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an insight - 3 voices

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 10, 2010, 5:33 PM
3 voices by petebritney

when we create our own art , it becomes a part of our journal almost , its a part of us . . most of the time through our art we want to express who we are , show ourselves , our interests , use it to outline our life at that present point . i dont know about you but my art is my diary .
i always look back on my work and remember things like how cold it was that day , what i did after i took a certain photo , how happy i was at the time .
tonight i was looking through my photos and when i came to my piece ' 3 voices ' i just stopped . .

i wasnt expecting my own reaction and it almost brought me to tears the memory of why i made this piece . i can remember what i did straight after this photo , what i ate that day , where i drove , what i did , who i was with , the smells , the tastes , how happy i was but most of all how insanely confused i was . . i'll share with you now that i subconsciously submitted this photo as a cry for help . i wanted someone to give me the answer but i couldnt tell anyone what the problem was . i remember telling my best friend - the only one person who knew , that this was the worst thing i had faced in my life and together we couldnt find a solution ! right now looking back however i can see that it wasnt the worst thing in the world it was quite easily the best thing. . its funny how art can mean something to you , and then one day can mean something entirely different ? . i look at ' 3 voices ' and i see a great sadness in my eyes . the confusion just shining through is soul destroying . i now have a love / hate relationship with this piece . love : for reminding me of happy memories , but hate : for reminding me of why they were happy memories .

i dont have a blog anymore , i dont even have a facebook either as i previously told you about , so its nice to come and release some thoughts as i often find writing so therapeutic , but its nicer that i can share those thoughts here as they relate to my art (:
i had an interesting idea that im pretty sure some of you may be intrigued by . i was thinking of ( like i have just done ) taking a piece from my gallery and talking about the thought process behind it . my reasons for creating it . and if i can remember what i ate that day i'll even share that haha (;
if you like the idea and would like to know more about a certain piece just post the title or link in a comment and i will tell you what you would like to know or as much as i feel comfortable ! sound good ?

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ginerwa Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
it's nice to hear that you find writing therapeutic. it's also kinda weird, because when i'm reading your journals (which i do quite often) i find that very relaxing and sort of soothing... maybe i could say that it's therapeutic to me too in a way.
i've tried writing a "real" journal, but it doesn't work for me. i just feel silly. reading on the other hand works for me and that's probably why i love to read your journals here.

so yes, i would really like to hear stuff behind your work. i would love to hear the story behind each of your self-portraits but especially one of my absolute favourites.

where did you get the energy from? the emotion, the pain and the anger, feel so real.
was this taken as an impulse from something, like a reaction, or did you seek for the emotion from something from the past?
and then not really in context with that particular photo, but how much your inspiration flows with your emotions? does it always come from something real?

sorry if the questions are kinda hard to get, i'm too excited and overflowing with things to ask.
thank you :heart:
petebritney Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2010
i wrote a very heartfelt journal there . it was testing , therapeutic , nostalgic , everything . i hope you like my honesty :)
ginerwa Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
thank you !
servieres Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2010
I'm not one to delve into the past, particularly someone else's, and I would feel very uncomfortable suggesting any particular work.

Putting that to one side, if you feel that you would like to talk about your work in such a personal way, then please go ahead, Pete. I'm sure it will be interesting.
petebritney Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2010
thankyou for being honest , and for keeping yourself in a comfortable mindframe .
im such a nostalgic person that thats pretty much always what friends and i do - talk about good and bad memories - going over life again so that you get a full appreciation of what happened !
if anything by talking about my work or experiences it lets people know the truth and not an assumed meaning they have concocted themselves ? and as i said it can be therapeutic at times to vent in such a way too .
PandasRampage Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
I love the idea! I'm quite intrigued on what you have to say on some of your pieces. :meow:
petebritney Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2010
thanks , i will only do this if people suggest responsibly and possibly present a reason as to why they would like to know , i wont be doing this on every piece on a whim :)
PandasRampage Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
That's understandable. :)
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