Hey guys, it's been about a year so here's another update.
I've gotten over half of them completed by now. It's taking a really long time, but 2 weeks per month has been dedicated to owed commissions. I have 51 left to complete. You can look at the updated list here
I wanted to post an update also to say that I'm going to change things a little bit. I think I've made enough progress to be able to make this change. I've become utterly burnt out from these owed commissions, and I'm dying to move on with my life.
I really don't like to talk about it publicly, but the basic gist of what happened back then was that my ex-boyfriend was extremely abusive and jealous of what I did for a living (commissions), and decided to stop working, which made me the only person in the house who made money. He physically forced me to constantly take on new commissions, far more than I could ever complete within a reasonable time. And this is the result of all of that. Years later, I am still picking up after him. Of course, I was able to escape him (in 2013), but I am still here, cleaning up his mess in 2018. I understand that I am the only one who is able to take responsibility for any of it. But I am very, very tired.
A lot of the content I got commissioned to do back then I don't do anymore, so I am going to just do refunds from now on.
There is a very high demand for my new commissions nowadays, and it would help my mental health a lot
to focus on that, and out of the two weeks I'd normally spend doing owed commissions, I'll just dedicate to new commissions and use that money to pay refunds. I will be starting refunds with the smaller commissions, and then move to the bigger ones after.
I understand if I receive any skepticism from this. If it helps: I'm in a safe, financially stable place in my life so money isn't nearly as dire as it used to be. I have met every single deadline I have had since 2016 and every owed client that I have completed for is very satisfied.
I've been getting extremely burnt out on having to be haunted by the abuse I went through back then, and even though I was able to escape it...all I still feel trapped by him. My mental health has gone downhill a lot in recent months because of all that. If I can do new stuff full-time, I will at least FEEL like I'm moving forward with my life. Doing refunds would make it a lot more painless for me.
Oh, and the refunds will start in August, which is when I'll be opening commissions next. I plan to start from the top of the list and go to the bottom.
Thank you for reading all of this.TLDR:
I'm going to be doing new commissions full-time and half of what I make each month is going to refunds for owed commissions, starting this August.