I am not sure if what i wrote in my journals will do good or bad to me. but one thing i know is that what you see are all part of me, the good the bad, the ugly. I might be bringing too much personal life here, it could be a good or a bad thing. however this is all part of me, and i know that i'm growing stronger, learning, and experiencing different things and learn from it. I have my ugly moments. but i also have my wonderful moments too. how complicated. i wish i am more stable. but them it could be really boring, or better. Well more complications.
Anyway, 2009 have been wild. ups and downs, and extreme down and very high ups. life is fu