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Auguries Of Carcosa
      The dreaded city of Carcosa, is my new dwelling. It's aphotic streets are my domain. There are housed many dwellers who endure the  endless pain. I have tried with my labors to frustrate death, but in vain. I still became an inhabitant of this lieu. But breath of death has given me new life in the dreaded city of Carcosa. Though oblivion was a worthy sequel to my career, I had envisioned it as an end and not this, this travesty of existence. Gnashing, screaming and churning of stomach is a paltry effort at naming the tremendous pain that dwarfs all humanly perceivable notions of pain in existence. But all that is known about the dreaded city of Carcosa, can't be obtained from volumes of forgotten lore. The Necronomicon and Malleus Maleficarum hide the answers , that  a mere mortal man should never lay eyes upon. Now I inhabit this empty shapeless vessel, to which no form is given. And all I see are shadows walking, without a body, statues gazing at dark s
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VIIFinalHeartsII Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch <3
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pavelas555000 Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2017
I am the one who should be thanking...
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Morgasmus Featured By Owner Edited Aug 27, 2017
It is a pity that my demeanor has to adapt for the current place of writing this comment. Thus my manner of speech has to adapt. Meaning I can not type my delusional thoughts as aptly as I want to and at the same time it is hard to refuse the temptation to write something random and peculiar here, since it would be construed as callow. By the way did I mention my penchant for digressing and over analyzing pretty much everything ? So what to write and what to write once more. I know, let's start with the usual randomness. It all started in 1963... Vietnam... Saigon.  And before you ask what did, remember  that * it all started* summarizes everything. Now then, I shall proceed browsing through your favorites, I believe that they might strike soft part of my dejected heart.
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pavelas555000 Featured By Owner Edited Sep 2, 2017
With time, deviantart completely faded out of my memory, resulting in it being a trace of my memory. It originally was more of a place to joke around and get entertained. Currently have around 25 thousand pictures, waiting for me to finally view them. 

Thine old ways of communicating can still be applied to me, that way I can learn them faster. English exam awaits me. Main problem is: my english is practically incapsulated, awaiting its purpose to be unleashed in different country. I lowered my level of english for others too, resulting in forgetting more sophisticated level of it. Second problem is: half of my day is on latvian language and second half of it is completely on english language, thereby I lose ability to understand my main language that promptly, which therefore reducing output of logic in thought before communicating, resulting in slow processing output and simple sentences. My main language was not fully developed in the first place, due to me being born in such country, as it is.

You are nearly always are miserable, maybe there is a lot of distressive triggers around you (music, specific type of pictures, envinroment, et cetera)? But if you do prefer to embrace depression conventionally, good background would be artist named Flume (his type of music is not tied to one genre, it has its own genre). (Unclassic epic compositions are my choice.)

I am naturally digressive person, but to not digress and bother others with that, I am just silent in every possible event. Choosing to make actions myself, without bothering others.

If you said, that everything started in 1963, Vietnam, would it make you related to that date? Would that be participation or imaginally visiting it, I do not know yet. Does not sound realistic for you to participate there, considering you are playing complex computer games. But yes, you are a soldier, or was one.

Browsing through my favorites will only lend yourself to embrace my problematic past, especially because in such age interest changes rapidly. I would be displeased, if you will know me from the side, that I am trying to leave in past and never touch again.

About League, about your questions about it, I would add: League is the highest quality game I ever played, that is why I chose it to be long-term played. Only then it became something what kept me sane and a teacher of real life tricks, that are hidden within this game.

About you, Sir Galahad, awful amount of time will pass until I will forget you.
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Morgasmus Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2017
What you perceive of me is just a shadow of my real self. My delusions, do not lend them ear. The face which I've decided to show you, if it gives you comfort then so be it, but do not put unnecessary expectations on me. For nobody can truly fathom and grasp another person fully, thoroughly and wholly. I encompass the duality of human nature. You just happened to stumble on a brighter side of my self which you found appealing. 
All I can add is gratitude for kind words, they are fuel for my corroded heart and bid thee good day.
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pavelas555000 Featured By Owner Edited Nov 1, 2017
Or in tl;dr form: Mental Blindness.
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pavelas555000 Featured By Owner Edited Nov 1, 2017
I've met my undoing once again, my limit, my bane. I do have a lot of advantages compared to other people, but some disadvantages are truly pitiful to have.

Something that I describe as "developer view". That I got used to get rid of to play League properly and focus on gameplay instead of "how it works". With time I became disappointed in my own semi-permament action, becoming automatic and focused on numbers, I completely missed out straight logic, calling it "mainstream ways", which I received enormous amount of unqieness, but with same time, lost ability to comprehend. Ability to understand feelings and tiny bits. Inability to see with my eyes, therefore just judging by analysis of situation (In order to check whether Library is open today or not, I look up its time of work on the list and then make a conclusion instead of simply walking to that Library, that is located very close, and checking if door is locked is clearly visible upon).

Same as in League, I got the point, where in order to learn and get better further, I need to manually search for that in Internet and then adopting that idea. That is how I suddenly received nearly 30 win streat and launched up to Diamond 1 promos, where I got hit with illness that affected my decision-making.

But let us get to the main point. In order to play Leauge properly and successfully, I should get rid of the sense I want to develop, but it already might be too late. An ability to understand everything more deeply, being one step ahead of a creator. I never liked being easily predicted, so I made this computerised mind, in exchange, I lost something, I needed, that is why I currently consider myself biologically inept in making a League carreer or overall being deeply observative instead of just observative.

Questioning every word, every action, every behavior in order to understand is a ideal I am trying to follow and develop, but currently unsuccessful. After that moment of discovering my limit, I accepted my inability of never being that ideal I am going towards to. But it doesn't mean I will stop trying to break that milestone record.

Brightest examples would be macro in League, hand movement and gestures in people, same as their pattern of thinking and making decisions.

Before I will end this acknowledgment, I want to talk about some things first.

Reclamation video was unsophisticated enough for me to somewhat fully undestand it, becaus it was focused on emotions instead of solid logic. 

Next would be about Oscar Wilde's book, I am **in progress of reading it**, trying to not let it change my life motives, because it is strong in that. I despise Lord Henry and his viewpoints on the world, where he first tells TRUTH, but then exaggerates it more and more to the point of being more until forgetting what he even said, like he is doing it for the sake of entertaining others and trying to be enthusiastic about life and its experiences to others instead of being a man of solid logic. At same time, the best book I ever read. But at times, I need to force myslf to continue reading.

Was it a simple wish to get rid of logic to hide from its existence and conclusions, or was it making my own logic on the carcass of hatred to others, that I left afterwards? I do not know and I am never stopping my investigation.

I consider you a corrupted person, but if you was not corrupted, I would not have found you, investigated your mind, collected samples of experience. But it is only the bad side, maybe, I am too eager. I appreciate that, in return I always try to give something. 

I know you are not easily disturbed. Don't worry about why I just told that, because you are not easily disturbed. I offer you a trial on your examination and understanding of a certain object: "Doki Doki Literature Club!", a free game on Steam. I hope you do not know about its plot by this day and its secrets. I hope you will be successful. It is about 3-8 hours long, depending how long will you stop in middle of playing it and how much will you invest into it. It is worth the while taken on it. Do not spoil it for yourself. But something tells me, 9GAG already told you everything.

Just move your hand - write the way into his mind!
But in this world of infinite choices
What will it take just to find that special day?
What will it take just to find that special day?
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Morgasmus Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2017
My duty calls me but rest assured you will receive a proper reply soon.
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pavelas555000 Featured By Owner May 31, 2017
On this day, this account became 4 years old.
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Langustka Featured By Owner May 21, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
And also for the watch :3
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pavelas555000 Featured By Owner May 23, 2017
Was worth it!
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Langustka Featured By Owner May 3, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the faves ^^
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thegreyzen Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2017  Student Digital Artist
thanks so much for the watch!! : W :

Fav Thanks by thegreyzen  
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