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In Between

I

In Between

I’ve found myself or so it seems Though silently I fill with screams. My hearts still cracked, not fully healed, Even though my wounds have sealed. My voice drowned out by my puppeteer. She pulls the strings but I’m no volunteer. I’m loved no doubt, that hasn’t changed, But somehow I’m still very pained. I worry night and day and then I worry more and more again. I’m still not skinny, still not rich, I’m still not more than a raging bitch. Outside I’m like a normal girl. Inside I make me want to hurl. I cut no longer this is true But I’m still swimming deep, deep in blue. M

Never End.

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Never End.

I don’t know what to do. Did I ever stop? Did I ever truly stop? Months, or weeks, maybe a year in between. My old friend comes knocking and I open the door. “Hello you poor girl. You look so alone. Can I help you feel comfort? Let’s throw some stones.” So we sit and we laugh throwing stones at glass houses, they crack and they chip, but never once break. My old friend smiles and takes hold of my wrist, “See? You just have to hide it, they’ll be none the wiser.” I hesitate only a moment I’m sure, before my old friend takes my arm, make more scars. I cry just one tear and in seconds feel b

Run Red Run

A Complicated Tale

A

A Complicated Tale

Don't try to tell me how I feel, I'm trying to decipher what is real. We share a deep love, But is love enough? It took some time, It took some tears. I'm still conquering fears. And through all these years, I've found this out, Love is what life is about. Though we may fight And we may argue, Love will always conquer. If we keep this locked deep inside, Our hearts will always find, That ups and downs, Tick and thin, Our love for each other should always win.

Why Should I?

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Why Should I?

Ever Stop. Never Stop. Won't Stop. It's stable and calming, Brings me down from anger, I need this. I can't live without this. Don't need to stop. My choice, my control. Don't want any help. Don't want anyone to try. Just alone, just to be left alone. Why should I pretend? Why should I lie? Why should I ever stop? Never stop.
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In Between

I

In Between

I’ve found myself or so it seems Though silently I fill with screams. My hearts still cracked, not fully healed, Even though my wounds have sealed. My voice drowned out by my puppeteer. She pulls the strings but I’m no volunteer. I’m loved no doubt, that hasn’t changed, But somehow I’m still very pained. I worry night and day and then I worry more and more again. I’m still not skinny, still not rich, I’m still not more than a raging bitch. Outside I’m like a normal girl. Inside I make me want to hurl. I cut no longer this is true But I’m still swimming deep, deep in blue. M

Never End.

N

Never End.

I don’t know what to do. Did I ever stop? Did I ever truly stop? Months, or weeks, maybe a year in between. My old friend comes knocking and I open the door. “Hello you poor girl. You look so alone. Can I help you feel comfort? Let’s throw some stones.” So we sit and we laugh throwing stones at glass houses, they crack and they chip, but never once break. My old friend smiles and takes hold of my wrist, “See? You just have to hide it, they’ll be none the wiser.” I hesitate only a moment I’m sure, before my old friend takes my arm, make more scars. I cry just one tear and in seconds feel b

Run Red Run

A Complicated Tale

A

A Complicated Tale

Don't try to tell me how I feel, I'm trying to decipher what is real. We share a deep love, But is love enough? It took some time, It took some tears. I'm still conquering fears. And through all these years, I've found this out, Love is what life is about. Though we may fight And we may argue, Love will always conquer. If we keep this locked deep inside, Our hearts will always find, That ups and downs, Tick and thin, Our love for each other should always win.

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My Bio
Current Residence: The Office
Favourite genre of music: Everything
Operating System: Windows 7
MP3 player of choice: Zune
Skin of choice: My Own
Favourite cartoon character: Tigger
Personal Quote: Save a human eat a cannibal

Favourite Visual Artist
Unsure
Favourite Movies
LOTR Trilogy
Favourite TV Shows
Charmed, Angel
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Papa Roach
Favourite Books
Graceling, Fire, Bitterblue. Under the Never Sky, Through The Ever Night.
Favourite Writers
Maya Sloan, Tami Hoag, Kristen Cashore and more
Favourite Games
Reckoning
Favourite Gaming Platform
PS2 & Xbobx 360
Tools of the Trade
paper and pen
Other Interests
Music, Movies, Writing, Reading, Horses, Cats, Animals, Theatre etc

I've Published a Book of Poetry!

I've Published a Book of Poetry!

I finally have been published! My poetry book, entitled, We Are Broke: A Collection of Poetry, is now available at Amazon.com! I'm so excited! http://www.amazon.com/We-Are-Broken-collection-poetry/dp/1492350338/ref=sr_1_2_bnp_1_pap?ie=UTF8&qid=1380163070&sr=8-2&keywords=We+Are+Broken There's the link! Go on, click on it! You know you want to!!

Wear Me Out

Wear Me Out

I am so stressed out lately. I'm not sleeping. I'm not able to eat, if I do I get sick. I haven't been this stressed out and upset since high school. I have horrid thoughts running through my head. I just want to run away... or jump out into traffic. I can't concentrate on anything. I haven't been writing. I don't even know what to do with myself. I feel horrible. I hate myself. Everything I do irritates me. Every little itch, or chill, or feeling makes me want to scratch to hard or burn my skin with the hottest water of my showers. I punched myself in the head repeatedly today because I still can't sleep. I'm about to have a panic attack. I

I'm back, I think

I'm back, I think

I've been so busy. I do jump on here occasionally. I've been focused on my novel writing, moving in with my long time boyfriend, and work. I've had so much going on I couldn't stop for air. Now I'm working on more poetry (Not easy) and writing my first novel and my first memoir. I'm enjoying my new job (been about 8 months) and I love the people I work with. It still has it's stresses, but much less than my old job. I've been living with my boyfriend about 4 months now and we love it. It's much better for us, after all we've been together 7 years. I'm also volunteering for the World Wildlife Fund, trying to raise money to save our Wildlife. w

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I love your demon sorceress!
Thank you! I haven't drawn in years, she's my practice.
A delight, magical inspired magician! :D  
BelovedwingsStudent Traditional Artist
Hey there, I stumbled upon your dA account, and I must say. I'm amazed. I'm jealous of your skills to turn moods or situations into words that make great poems. A skill I wish I could have. Keep up the great work. :)
Thanks! It's something I've always loved. I'll be posting stories as well and chapters of novels for feedback.
BelovedwingsStudent Traditional Artist
Well you do that, and I'll be stalking ya ;) Can't wait to see what you post next!
nice gallery u have here.. :wave: