I'm OK personaly, but pissed of right now...some of my class-mated are truly stupid hens or gooses. I'm usually kind person but can't stand idiots. Especialy these who blame you for theire own mistakes. Huh...so i should stop ranting now
Good to hearAnyway,I remeber you had troubles wit tooth...is it KO now?I hope so...huh...I'm very afraid of dentists
Thank you I was kinda on edge for some time now but the last thing which made my lost my patience was when one of my class-mates I cooperated during project told my incorrect data, but then accused me I was the one who made mistake. Right after than she for change didn't use her brain and look properly in to notes and blame me again. Other problem is I'm much older then they are, so they are curious about me and my life...so they are asking various less or more private questions.I'm not used to this cause adults simply aren't curious about some thinks or they aren't asking even they are curious.So that's the first problem.But nothing I can't deal with. There's second thing getting on my nerve much more. They are asking the same questions repeatedly cause they simply forgot what I told them.Yeah,really...that's pissing me off cause I had to think a lot how to explain this or that to my class-mates who have trouble to understand cause they haven't enough life-experiences atc. The third trouble is that these who are asking the most frequently are damn gossipy kinds of girls who even in other regards belong to kinds of ppl with whom I don't chat more than necessary if I have choice.
I'll be more clever next time and don't let myself to lost my nerves
Hi there!I'm sorry for late reply-i was too bussy with life...too much studiing, han personal and relationship problems and so on...so i wasn't here for very long time and that I didn't feel like logging in after so long time, but I really missed dA and ppl I met here, so when my friend I told about dA started to convince me to return I decided I will...so I hope I will be around agan.Just have to clean message center.it's kinda surprising how many messages I got despite y absence!
Thankies for asking me!Hmmm...classmates, well.I can say it went out well.Half of them-what means exactly 5 are pretty annoying from time to time, but I managed to get ridd off of them.Afer some time it turned out that 3 of them are in fact OK, just very different from me and I can say they are the exact kind of ppl whit whoom I'm not compatible,so it's better to get out of each others way.I have feeling I need to show I can bit from time to time so they doesn't become too bold again But otherwise thing are going really well.The second half of classmates are great.I really like them and we have a lot of fun at school, simmilar hobbies, points of wiev etc.
i'm stressed out and excited i'm finally moving from this hellwhole for an apartment where i have suffered for the past 1,5 years and into a wonderful new, larger, quiter place where i can finally settle down and enjoy and get back into ART again! can't wait, moving date is 1 dec. i want to move tomorrow
I'm a bit stressed out due to family issues and trying to fix all the holiday stuff that needs to be done (like cleaning the apartment, which is hard with handymen coming in and out every day). Other than that it's quite good.
Glad to hear It's always nice when you find the spot you feel at home in.
Somewhat, 1959. The heating problem was because of the fire in the basement, it killed the heating pipes or something. Today and tomorrow they're fixing with the water so for most of the day there is no access to water right now >.< And soon they want to change windows (air draft) but they haven't told us when, I'm fearing december because last time they did something big (relining the pipes) it was in december - kills the holiday feeling completely.
typiskt att de ska spara sånt arbete till vintern -.- erbjuder de en tillfällig bostad medan de gör det, eller får du helt enkelt bara stå ut med?
de skulle fixa fönstren i min förra lägenhet, men jag tvärvägrade. jag hade bara ett rum där, och jag bodde på bottenvåningen, allt de skulle sätta för var frigolit och spånskiva, och jag bodde precis intill stans mest trafikerade väg - jag blev bullerstörd som det var, och det kändes inte tryggt alls. så de fick vackert vänta tills jag flyttade ut.
De har inte någon annan gång erbjudit det så jag tvivlar på att de gör det denna gång heller, det andra huset fick aldrig bo någon annanstans förra året när de bytte deras fönster. Såg glasmästarens bil utanför så jag vet inte om det har påbörjat arbetet eller inte, ingen information alls.
Usch Bra att du stod på dig, det där är ju inte alls roligt på mer än ett sätt. Jag skulle känt mig oerhört otrygg med en spånskiva mellan mig och verkligheten.
BeehiveStudioFeatured By OwnerNov 6, 2012Professional Digital Artist
I am in a demential stage at the moment, my mother is really grumpy, screaming up and down, she is illed, very illed but she makes my life a misery, no matter how much time I invest in trying to mae her feel better, she always does something to make me angry, upset or just lose my mind, it is really frustrating when she believes that her time is way more important than mine, asides she is a brat, and she tries to cry and manipulate me all the time, I am trying to keep positive, you know keep working and still help her but at times I am about to drop the towel and yell at her, it is bad, but she just never considers
I know how it is, kind of. I cut my mum off earlier this year and in June I e-mailed her, now we've still haven't gotten nowhere but I've been accused of this and that while she claims she hasn't said anything. It's like trying to go one step forward while the other one runs the other way while throwing rocks at you.
BeehiveStudioFeatured By OwnerDec 23, 2012Professional Digital Artist
the situation is pretty much the same, I have gotten to a conclusion that maybe my mother and I are those types of souls that reborn together, is some sort of karma curse or something, we might be linked in some sort of way and I am working on breaking that karmic bond we have, I have already realized why I despite my mother so badly, and the reason is because I feel that she has damaged me mentally in all the possible ways, all the walls I built in front of me was because of things my mother told me when I was growing up, the you can't do this, you can't do that, you are a good for nothing kind of things that when it comes from your mother, they stick in your head and never leave you, I am lucky to have =ninaste that although he's lived hard things has helped me to understand that I am good at what I do and that I am a good person and that I can make it, I also despite my mother because she never took care of herself and her illness and in some way I believe she is sort of suiciding herself slowly, you know there are different ways a person can suicide herself, and my mother is doing it every day, she is almost like a living dead, and sometimes I get all those negative energies from her that are so horrible...
But I am mentally feeling better because I've decided that even though if she isn't proud of me, I am proud of myself and that's all I need... I also had a horrible fight with my father and finally all the pain came to surface, I am sure he didn't see it coming, but it had to be done, this year is a new begining for me gladly...
thanks for asking, you are honestly the only person I have spoken to about this, and it feels so much better... I wish I could write you every now and then because it helps keep my mind empty...
I am so sorry to hear this. And first off, of course you can write to me now and then. Just send a note whenever you feel the urge, I'm here for you
I'm glad you're starting to see your self worth because you ARE good at what you do. You ARE a nice person. I know this. It's sad that your mum haven't said such things and maybe she do knows deep down. It is hard since it's a parent (I know) and their opinion do matter. I'm also really glad you have =ninaste, that you have each other.
I'm not in the best state right now. My best friend/room mate left for home town some hours ago and I decided to stay here alone and celebrate Christmas on my own. I feel so bad for not visiting my dad and whenever I think about it or of Christmas I start crying. It's just another mess and I just feel so left out with him and his family. My plan since last year was to not visit my mum (the original mess) and have for quite some time thought about staying at home but I'm kind of panicking about that decision (it's too late though to do anything now anyway, both of my parents live roughly 8h away).
Ptja, 3 nov var det inte så toppen. Jag kan inte säga att det blivit bättre generellt - bara andra bovar men annars rätt bra. Känner mig lite inspirerad igen så har gjort en hel del smycken det senaste och känner att jag utvecklats oerhört mot de smycken som ligger på etsy nu.
Men vad bra att du fortsätter att försöka se saker och ting från den ljusa sidan och att du kämpar vidare! Ja jag har sett dina tjusiga örhängen på etsy, jag är definitivt spekulant på dem (i synnerhet de röda)! Men det får nog bli efter jul, det är lite ebb i kassan för tillfället
I'm on the edge between getting really sick and staying healthy, and hoping and praying that I won't get sick again... Next week mark the start of my studies, so I really need to be up and ready to go Other than that... well I'm relatively fine. I don't like the winter and it's getting cold quickly now, not to mention that it's raining like ALL THE TIME, so I'm a bit tired of the weather too.
BUT I've managed to be organised and productive and get things done lately, which is a huge accomplishment for me ^^ I'm also in a theatre group, which lights up my days twice a week, which is AWESOME. Not to mention that I love the play we're rehearsing now So I'm okay ^^
I really hope you won't get sick! What are you going to study?
I know, it would be great with some sunny days - you know those poster boy days for autumn that you see everywhere (on photos).
Sounds really good, theatre is awesome, I miss it sometimes.
Ah, trying to start up my etsy shop so it's a lot of photographing jewellery which is like wooosh 3h gone and still no pictures I'm satisfied with but it goes Trying to personally pick myself up too, mending my heart.
I avoided it, thank heavens ^^ And I'm studying to be a theatre teacher - with swedish as second language as my second subject. Right now I'm out in the field though, doing field studies. It's... both fun and terrifying. Mostly fun. Yeah, indeed! I wonder if one could order those somewhere? (the sunny days, not the boys)
Theatre is lovely ^^ I've missed it terribly the years that I've only been doing the theoretics and teaching rather than doing it myself. So I'm happy to get the chance to stand on stage again.
Ah... My best wishes on the etsy shop and the photos! It's gonna be awesome, I'm sure ^^ About the heart... Take care of yourself, alright? I truly hope for the best for you. Drop me a word if you need it ^^
I'm doing alright. Just finished a rather big job two weeks ago, and school's going alright. But I miss being able to talk to a friend of mine. She calmed me and challenged me to be better than I am. We use to talk all the time but now it is just fleeting emails and well-wishes. I wish I could get her back into my life but she's seemingly really busy nowadays and I get the feeling she thinks our time as twin-souls have passed. I don't want to complain to her because I know what she is doing is important to rebuilding her life, I just wish there was some way she could do what she has to do and still had time for me. Ya know? Anyways, that made it seem like I'm doing worse than I am, but except for this huge hole, I'm doing pretty well.
Fine thanks a bit grumpy that I have to do my homework that i was over halfway with, again in order to properly understand it this time due to a minor technical issue, but hey, that was my own fault I have statistics homework that we do online, and I started doing it in Chrome, which apparently doesn't deal with mathematical symbols as well as Firefox, so now I understand just about everything but the maths.
But I can try again tomorrow other than that, I'm really good thank you! How are you?
Ow, that sucks but hey at least you understand everything else, that is much better than understanding nothing! The maths will go in a jiffy I'm sure when you have the right browser
A bit better now, just got out from a hot bath. My body can't handle cold and today its been windy and rainy (downside of the darker months and living up north) so it felt like every part of me had frozen on the inside, my joints literally squeaked when I moved. With some tea soon I will be smooth moving again