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I would be the only one awake
Excited to visit Wonderland
Where everything is the opposite of reality
I would hug my stuffed rabbit so he can keep me company

As I walk to the end of the hall to the old grandfather clock
I'd sprawl on the ground before it              
Next to the tray of cookies and milk
That had started being left there
After the first time I fell asleep in this very spot

I ate the treat and sipped the milk in the teacup
As I waited for midnight
Tick tock, tick tock
Tickety tock, tickety tock

The sounds gave me lyrics and I softly sang the words
The words that lead me to a world of wonder

"Tick tock, tick tock,
Time is lost, time is lost
Tick, tock, tick tock
Forever lost, forever lost
Tick tock, tick tock,
My mind is lost…"

And I repeat it until my eyes closed
Then I fell and fell
Down into the realm of my mind
Where anything is possible

It is a dream, but it seems so real
I'm tempted to stay, but I can't let myself linger for too long
I fear that I may not wake up again
Maybe that is something I should not worry about
For this place is far more entertaining than reality

My feet hit the floor which was the ceiling
My hair was reaching up to the checkered tile
I floated down gently
This is my second time here
So I went through the talking door with ease

I walked through the tunnel
Then crawled through the second door which was smaller than the first
And saw the white rabbit wearing a vest hopping by
He paused to pull out his pocket watch and he panicked when he saw the time

"I'm late I'm late!" he said
"What are you late for white rabbit?"
"I'm late I'm late for a very important date!
I don't have time to stay and chat
You should go speak with the Cheshire Cat!"
He started hopping from one foot to the other
"The Cheshire Cat? Who is that?"
"Alice have you forgotten? Oh no! Look how late it's gotten!"
He took off
My name is not Alice
I ran after him
He led me to a dark forest with signs pointing in every direction
"Wait little rabbit! I don't know the way; I don't want to be lost here all day!"

I followed the direction he went
I could see him fading away
A white ghost against the darkness
"Little rabbit!"
He didn't stop he kept on going
And already it was night
I see that the sun decided to take a nap
Time is unpredictable and strange here

I walked until I spotted a house
In what seemed to be the center of the woods
Why does this house look familiar?
It's the white rabbit's! I remember from my first visit
He wouldn't mind if I rest here if I make him a carrot cake

I woke up and in the morning
And went off to explore
By mistake I went to the garden of singing flowers
They were a nice and interesting bunch on my first visit
Until they saw me and called me a weed

Then I continued on into the woods
Where I met Tweedledee and Tweedledum
They talked nonsense and spouted stories all day
And only confused me further and insisted that I stay

I went off on my own and while I traveled through the dark woods
I think I saw a flash of a smile appear in the shadows a few times
I was terrified and kept running until I left the woods
Once I got out I calmy strolled down the dirt road
Until I was so tired I needed to take a nap
The giant mushrooms look comfy I thought
So I stopped to rest

I soon coughed myself awake
I sat upright covering my mouth with my palm
And saw where the smoke came from
A caterpillar forming letters with every puff he made
"Excuse me Mr. Caterpillar, do you know where I could find the white rabbit?"
"We…are…going…through…this…again!" he yelled with a puff of smoke blowing out with each word
"I've been here before, but I don't think I have met you"
"I am not forgetting! And why is everyone calling me Alice!
I'll find him on my own then. I've run out of patience!"

I heard singing and laughter and followed the sound
Curious to what was going on
Was there a party?
I pushed my way through the giant grass
And the voices grew louder
I peeked through and saw a large top hat
With a piece of paper labeled 10/6 on it
I had a sideways view of the gentleman
I watched and eavesdropped on his conversation
But I saw no one else there
Was he talking to himself?

"I know you're there, I see that you have gotten my invitation" he said
I was caught spying and walked forward to the long table
With teacups of all colors, shapes, and sizes
Covered with desserts that are healthy for you

"I have not received an invitation, what special event are you celebrating stranger?"
"Today's my unbirthday, have you also forgotten who I am?"
"I think I'd remember you if we met before this day"
"We'll allow me to introduce myself
I'm the Mad Hatter, but you can just call me Hatter"

"Well Hatter, may I join you?"
"Yes you may, have a seat"

"Would you like some tea?" the handsome hatter asked
"No thank you. I should really wake up now.
I haven't stayed this long before and it is getting late"
"Nonsense, nonsense. It's daytime you see" he pointed to the sky
"Yes, indeed. It is daytime, but the time of my world and yours are different"
"Please have a seat. Would you like some cake?"
"Yes please...Wait I have to go!"
"Just have a sip. That's all I ask, it will only take a mere second. Then you may go on your way"
"Alright, a sip won't hurt or a nibble or two of those delectable cookies."
"Yes, yes. Have as many as you like, my lady."
"Thank you. Happy unbirthday Hatter" I took a sip of the rose petal tea and a few bites of the cookies
I got a bit woozy; it must be from the sugar going into my head I thought

"Hello Alice. How are you?" he asked
"I'm fine, but I'm not Alice"
"Yes you are. You are Alice." He insisted
"If you say so?" Why are these people calling me that? I know my name
My name is…my name is
Oh surely I must know my own name
It's Lacey, yes Lacey right?
No that doesn't seem right
Amy? No. Alina?

"Alice?" he asked, voice very concerned.
Alice? Yes that fit wonderfully. That's my name.
"You have grown into a fine woman, my dear"
"I'm too young to be a woman" I said in a voice that didn't belong to a thirteen year old girl.
I stared at my body and saw that I indeed grew
"You're very beautiful my lady"
"You're staring is making me nervous!
You look as if you want to dissect me!" I covered myself and started to tip over
Losing my balance I fell to the ground and caught myself
Why was the world spinning?

I felt hands pinning my arms behind me and the raising of the skirt of my dress
"Stop! What are you doing?" I yelled
I caught a glimpse of the creepy crescent moon grin
I was uneasy for a second then smiled back and laughed
Suddenly changing moods

I felt the edge of the spade tipped spear press against my back
"The Red Queen wants to see you. She summons your presence at once!"
"What?" I turned around to see
A card soldier for the red kingdom
"You must hurry or she will make you lose your head!"
"First can you release me? You are hurting me"
He pulled away and helped me to my feet
I looked around for the Hatter
Where did the he run off to?
"How can I get there as soon as possible?" I asked
"Here take this," he handed me and small hour glass,
"you must flip it over and think of the place you want to be
before the last grain of sand gets to the other side
Think of only one place"
I concentrated and when the last grain dropped I was lifted into the air
And vanished

I then reappeared in front of the queen's throne
"There you are Alice. You are late"
"I apologize my dear queen, for I have just received your message."
Her eyes were unforgiving
"Please forgive me."
"Liar! You were with the White Queen weren't you!
You were planning to war against me. I sentence you to death
To the guillotine I say"
"Wait, I don't know who this White Queen is!"
"How dare you speak to me in that tone! Off with her head!"
"I should have a trial first your majesty!
For I have to be proven guilty to the court"
"No, you must be punished! I am in charge!"
"Y-yes your majesty"

I was escorted to the dungeon and there they stripped me completely
I should have felt humiliated, but I did not care
This is a dream after all, this is not real
I sat on the bench waiting for the time of the execution
I hugged myself in the cold air

"This may be a dream but wouldn't I feel the pain like how I feel everything else in this dream
I guess I have no choice." I lost my worried thought
"Alice…" I heard a whisper of a voice I have not yet heard before
"Yes? Who is there?"
The smile appeared again
"It is me"
"Who is me?" I asked
"You are"
"No what is your name?"
"My name is Cheshire,"
He appeared fully
"the Cat"
"How do you know my name?"
"Oh everyone knows you Alice. You've been here many times"
"I have?"
"Yes you have"
"Then why can't I remember?"
"Who knows? Maybe you bumped your head
Amazing how fast you've grown!"
"Oh yes, I have forgotten that I grew"
"You are of age now. You are no longer a child"
"I'm happy to hear that. I don't like being treated as such"
I petted him and he purred

"Alice come with me" a guard said
And Cheshire disappeared
The guard opened the door
He led me to a palace room
"Wasn't I supposed to lose my head?"
"The King of Hearts has other plans for you"
"Oh, what plans?"
"You will find out soon enough Alice"
"Can I have some clothes please?"
They ignored me not ever saying another word
As they sat me down on the bed and left the room
The king is so nice to let me stay here instead
He'll probably have me work here in the castle

The door opened and a face peered in
He walked in wearing a crown and a robe
He looked like someone I knew
"Thank you king for letting me stay here"
"You are welcome Alice" he said in a voice that sounded like my step-father's
"The guards said that you had something else in mind for me"
"Yes I do. You are about to repay me now"
"By doing what I say"
He locked the door behind him and walked to the edge of the bed
And took off his clothes
"What are you doing?"
He was silent and kept undressing
Maybe undressing in front of someone was normal here
He pointed to a tray of cookies and milk
Waiting to be eaten on the bedside table
I reached for a cookie and took a bite
Nothing made me as happy as these cookies
The king just stared at me as I ate
"Do you want some?" I asked
He shook his head

A few cookies later and a half cup of milk left
I spread myself like a snow angel on the bed
I'm stuffed and sleepy
I closed my eyes
And felt a hand touch me
I squirmed and opened my eyes
"Stop it! Keep your hands off me!"
"Be quiet! This is part of your payment"
I let him do as he wished
Until he touched me in a place I had never been touched before
"That feels strange!"
"I said be quiet you!"
My head was getting hot
I felt like I was having a fever
He pinned me down with his weight
And put one hand over my mouth
"Do not scream"
Wake up!
I have to wake up!
Something bad is going to happen I felt it
I tried to scream for help, but he muffled it
And he slapped me on the cheek and the spot throbbed
"I said don't scream"

He flipped me over and made me stay on my hands and knees
His hands gripped my hips as he slowly pulled me closer
I felt something touch me down there
What in the world was he doing?
Something forced its way inside me and I cried
It hurts! It hurts!
Why was he doing this to me?
I tried to fight my way out and he held me tighter
"The pain will go away after you get used to it"
"Make it go away. I don't like it"
He didn't stop
No matter how many times I fought and cried
He didn't stop until he collapsed from exhaustion
I blinked open my eyes
I was in a maze now with rose topiaries
And saw the trailing red paint from the white roses all around me
Why is it dripping down my thighs as well?
Why is it warm?
That's the last thing I saw before I fell into a deep sleep
Asleep in a dream
Dreaming a dream within a dream

I woke up in front of the grandfather clock and picked up my stuffed rabbit
I can't really remember my dream from last night
I felt like I didn't get much rest last night
Did I have a nightmare?
My head was pounding
What a horrible headache to have in the morning

I remember going to Wonderland more than once now
Yes I remember the people now
The people there are mad
And can drive me bonkers
The clock runs backwards
And things don't make sense
I have lots of fun, but it is tiring

Sometimes it feels like I spent days in this fantasy land
But usually when I wake up I find that I have only slept for a few hours
I would wake up with my hair soaking wet with aches from strange places
And feel as if I was freshly bathed
I never knew why

Something about that clock is strange
I've been drawn to it like a rabbit
With a carrot in front of its nose
Then I feel like I've forgotten something
But I can never figure out what
Hmm...I think I remember having a feeling of pain because of something
Something horrible
Ow! My head hurts so much
What was I talking about? Oh yes I remember now
That world is fun...yes it's fun
Artist of the image: [link]

My twisted mind made up this dark sad story based off of Lewis Carroll's “Alice in Wonderland.” I totally love the movies and the books so I’m not trying to bring it down.

Anyways this is about a childish thirteen-year-old girl. She thinks that this is all her imagination, but some of the things are really happening to her. Her step-father is drugging her and you can figure out the rest...

Man how many times did I edit this like five times >< it turned out well though. I personally think that it's too long

My favorite part is when she talks to the not so helpful Cheshire Cat & Mad Hatter. In the 2nd editing the Mad Hatter was supposed to be the rapist. He was about to do it in this version until the card soldier came by and took "Alice" away
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sonicmariozeldafan Featured By Owner May 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Very interesting interpretation.
I didn't quite understand it until I read your artist comment. But nonetheless, great, read.
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2013  Student Writer
Oh. Hahaha. Well everyone could use their own imagination & make up their own interpretation of it. It is very interesting to hear what many others think a poem is about. Sorry that it was confusing & thanks for reading. I appreciate your comments :aww:
sonicmariozeldafan Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Indeed. It's always interesting to see a twist on a famous story.
And nah, don't worry about it. It usually takes me a while to draw parallels anyway, so it wasn't so much confusing as it was me being slow. :P
But nonetheless, it was interesting. No problem :)
deathlyhallow394 Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013
this is amazing!!!! :D
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Feb 16, 2013  Student Writer
Thanks so much! :heart:
deathlyhallow394 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013
your welcome ^_^
DarkEyedAssassin Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Creepy, but very well written!
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2011  Student Writer
Thanks =D
DarkEyedAssassin Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome!
PervBlooP Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2011
Whao my childhood is now totally raped O.o But Good story : D
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2011  Student Writer
Thank you :aww:
PervBlooP Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2011
youwelcome : D
jzprincess Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2011
So amazing but towards the end it was creepy but others wise I enjoyed reading it.
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2011  Student Writer
Thanks for taking time to read the long thing =D
I'm glad you enjoyed it :aww:
GoddessWashuHakubi Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2011
I do, in fact, like this a lot. The plot is solid. :D
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2011  Student Writer
Thank you so much.

~ I love Hikaru & Kaoru from Ouran High School Host Club and I like & watched Kuroshitsuji I - II :heart:I have watched so much anime I have a endlessly long list
GoddessWashuHakubi Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2011
Kwaa! :D Nice to meet you.
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 14, 2011  Student Writer
Nice to meet you too
Agony13 Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2011
this....disturbed me on levels iive never thot possible...
It...I was screaming when i read the ending.
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2011  Student Writer
Really? Well, I apologize for disturbing you that badly :aww:
sammymoo Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2011  Hobbyist Artist
good story :)
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2011  Student Writer
I'm so happy! :happybounce: Thanks! :tighthug:
sammymoo Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2011  Hobbyist Artist
your more then welcome :D i love wonderland <3
LoreleiWillene Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
You should have this published :D so good!
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2011  Student Writer
Really?! Thanks :happycry:
WormandaDuck Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Student Writer
I won't be able to sleep tonight. Goddammit

Nonetheless, an amazing work. Quite creative and suitably disturbing.
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Student Writer
Yeah, it sucks having my mind because I creep myself out ><

Thanks so much =D
WormandaDuck Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Student Writer
AlohaMiyuki Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Beautiful, I loved every second of it. This is kind of how I always imagined the original as, actually.
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Student Writer
Cool :heart: Thanks that means a lot
DoubleHeart97 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Student
Wow. That was really dark and stuff but I liked it. It's written beautifully. Good job.
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Student Writer
Aww :aww: that really means a lot ( ( :squee: ) )
DoubleHeart97 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Student
You're welcome! :D
thesmurfet Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
love the pic
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Student Writer
Thanks! If you haven't yet, you should fave it from the artist linked in the description. Thanks again! :tighthug: :aww:
cheesylily02 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Student General Artist
Great work! Loved it.
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Student Writer
=D Thanks! :squee: So much! =D
cheesylily02 Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2011  Student General Artist
You're welcome! :)
Moomsierox Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011
Bob-Hammilton Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011  Student Photographer
Horrifying. I like it.
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011  Student Writer
Thank u :blackrose: :rose:
H3VZ Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
this is gorgeous!
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011  Student Writer
Aw thanks :heart:
H3VZ Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
:meow: totally!
Chase0The0Morning Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
That was amazing.
Great job! :D
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011  Student Writer
Thanks! Nice icon by the way. I want to eat it :lick:
Chase0The0Morning Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Your welcome.
Thanks lol.
Whispered-Lyrics Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011
I don't think you need to shorten it! It was dark, yes, but I loved it.
PoisonCupcakeXP Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011  Student Writer
Thanks :D
Pinkkrice Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2011
Oh childhood XD

This is rather disturbing lol. I mean, the "dark Alice In Wonderland" angle has been done but I really like your take on it, as a sort of method of psychologically coping with trauma that's somewhere between repression and hallucination. Nice work!
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