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To whoever still follows me here or cares I wanted to apologize for the inactivity. Truth is, I don't think it's going to get much better any time soon. I struggle with a few things IRL and my inspiration for art has kind of died. Asides from sketches, I haven't managed to complete anything worthy lately. Whatever drive I had for art isn't there any more the same way it used to be. The thrill I used to feel hardly exists. It comes once in a blue moon and then it's gone. I struggle to get ideas, let alone put them on paper... 

Managing a long distance relationship and career choices gone wrong has taken its toll on me for the last 8 years of my life. Especially the last 4  I've really, really struggled... The initial denial of the first 2 years has died away. There was 1 good year, but lately I feel so extremely drained. Sure, things could always be so much worse. I have a loving boyfriend and family and friends. But some things have not been easy to come to terms with. And lately I feel like I've terminally come to this point where almost everything feels blank... Art has always been the one thing I could find relief in, but it is hardly fun any more. And I don't feel like I create content that is worthy for anyone to care. Sharing art also used to feel fun, but from a point on I feel like I've been doing it mechanically. I've felt the urge to delete my art accounts a few times recently, since I feel there's not much point in sharing my art. There are some people I would miss though, so I stick around for them. 

At the moment, I am on standby for my 6 month internship thanks to pathetic university management, which is very very frustrating. I was hoping to graduate around May and now that's been pushed back. I am so looking forward to conclude my current studies and leave that part behind me. I cannot begin to describe how fed up I am with it.  I don't know where I'm going with my career. I felt so certain about it all 2 years ago, that I knew exactly what I wanted. Now I am just fed up. I feel like there's hardly anything I really want... It's really frustrating to feel like this. I hope I will get some positive feelings once the damn studies is over, but that's only being delayed thanks to bureaucracy. It feels like all I can do now is wait and endure...

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SiwySzczur Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2018
Nice gallery:)
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PhoenixMystery Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you!
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SiwySzczur Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2018
No problem, I like good art:) I invite you to my gallery:)If you like my work, watch me :)
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wolfhorseluvr12 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Welcome to FMABrotherhood!! :iconfmabrotherhood:
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Spiritofdarkness Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2017
:iconllamajumpplz: thanks for the llama :)
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Salvathi Featured By Owner May 2, 2017  Student General Artist
Thanks for the fave ^^
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thesongofrevolution Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the llama! Love 
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Followthepaws Featured By Owner Apr 3, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
thanks for the watch and favs<3^^
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PhoenixMystery Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem! ^^
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Gina-Kyona Featured By Owner Feb 9, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the llama! ^o^
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