I live my life learning what i can, where i can, whenever i can, as if it was is my "quest".
I've put too much time into studying and observing the world from a young age as if i am ought to.
The kid that from age 4 plays chess, from 5 knows all the dinosaurs, countries + capital cities, planets. 4 years later i already knew 3 languages, what is evolution and vaguely how it works. not talking about reading and writing before kindergarten.
as a result i think that i came to a point of no return. even though i am surrounded by amazing people, i spend a lot of my time alone.
i have a difficulty in communicating my thoughts to even my friends, probably because of my axiomatic, non humanist, behaviorist perspective on existence and the universe.
probably some artists share many of the same symptoms, so i have decided to share my thoughts.
here are some Lyrics of a song that i cant get out of my head that sum up my introspection:
I’ve tried to fight pessimism
look for an explanation to the prime weakness we seem to convey:
A strong drive to destroy ourselves
All statements have turned out to conduct to a maze of suspect justifications
Encased between hermetic walls of incertitude
Axioms appear so contrived
And science, the paragon of devious crafts
I struggle to assimilate this fact:
No wisdom brings solace
I start to realize the limitations of my attempt to truly understand the misery of men
The more I look inside, the more I’ am prone to deride the basis of every creed:
To know is to be saved
I’m lost, standing at the crossroads with no means to decide on a better course
No choice appears convenient, no pathway predominates
Unsure to ever escape my posture of inflexible disbelief
I decide but to abandon this hunt for significance
(Repeat second verse and chorus)
Nothing is true, nothing is eternal, there’s no reward for steadfast belief
In a flawed system of assumption but a breakdown of cognition gears
To deprave the core of all knowledge and confer it the arrays of faith
Is to increase the prospect of oversight and absurdity
Sybreed - No wisdom brings solace