Broken Hallelujah

So being sick the past almost week has given me a lot of time to think about a lot of stuff and, though it was no fun being sick, I really think God used it to bring me back down to a place where I could hear Him without being distracted by everything else that I was letting get in the way of our relationship. It also served in reminding me of how completely broken I am and how completely I need Him. Because there's so much going on that I want to control and that I think I can control, and when I get in the way of what He's doing I just mess it up.

This song by Mandisa came to mind randomly this morning. I haven't heard it in a long while, but it was perfect for the way I have been feeling and what I'm dealing with.

Sometimes it's hard to pray because I feel like I have nothing to offer but my tears. But sometimes that's all God needs. That moment where we're finally so defeated that we turn to him and sob, "Father, I need you."

Broken Hallelujah: [link]