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Praise You in this Storm by pinkxfuzziexkitties Praise You in this Storm by pinkxfuzziexkitties
I know this may not be one of the better pieces I have done, but it was more of a therapy kind of thing. And it wasn't, in my opinion, so bad that I couldn't post it. So I figured why not?

I grew up with 2 cats for almost my whole life. Some of you already know that one of them died about 4-5 yrs ago. Well my other one, Spice, died a few weeks ago. On good Friday was actually the morning I noticed she wasn't doing well. And I watched her get weaker and weaker every day... for 4 days. I realized she needed to be put down.

I have never cried so much in my life. I have not lost a person close to me yet, nor do I look forward to it. But my cats were seriously like children to me. Those of you who are not pet people may not understand. But it really felt like losing a child.

I really pressed in to God then. I really felt like a verse I read in the book of psalms. I don't remember word for word, so I'm gonna paraphrase a bit. But it said something like, 'my eyes waste away with grief and my body-something' lol But that was really how I felt. I could physically feel the effects of crying. I actually became ill. And my eyes hurt. For 4 days I cried on and off.

And like I said, I really pressed in to God. And He really got me through it. As Christians, we aren't to just be all "yay! Praise Jesus! God You are so good!' when everything is all just smiles and rainbows. It means being able to say "Praise Jesus! God You are so good!'" during the stormy days of your life too. Not just running to God when you need help. And not just believing God when things are going well, but believing Him and His Word when things aren't.

The day before we put her down, I was showering and God brought back up a song to my heart. It was one I always loved, but couldn't really feel what they were actually singing. The song is Praise You in this Storm, by Casting Crowns. And I would go to my room and just listen to it over and over and sing it. I was able to say my goodbyes to my cat, crying when dong so, and the last thing I said was,

"Jesus... I trust You. I give her to You now and I want her in my mansion when I see You" (I will have a picture that I am working on based on that at some point)

And I left for class. When I got out of class, though it had been hot and sunny before hand, there were huge black clouds, and when I stood there waiting for my mom to come get me, it began to pour and there was thunder and lighting. Deep down, I knew my cat was dead. And That song had never been so literal before in my life. A real storm as I stood there. And so, I began to sing it out loud to God, praising Him. My mom pulled up and said that my cat was dead. I cried of course, but I was overwhelmed with such peace. I knew it was God. He is so good!!

So I had worked on this picture. I wanted to show the despair and grief in the face, but still lifting your eyes up to the Lord, despite the storm. I will probably to a cleaner more neatly done version of this at some point, but I am in no rush.

I really recommend listening to the song-
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VerticalGravity Featured By Owner May 31, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
:hugs: I know the pain of losing a pet that way, it still hurts to look back and I know that when you don't have children, they become the closest thing to that. I am so glad to hear that you found comfort in the Lord through all the heartache, never stop praising the life-giver, he will fill the holes in your heart with love and grace beyond human understanding. I am sorry for your loss. God blesses us with the company of such wonderful friends and that includes the company of pets, my cats mean so, SO much to me and I know yours were very dear to you too. :heart: :cling:
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pinkxfuzziexkitties Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Yes, she really was like my child. It was so painful for me to watch her suffer and literally watch grow weaker every day. We didn't let it go long, but it felt like forever. It is so nice to find someone who feels the same way. People often look at me like, 'dude... it's a pet.' and that really upsets me. But, God totally used that situation and allowed it to be a time for me to experience Him in a way I haven't even experienced since then. What really upsets me is her drawn out death was because of the demonic (which God revealed to my dad and I). God collects every tear and notes it. And I so look forward to the day I get to watch those stupid demons go into the pit. And I look forward to having my two babies waiting for me in my mansion :) Anyway, enough rambling lol I really appreciate you taking the time to encourage me and I do not take it lightly. Thank you so much. :heart:
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VerticalGravity Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Of course, any time. I know that a lot of people don't think animals are "worth" all those tears but my cats are my kids, and if God does not forget even a fallen sparrow and loves us dearly, he certainly knows how much joy our pets bring us.....

I hope that you only continue to heal and that He fills every hole in your heart abundantly.

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pinkxfuzziexkitties Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Yes amen!

Thank you so much. It will be almost a year soon since this... but I am much better now of course than when it happened. Thank God for our Comforter <33
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Nostarienel Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2012
I love that song, great work!
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pinkxfuzziexkitties Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2012  Student Digital Artist
I know right? Me too! Thanks so much :)
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0urangeApple Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2011  Hobbyist Artist
Casting crowns... very encouraging.. very humbling. Love the way you drew this. :)
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pinkxfuzziexkitties Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2011  Student Digital Artist
Thank you so much :) I'm glad you like it!
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0urangeApple Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2011  Hobbyist Artist
:D God bless you :)
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pinkxfuzziexkitties Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2011  Student Digital Artist
God bless you too! :)
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alonesilentkeeper Featured By Owner May 22, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I love that song! And that's a great job ! >w<
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pinkxfuzziexkitties Featured By Owner May 23, 2011  Student Digital Artist
Yes it is an awesome songg. And thank youu!! >w<
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alonesilentkeeper Featured By Owner May 24, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
welcome :D
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RachBurns Featured By Owner May 18, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
So very many times...praise Him that he is strong enough when we're not. And thank you for the song link!
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pinkxfuzziexkitties Featured By Owner May 18, 2011  Student Digital Artist
Amen!!
And you are very welcome :)
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UltimateSketchQueen Featured By Owner May 16, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm really sorry to hear about your kitties :')

And I must say, I do really love this piece! It's so well done, and it just kinda-- I dunno, speaks to me <3
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pinkxfuzziexkitties Featured By Owner May 16, 2011  Student Digital Artist
Aww thanks so much <333 :hug:
And I'm happy it speaks to you :)
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