Months pass between mere logins here, let alone art or journal updates.
I have been working on a few things. Lately, I haven't "finished" anything, but I realized that the level I sunk to in terms of inspiration and technical skill was so low that, at that point, my focus couldn't be on "finishing" anything: I had to simply set my sights on remembering the joy in doodling. I had to stop blaming the mess my physical tools were in (computer is fucked) and instead remember that drawing doesn't have to mean posting something for comments, likes, or an audience at all. I had to get back to the bare roots of things and it's been a struggle to even
Looks like I've finally got the kick in the ass I've been looking/waiting for.
So I've been drawing up a storm these past few days and have been feeling really inspired/motivated to get some good work put out, which is more than I can say I've felt for the past two, nearly three years.
I'm starting up on Gaia. For the longest time I didn't want to "go back there", didn't want to do commissions for people for points on a game site, was hell bent on being a more "mature" and "accomplished" artist ... all that ego bullshit completely trashed my ability to produce any artwork at all. I was so caught up in trying to make my art look
Don't feel useless! Always use those you consider to be inspiration as motivation, not as something that stops you from making progress. There will always be artists "better" than you, and always artists "worse" than you: artwork, to me, is about personal improvement. Don't strive to "beat" others, strive only to "beat" your own expectations for yourself.
hey man! this'll probably sound weird but i've been following your DA since like '09 and haven't been active as an artist SINCE then! but for whatever reason i dusted off the ole' account and stumbled upon your most recent journal entry. as someone who also grew up with gaia/weird anime internet drama, i just wanted to wish you all the best in your future endeavours. don't stop drawing, cuz i'll be looking forward to seeing all your new stuff pop up in my DA thing (sorry it's been a while since i've been on dis).