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To whoever still follows me here or cares I wanted to apologize for the inactivity. Truth is, I don't think it's going to get much better any time soon. I struggle with a few things IRL and my inspiration for art has kind of died. Asides from sketches, I haven't managed to complete anything worthy lately. Whatever drive I had for art isn't there any more the same way it used to be. The thrill I used to feel hardly exists. It comes once in a blue moon and then it's gone. I struggle to get ideas, let alone put them on paper... 

Managing a long distance relationship and career choices gone wrong has taken its toll on me for the last 8 years of my life. Especially the last 4  I've really, really struggled... The initial denial of the first 2 years has died away. There was 1 good year, but lately I feel so extremely drained. Sure, things could always be so much worse. I have a loving boyfriend and family and friends. But some things have not been easy to come to terms with. And lately I feel like I've terminally come to this point where almost everything feels blank... Art has always been the one thing I could find relief in, but it is hardly fun any more. And I don't feel like I create content that is worthy for anyone to care. Sharing art also used to feel fun, but from a point on I feel like I've been doing it mechanically. I've felt the urge to delete my art accounts a few times recently, since I feel there's not much point in sharing my art. There are some people I would miss though, so I stick around for them. 

At the moment, I am on standby for my 6 month internship thanks to pathetic university management, which is very very frustrating. I was hoping to graduate around May and now that's been pushed back. I am so looking forward to conclude my current studies and leave that part behind me. I cannot begin to describe how fed up I am with it.  I don't know where I'm going with my career. I felt so certain about it all 2 years ago, that I knew exactly what I wanted. Now I am just fed up. I feel like there's hardly anything I really want... It's really frustrating to feel like this. I hope I will get some positive feelings once the damn studies is over, but that's only being delayed thanks to bureaucracy. It feels like all I can do now is wait and endure...


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SiwySzczur Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2018
Nice gallery:)
PhoenixMystery Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you!
SiwySzczur Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2018
No problem, I like good art:) I invite you to my gallery:)If you like my work, watch me :)
wolfhorseluvr12 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Welcome to FMABrotherhood!! :iconfmabrotherhood:
Spiritofdarkness Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2017
:iconllamajumpplz: thanks for the llama :)
Salvathi Featured By Owner May 2, 2017  Student General Artist
Thanks for the fave ^^
thesongofrevolution Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the llama! Love 
Followthepaws Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
thanks for the watch and favs<3^^
PhoenixMystery Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! ^^
Gina-Kyona Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the llama! ^o^
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