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So... it's all about me and my problem with society.

In 2003 I moved with my family (back then there was only me and my parents) to some housing next to army. Nothing said I'll be so fucked up during the most needed part of life when it goes to society.
In 2004 I started walking to preschool. Back then it was only some fun stuff. But then here came 2006. And the worst 3 years of my life. Firstly I was bullied by one guy that was one class higher, but he stopped after a while when I said to girls (or teacher, I don't remember now) about him.
Later after... OH FUCKING BOY.
Jeremi Kozioł. After those years, I still remember his fucking name. He was the main one, he told EVERYFUCKINGONE to not even touch me. I've got bullied, no matter how hard I tried to be just like them. I was set to be an alien, the outcomer. I've got no friends howsoever and not even a single girl ever tried to be a good pal of mine. I had to do everything by my fucking own. Times when I need to be the most social around - they're lost by lots of faggots that bullied me during those three years. This happened to make my social life so fucked up even to this day.
Results of those 3 years:
-total shyness when it goes to girls
-me being sad when NO ONE notices me
-liking being alone with my phone that plays music
-having only a few of good pals in my current school
-and without that I wouldn't even be on youtube, deviantart and soundcloud or anywhere where I can get some friends.

I almost cried when I wrote that wall of text :'(


and that's why earlier today (or yesterday) I said that I love getting no emotions from anyone. :'(

image that fits: When schoolmates are bullying you... by Patryk1023



a note because not everyone understand that story: it can be good, right. but they're all my memories, so that's not a fiction. that actually happened.
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:iconpotatos10:
PotatOS10 Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2014  Hobbyist
Thanks for sharring this mate. Ye know, when I looked at it, I almost cried.
Seriously. Some how I had it in my mind too. (i've been bullied for like more than 6 yrs., Shyness,and having no friends to be with.)
This thoughts will never leave.I am alone.

don't feel bad about it.
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
;____;
*internet hug*
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PotatOS10 Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2014  Hobbyist
*internet hug*
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
*still holds that hug*
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:iconpotatos10:
PotatOS10 Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2014  Hobbyist
TT-TT

*still hugging*
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
unfair world Cry emote Cry emote

:hug:2 rvmp 
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:iconpotatos10:
PotatOS10 Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2014  Hobbyist
UNFairly :<<
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:'CCCCCC
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BreakDownFighter Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm quite short tempered kid (yup, still a kid), so that has caused big problems... Maybe I'll write it out like you, but definitely not here in the comments.

-nanuu
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 9, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
definitely not here. ikr
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frightmare99 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist Photographer
I'm feeling the same way since I moved down to Florida, except the fact that 95% of my school are people I should not hang out with, they're bound to make trouble.
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:lll
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ChaosDynasty Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I wasn't really bullied, but I understand your pain. I had 2 friends in school and no boyfriend to speak of. *sigh* thing is, 10 years later after graduation, and I'm still alone...
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
there are lots of free boys here on dA.
for example me ;_;
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ChaosDynasty Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Eh, don't feel too bad. Eventually you will find someone. I just don't know how long that will take for me. After all, I'm only a little over 2 years from hitting 30.
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
quite old :l
and you're so lonely... D:
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:iconchaosdynasty:
ChaosDynasty Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Old? Nah. While aging is required, maturing is optional. I have friends who are in their 40s and are gamers. 27 is nothing.
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:P
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ChaosDynasty Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Exactly!
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
we're not counting sunday gamers, yea?
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MisterMisteroO Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
Don't feel bad, man. You're gonna be fine. Meow :3 
Same used to happen with me when I was a schooler. Now things going pretty well I think, but I'm still socially awkward a bit.
Be strong. Don't let damn bastards destroy you.
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I already moved in 2009, before I even heard of TF2 and GMod, but all that things are still inside of me, making me a bit of socially awkward...
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MisterMisteroO Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
"The less you care, the happier you will be."
That helped me a lot.
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't care now what one says. They can joke with me. I will still not care, only smile. :3
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IthinkSteve Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014
I have to say that this things can only help you. Now you have only friends that can be trusted. You don't care of what they think or say about you and you can do everything without anyone help. 
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't care now who says shit about me in school. I know some guys are calling me "Mariusz Trynkiewicz" because of accidental showing of how ball can go under one of them. I find that funny, tho.
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IthinkSteve Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014
They call me the Young Old Man.
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:iconpatryk1023:
Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Why? Because you're heartless or what?
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:iconithinksteve:
IthinkSteve Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014
For how I act and dress and for being different from them.
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
ah... :l

some can call me "Oldie" because of my last name (which somehow is Starus, similar to the word 'stary' - 'old')
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IthinkSteve Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014
They are all babies.
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
lolyep xD
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DisasterGoat Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I know that feel, I know everything what you went trough 
I've been bullied for more then 5 years, It made me social akward
ect ect I love to be alone, but I enjoy talking over skype because it makes me feel comfy about others
not seeing them ect ect 

But we all go on the pc wich makes you less lonley
and stuff
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
we all up here are  after something that broke our sociality. and that's our help, being here, because we're all are after problems in school or life.
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DisasterGoat Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Jep, just to look for comfort
and get rid of them feelings
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:iconpatryk1023:
Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
alrighty :3
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DisasterGoat Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
;u;
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
;\__/;
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firm2000 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
   Thank you for letting it out and sharing the story with us, Patty. I was actually bullied when I was in PRESCHOOL. It's quite sad, considering that I've been bullied until today.

   Nowsaday, people didn't reject me directly, they just say nothing to me (ever) IRL. It's really sad that there are less and less good people on this world right now.

   Sure, if any of you guys ever talked to me in Skype (w/ video), you should know that I look like a happy-go-lucky dude, but that's just the outer shell of me, really.
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:iconithinksteve:
IthinkSteve Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014
Same here. But I've discovered that this thing is useful to me. 
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
yeah,,, same goes to me. :l
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Someguy2132 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I Know What It's Like
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:l
yeah...
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Someguy2132 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That's My Whole Life As Well
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:iconpatryk1023:
Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
;_;

:hug: we're all after this ;_;
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Daguden Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014
I've been also bullied if you would even call it that.
I could take names, tho i've never been hit.
Other things people say to me affect me in some way. 
I'll never understand how you feel, hell i don't know what i can do.
I wish you a good day sir.
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I wish a really good day will actually happen... ;-;
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Daguden Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014
I don't know what i can do to make you feel better.
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Patryk1023 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Me too... ;_;
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Nylten Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
You're strong to have endured so much and for that, we are all period of you. It's not easy going through isolation through bullying. Is painful for the most part, which I'm sure many-including I-can relate.
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