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So, this is a story of how I ended up drugged on morphine at the A&E (ER for all of you in the US/Canada) yesterday.

I won't go into details on exactly how I dislocated my shoulder. The point is I did dislocate it at home due to an accident (this was the 6th episode, 4th episode which required a hospital reduction and also my 2nd episode which required sedation).

I unfortunately do not have a car, and my mum can't drive. So we dial 999 and wait around 40 minutes for a transportation/ambulance service. It arrives around 40 minutes later. I am given no pain relief apart from your standard OTC paracetamol painkillers given to me by my mum whereas I normally am given N2O (laughing gas/entonox). The pain gets increasingly worse with every dislocation. The driver was extremely unhelpful and never asked in how much pain I was or if I was comfortable, nor did he try to distract me from my pain by talking to me. He walked me to the emergency dept but made me feel as if I was walking too slowly and became inpatient (whereas I was in immense pain and and jolt from walking made me want to scream).

So, I'm quickly seen by a nurse, who sends me off to x-rays. I then arrive back to their station and see a doctor. I was given copious amounts of N2O -- FINALLY getting pain relief after over and hour. It's 6.30pm I think. they try to relocate my shoulder by getting me to relax my arm, but failed. I am still in pain. So, they give me liquid morphine after running through when I last ate, what other drugs I'd had etc. The morphine which tasted really sweet and nice (despite them telling me most people hate the taste). It shortly starts to kick in. It confused me a lot, and disorientated me completely. I started to get auditory noise that made everyone sound strange. When I spoke, my speak seemed to have a low tone, rather deep and going in slow motion, like when they say 'nooooooooooooooooo' on TV. My carried on puffing the N2O gas. I heard doctors mutter things to me, as I remember shaking my legs back and forth, lurching myself back and forth too, 'losing' pieces of time and frequently asking 'what's the time? what's the time?' to my mum. It distorts your perception of time and one of my biggest fears is of time just 'disappearing'.

Mre: "I want it to stop. I want to go home...want to go home"
Dr1: "all you need to do is sit on the chair and put your arms down"
"I want it to stop.."
"This is by far the safest method. It'll stop the pain once it is relocated."
"I can't, I can't, I can't. Help me."

[...]

The morphine kicked in stronger than ever. It felt as if my body was separate from my mind. I felt as if I was swelling up and had to look down at myself to make sure. I felt the contours of my socket jutting out from my dislocation. My shoulder looked square from what I saw.

I find myself one second sat on their 'relocating chair' and then on their hospital bed. I am unable to tell left from right and my vision has started to go hazy and so I close my eyes to stop seeing blobs of grey and purple dancing in front of me.

The morphine kicks in really hard now. I feel I am being punched in the face so I keep swivelling my head but I can't see my abuser. I hear murmuring (auditory hallucinations?) and a sound that goes click click click, as my eyes flicker between reality and a bruised world.
"I don't like it"
I rolled my neck but it felt as if my head was nothing more than a ball rotating on a pole of some sort (my spine). It was very surreal. I wanted to run, but then I see the bars to stop me falling off from the hospital bed.

The dr tried to relocate my shoulder with the help if a colleague. I scream, "don't hurt me...don't hurt me...I'm scared".

[...]

Dr2: "Have you had any fractures before? I can see fragments of bone."
Mum: "Is it fractured?? She might have low bone density."
Me: "I was meant to have another DEXA next month...I was anorexic until recently"
Dr2: "No, it just looks like general wear and tear. Sometimes fragments of bone break off. Do you have any other health problems apart from anorexia? any allergies? have you been knocked out before?"
Me: "no, no.. yeah I had ketamine once. Going to have an op for my shoulder on the 23rd"

[...]

Dr1: "She's panicking. Does she normally have panic attacks?"
I felt my breathing was about to stop, and my heart rate slow down. I inhaled as if I could not breath.

[...]

Dr1: "where are you?"
me: "[name of hospital]"
Dr1: "What is today's date?"
Me: hell, how am I supposed to know...tomorrow is the 1st...how many days are their in february? "28th"
Dr1: "month?"
Me: february
Dr1: "year?"
Me Do I look crazy? why this mental exam? Of course I know the year....or do I? "2010"
Me: "What time is it??? How long have I been here?"

[...]

Dr2: "Two RTAs... she will have to wait for sedation"
Dr2: "How old are you?"
Me: "18"
Dr2: "I need your written consent for general anaesthesia. It may result in a fracture even if the drs do everything correctly. There is also a small risk of death which is higher as this is emergency anaesthesia."
Me: "I understand"

[...]

I got moved to a separate room. Nurses are preparing IV solutions to be rammed up my vein. I am connected to electrodes and my vitals measures. I stare at the ECG trace. SpO2 was between 89-100. Bp was 101/65. Pulse around 55, but increased to 70 as the N2O was taken away from me.

I was told to count down from 100. I was going to be given etomidate. I found this a difficult task. I vaguely remember counting to 58 then stopping. They inject more into me. "100.....47, 46, 45..."

[...]

I woke up, to find myself sitting in front of a clock. Approaching 2am. I had been there for a total of 7.5h. I had lost time once again, but was no longer in pain and my vision and hearing were back to normal.  

I had x-rays again and eventually got sent home. Today I am in slight discomfort, but the pain is manageable and OK.

I am having a shoulder operation on the 23rd March. I'm ending up in hospital far too often. Perhaps this will be the last time for shoulder problems.

End of my short story. :)

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TeniCola Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2010   Digital Artist
Oh gosh, that sounds awful! I cringed as I was reading it, you must have been in a lot of pain :c
But I admire your courage, and I'm glad your doing better ^^ I've never been in the hospital for this sort of thing so I'm not sure how I would react -- I'd probably freak out hysterically xD
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Pinkie-Pichu Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2010
well, it's good to hear that you haven't had such problems. Well, I'll keep my fingers crossed that there'll be no more ER anaesthesia for me in the near future.
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Pikanyaa-san Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2010
My goodness, I can't imagine how stressful that whole scenario must be, let alone having it done multiple times before. Really, your bravery amazes me, Pinkie...
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Pinkie-Pichu Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2010
You learn to live with it! :P
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oOMewCookieOo Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
How on Earth can anyone USE that stuff?
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Pinkie-Pichu Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2010
Yeah I know... morphine is apparently very similar to heroin. I definitely won't even think of become an addict.
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oOMewCookieOo Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm too scared of needles to ever consider doing drugs anyways. x3
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Pinkie-Pichu Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2010
it was actually liquid morphine so I drank it. :P
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oOMewCookieOo Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank goodness for that. o3o I have to get a needle today, eewwww! DD:
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Dark-Windflower Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2010
wowwww, that sounded scary, really scary. ;;
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Pinkie-Pichu Featured By Owner Mar 2, 2010
Yeah, I was quite scared but I'm glad the drs and nurses talked to me quietly and calmly which helped.
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PandahDESU Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2010
Ugh that is just terrible D: I want to punch your ambulance guys in the face. Hard. How rude and insensitive! It is their job to help you, not solely to drive you to the hospital.

I hope things get way better from here on out. I had continuous problems with my ears up until recently, and I would never ever wish that pain or the hospital visits on anyone. Get well soon, Pinkie.

And when your arm gets better punch those guys in the face for me.
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Pinkie-Pichu Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2010
Well, I'm better now and the drs at the hospital were quite nice. :)
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Timmicita Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2010  Student General Artist
Oh wow ): That sounds absolutely awful Pinkie, but I'm SO glad you're okay. Quite an experience.. I can't even imagine how scared I'd be if I had been in your position. *hugs*
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Pinkie-Pichu Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2010
Thank you. *hugs back* :)
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