Aah... Where to start? So, I know I have plenty of watchers who probably won't read this since they only enabled the watch for notifications about my photos. Gladly, I'm not typing this for the famous lurkers who I wish I could remove myself from the list, considering most of them are just fucking wankers who don't comment on anything useful or helpful for me and only use DA for watching twisted shit and pleasing their fetishes and perversions. Anyway, this is for the REAL people in here who enjoy reading my stuff and who have given me their support at some point.
Sometimes I want to motivate myself, attempt new things and think, "Come on, let's try this. If you don't, you'll never know. Why not? You can do it; go ahead!", just to find myself getting discouraged by requirements. Lately, I've noticed most of the agencies recruiting models in my country are giving more opportunities and the chance to go to castings to only taller models. I understand height has always been a desire and demand in the fashion industry, but when you're located in a place where GENETICALLY people are shorter, you should broaden your options and offers and put aside such a neutral bland feature which won't tell you how much potential someone really possesses. Not to mention it's not even relevant in photography. Sadly, I feel like I live in the land of no opportunities, an empty city. If you do get a chance at something, there is always somebody waiting to criticize everything that others do, mock them and tear them apart. They sabotage each other's success somehow. I think I feel closer to some of you here than with people from my own culture which is quite strange. You should relate more to your own nation.
I've been doing this shit for 6 years now; I'm not inexpert. I've been through plenty of experiences that most people don't even know about and that many models here haven't because their struggle was different and, the truth is, easier. However, I've always been kind of a loner introverted honest and analytical person, so I don't think I would ever fit in that cutthroat ambit of hypocrisy, lies, envy, judgments, rivalry, deceit and betrayal if I ever deepened in it with "fame" or recognition. Perhaps it's better that way. I guess I'm too loyal to be popular and "trendy". I just wish I could have had more shots at showing what I'm capable of.
All my reasons to enter modeling were to prove myself what I could achieve ON MY OWN, that I could attain something on which I put my mind to, but you already know that... Despite what many say, I accomplished my goal with the evidence to prove it and I'm proud of myself for that; nobody gave anything away to me. At least I know NO ONE can tell me "You didn't try". I'm just left with the feeling of 'Where do I belong?' Meh... Whatever.
I don't think I'll be active enough here, so if you want to add me somewhere else to keep in touch, look for me with the same username. I'll be glad to know those who are really interested and interact with you.