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possible whining and ranting ahead. If you dont want that, lets forget everything and just say that ill be slightly active from here and now.
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you guys im so sorry for the lack of activity !! ( i doubt any of ya'll remember my name ;o; ) i was merely thinking of what happened here in deviantArt. It used to be so.. enchanting? So exciting?? So I logged on daily,, like, everyday. I was so addicted, i was really excited for more. Then suddenly, i got used to the absense of using dA and i almost completely forgot about it.
Perhaps its because I was so inspired to share my CRINGY artworks back then, those were the days i used weird emojis that now creep me out. ( )
But now.. i just dont feel so motivated to draw much anymore. ( but i actively draw in school out of boredom. ) i just feel disappointed in myself seeing that i might have been drifting away from my friends and such. They are so nice,,, i dont deserve them.
I worry about lots of things at school since I think alot there. ( barely anyone talks to me, im too manly to walk up to someone unless its important or urgent. ) I always worry and worry until someone would strike up a silly convo with me, numbing me with the happiness drug of laughter. Escaping my worries, and homeworks.
Recently, ive been thinking up to deactivating this account; but some invisible force is telling me not to like,, huh???
I tried to inspire myself with my comeback drawing, but miraculously; the saying of "expect more works to come!!" Never been truly acheived, now, had it?
There were ALOT of occasions when i get proud of my traditional art ( when i couldn't use my tablet. ) and wish to post it here; but some people at my class started to look at me starry-eyed and asked if they could have the drawing instead.
I didn't want to hand it over, but with troubles of saying 'no'; I didn't refuse. I gave them those works I would've considered as mini-master pieces as i was proud of them. But for some odd reason i notice,,, they wouldn't say they liked it too when i'd admittedly say that i was proud of a piece. Yet when I didn't do my effort, and such; they shower me with compliments and praises. I'm so confused,,, for my hard work, they tell me nothing; yet with a doodle, they treat it as if it was the Mona Lisa Painting.
Im so sorry for ones who've expected alot to come from me; a lazy piece of trash that should be cleaned away. This isn't one of those petty little fake journals who just want attention with the so-called "depression".
Im not depressed and im seriously happy with my life, -ish.
And id remember those times when my best friend would worry for my well-being even though this piece of human meat had been rotting. He kept telling me to finish my lunches, and to eat more. Remembering when my mum had said that starving yourself to save yourself from judgemental stares isn't going to help. I'd get an ulcer. Ever since then; he ( *my bff ) had been concerned, so you don't have to worry about my stats irl. He's a stubborn guy who cares for everyone. ( shookt he even cares for me. )
You don't have to say anything sad or anything. Just pouring out some stuff that had oddly been clinging on my head for a while now.
I'm going to have a "fresh" start and try to remain like the silly goofball of a cinnamon rollie I used to be.
Gosh, does life change when you squeal at your own comments (#If_im_being_HONEST ) older comments are kinda cringy so i avoid that haha c:
was I the only one who read my comments and stuff with a cheery, high pitched voice ??? I gotta stop that haha
Please accept my sincerest apologies on being the natural snobby bishu ( still cant curse no matter what ??) (;∇;)
please update me to some important things ive missed for the past... months?...
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you guys im so sorry for the lack of activity !! ( i doubt any of ya'll remember my name ;o; ) i was merely thinking of what happened here in deviantArt. It used to be so.. enchanting? So exciting?? So I logged on daily,, like, everyday. I was so addicted, i was really excited for more. Then suddenly, i got used to the absense of using dA and i almost completely forgot about it.
Perhaps its because I was so inspired to share my CRINGY artworks back then, those were the days i used weird emojis that now creep me out. ( )
But now.. i just dont feel so motivated to draw much anymore. ( but i actively draw in school out of boredom. ) i just feel disappointed in myself seeing that i might have been drifting away from my friends and such. They are so nice,,, i dont deserve them.
I worry about lots of things at school since I think alot there. ( barely anyone talks to me, im too manly to walk up to someone unless its important or urgent. ) I always worry and worry until someone would strike up a silly convo with me, numbing me with the happiness drug of laughter. Escaping my worries, and homeworks.
Recently, ive been thinking up to deactivating this account; but some invisible force is telling me not to like,, huh???
I tried to inspire myself with my comeback drawing, but miraculously; the saying of "expect more works to come!!" Never been truly acheived, now, had it?
There were ALOT of occasions when i get proud of my traditional art ( when i couldn't use my tablet. ) and wish to post it here; but some people at my class started to look at me starry-eyed and asked if they could have the drawing instead.
I didn't want to hand it over, but with troubles of saying 'no'; I didn't refuse. I gave them those works I would've considered as mini-master pieces as i was proud of them. But for some odd reason i notice,,, they wouldn't say they liked it too when i'd admittedly say that i was proud of a piece. Yet when I didn't do my effort, and such; they shower me with compliments and praises. I'm so confused,,, for my hard work, they tell me nothing; yet with a doodle, they treat it as if it was the Mona Lisa Painting.
Im so sorry for ones who've expected alot to come from me; a lazy piece of trash that should be cleaned away. This isn't one of those petty little fake journals who just want attention with the so-called "depression".
Im not depressed and im seriously happy with my life, -ish.
And id remember those times when my best friend would worry for my well-being even though this piece of human meat had been rotting. He kept telling me to finish my lunches, and to eat more. Remembering when my mum had said that starving yourself to save yourself from judgemental stares isn't going to help. I'd get an ulcer. Ever since then; he ( *my bff ) had been concerned, so you don't have to worry about my stats irl. He's a stubborn guy who cares for everyone. ( shookt he even cares for me. )
You don't have to say anything sad or anything. Just pouring out some stuff that had oddly been clinging on my head for a while now.
I'm going to have a "fresh" start and try to remain like the silly goofball of a cinnamon rollie I used to be.
Gosh, does life change when you squeal at your own comments (#If_im_being_HONEST ) older comments are kinda cringy so i avoid that haha c:
was I the only one who read my comments and stuff with a cheery, high pitched voice ??? I gotta stop that haha
Please accept my sincerest apologies on being the natural snobby bishu ( still cant curse no matter what ??) (;∇;)
Lil commissions
Status: OPEN
im just actually bored and i wanna try getting used to drawing like this ;w; GOAL: reach 400 :^) for a special person *wink wink
Here are some examples of what I can offer:
price is 200 :points: ( im sorry if that's too much for a simple style i do !! )
• I cannot take paypal, I'm too young for that. :"< ( maybe once I reveal to my parents that I go to dA one day.. and that I can make "money" here lmao )
if the requested character is really detailed, that will be an additional 10 :points:
maximum character number is 1 ;w;"
pay after I do my commission, you cannot give me the pay before i start drawing; b
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【 "Yesterday was history; tomorrow is a
mystery, and today is a gift, that is why it
is called the present." 】
❝ I'm so nervous ‼ Aren't you too ?? ❞
✧ Cheerful // bubbly // cinnamoin roll // innocent // no lyfe ✧
A famous meme :3c
stolen from bae nyo-tastic (https://www.deviantart.com/nyo-tastic) >;3c cus im bored as hell and got nothin to do since my phone got lost >;0 i wont be able to do commissions and etc i did on my phone anymoooore whyyyyyy
▸ comment 'shortcake-kun is here' and i will tell you ...
❥ If we were drunk I would...
[ ] Try to fight you
[ ] Hug you, uncontrollably cry and continuously say "I freakin' love you man"
[ ] Vomit on you and pass out
[ ]We don't drink
[ ] Tell you my complex backstory
[ ] Awkwardly flirt with you
[ ] Leave to try and get laid
[ ] Walk up to you and burp
❥ To me you are...
[ ] Meh...
[ ] Sexy as heck
[ ] Pretty cool
[ ] Really
song tag
ok ok tagged by: XWesterners-aruX (https://www.deviantart.com/xwesterners-arux) c;
this isn't gonna be hardsu
look at my fabulous username
so short *cheers happily*
but its not as short as nyo-tastic (https://www.deviantart.com/nyo-tastic)'s k-kae (https://www.deviantart.com/k-kae)'sand it won't get any shorteri feel like I'm just a top three which also means last place in the top *sob* ok i need to stop I'm breaking peoples eyes just by typing theseok ok
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A - Always with you [ Hetalia Nordics ] ( tbh i can't find anything haha)
M - Mad Hatter [ Melanie Martinez ] <3
I - I still wait for you [ ??? i forgot ]
Q - ???
U - ???
actually
that was pretty hard tbh hahahaah smh
and i thought i would be quick xD
tagging;
nyo-tastic (https://www.deviantart.com/nyo-tastic)
T-oastertopia (https://www.deviantart.com/t-oastertopia)
bun-niii (https://www.deviantart.com/bun-niii)
domo (https://www.deviantart.com/domo)
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eh i was pretty inactive too but i guess you don't really miss much other than memes ¯\_(ツ)_/¯