strip it all away

"take chances.  tell the truth.  date someone totally wrong for you.  say no.  spend all your cash.  get to know someone random.  be random.  say i love you.  sing out loud.  laugh at stupid jokes.  cry.  apologize.  tell someone how much they mean to you.  tell a jerk what you think.  laugh till our stomach hurts.  live life.  regret nothing...."

it's 2011.  it may be just another tomorrow, simply another day, but it is a new day.  and a new year.  and it's a new chance for me to get back on track with my life.

i've been miserable, unbelievably happy and even more unbelievably angry and i am sick and tired of feeling like i wasted my time.  i don't want to think that i wasted my time at work early in the year because i didn't.  i don't want to feel like i wasted my time on gabe and nate, because it was not wasted time.  and i don't want to feel like i spent the last 4 months wasting my time and myself away because even though I may have, I've also moved forward.

I get my first paycheck since quitting my job in march, this week.  I have two days off that will be spent celebrating the fact that i've found a temporary fulltime job.  1600 dollars a month, here I come.  I found the most incredible house and if all is true and real i'll be living there with my best friend within the next couple months and things will be better.

when things turn around they turn around all at once, right?  so i'll enjoy the happy time while i have it, because now i truly realize how quickly it can be simply ripped away from me and stolen from underneath my feet.

it's time to get a move on with this bullshit life and take advantage of everything that comes my way.

peace out 2010.
hello new year.  happy 2011.

-lizz