to take prisoners and no mercy to explain brain cell-casualties. confused look. i am dozens of milky way miles away. glazed
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A merry-go-round hostage.
i can't stop running home and i don't have nerves of steel but my compass is corrupted withdrawing me to a dirt road. and this fog oh love all this fog it came rolling in without giving a two weeks notice. all help is deaf and all your loved ones are blind. i've got myself a crystal present and i thought i wasn't running in circles when i got stuck in a reversed ball. a rag and bone future half clothes and half lives. and the bluebird vanished without flapping a wing or batting an eye and i'm left with background noise - i'm never right. war zone on the first floor red alert on the second top floor is off limits ede
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Post-Its XIV.
         duly noted. -- dear l., your secrets lie in the hudson river but you just wanted to throw a coin into a rome fountain.          dear k.,          you shed tears finding out it was over          i hope i only shed tears realizing          just a call was a good call. dear f., we divided zero and somehow ended up with two.          dear m.,   
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Mixed up.
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When it rains,the sewer cries.
There'll be a day when I will read back on what used to fascinate me and not remember what it was that pulled me in. Congratulations, you just got healthy. I'm waiting on the side of the road for the bus to come. It's pouring down, so I try to keep my umbrella as close to my head as possible. My vision is limited to white line – blue line – white line – blue line – white line... A strand of hair is blown in front one of my eyes and for a moment I imagine myself on the beach; except for the wheels of the cars that I can just see racing by. Which makes sense, reality is never a hundred percent correct. I can't see th
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If I don't know, it isn't so.
No matter how comfortable you look in the shadows, you know you're glowing. I wouldn't be burning if you weren't so bright. I don't know what will happen when you visit the depths again. Although you will defy gravity as I am pulled under by clawed hands. Oh. Ah. Life is so fair. (Ying yang, baby – anywhere but home.) My green mirror has been painted grey, or is it just dust on the surface. Scratchitoff,letthechipgetunderyournailandbitedown! I should not want it back to that state so badly - I should just need it. Wrong side of the one-way street, re-wire your brain, miss. Stop short-circuiting your discipline. Going around a
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I am a tool.
being with you makes me feel so alone. you make me realize i am a girl of temporary solutions. i'll be temporarily loved temporarily pretty this will make me temporarily happy. a little blue bird told me if i don't invite myself into life i will never have one. a big dark dog told me if i do try to get one he will rip me in half (again) and end it. how am i supposed to be when things keep shredding me into smaller and smaller pieces? i am the tool my pen uses to make poetry as a survival mechanism. even a blank paper my size can't be folded 8 times. but it might be able to get fooled more than that.
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This is for the couple I didn't defend.
A few years ago on Valentine's Day I noticed a lesbian couple being harassed by a man. Back then, I was troubled. Being outside that day was a small miracle in its own way. I didn't say anything, even though I was about to burst and I know I should have. But by now I like to believe that my sense of what is right and wrong has become bigger than my hesitation around strangers. So, let me say now what I should've said back then. I know it's overdue, but not too late. And let me add a promise that I will try harder next time. Because you deserve to be defended, and I deserve to defend. What I should have said to the man bullying. Her
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Greetings from a blank planet.
I miss you. And I miss me, damn it. Slowly but surely I am starting to realise that I took a wrong turn somewhere and can't find my way back anymore. And now I miss dA, I miss writing, I miss having time for something other than the obligations that I have somehow given myself. I haven't been on here in months, I haven't even been on my laptop in months; which used to be my safe haven, a place to write and read and just inhale art and emotions. Anyway... I just wanted to put something new on my dA. Even if it is just a lost journal entry.
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SecretAdmirerPlz's avatar
:iconbemyvalentineplz:
Oh My! It looks like someone has sent you a rose!
But who?
I guess this means you have someone out there who admires & appreciate's you!
:flirty:

:heart: "Happy Valentines" :heart:
P.S. This was suppose to be sent to you 1 1/2 days ago
LoKiRaseNgAn's avatar
LoKiRaseNgAnHobbyist General Artist
Hey you! It's been ages since I've seen or talked to you. How've you been, how's life treating ya?
Eremitik's avatar
Havent seen you around in while so I thought I would just say Hello.
Hope you are well and enjoying the brand spanking new year!
Poisonedkitty's avatar
Thanks for thinking of me,
it was a very nice thing to see in my messages.
Hello to you too, and very (very) late best wishes.
PS. Been writing; hoping I can get back in the good ol' rhythm!
Eremitik's avatar
Glad to see you back!! And to hear that you are writing.
If I may, why the long absence?