Don't Forget

Vent ahead!

Juju and her inner demons. For those who don't know Juju is me and this is what I feel like when I have an anxiety/panic attack. I over think to much and alot of times I worry about if people will forget about me, mainly my friends. I feel this way because the more time that goes by without them contracting me or not replying when I message them bothers me so much. When things are like this I don't know where I stand in someone's life. I just.... I just don't have anymore fight left in me to even hold relationships with people because no one wants to take the time to see if I'm okay, it's always me to start a conversation. No one tells me anything. I guess what I'm saying is I feel left out of people's lives and it makes me sad. I've just been an emotionally unstable mess for so long and the lack of social interactions is getting the better of me. I'm doing the best I can to make things work with these relationships but I realize people have their own lives to worry about and I shouldn't interfere, I just wish I knew what was going on so I wouldn't have to worry so much I always find out whats going on though other people and that makes me even more sad. I ask people if their okay and they either say "everything's fine," or nothing at all. I might be over thinking it but I can't help but wonder.