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I Just Want You To Miss Me
Wednesday, Dec 1, 2010 I want to write a letter to the yellow specks in your blue eyes. I want them to know they are beautiful little soul freckles and I love them. Explosions of spectacular emotion, fireworks of your spirit. I still miss them. I still miss you. But I'm better now, my skin can breath easy, and my lungs are all filled with stars again. ["Crying just leaves you empty"] I'm a disillusioned dreamer, and you are the dream. I'll never say forever, if you'll never say goodbye. Promise to always remember me after I leave for college, and my room is no longer my room and my home is no longer my home. I can't wait to become who I'm su
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Shark Teeth and Bird Beaks
Come hell and high water, You've been brewing brain storms in the back of my head, Flooding my intestines with chances I'd never have to take you back in a heart beat. I've been cheating on tests I never took, looking over shoulders for answers I didn't even know the question to, I feel like I'm not supposed to forget you because you've already forgotten me, There needs to be some record that the magic truly existed, You're my Peter Pan,  no matter how much time passes you'll never grow old in my head, You'll never lose the fairy dust, the memories like Tinker Bell, If you stop clapping she'll die, if I stop grieving the memories will
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Blind
Love is blind. And I was so blind I ran into a fucking wall, one I can't climb over. I keep digging, and digging into myself, maybe hoping to tunnel my way out, But I keep hitting the bottom. I'm afraid one day I'll dig so far that I'll just fall right off the deep end. I don't know where I'm going, but I know where I've been was hell in a heart shaped briefcase. I'm naive enough to believe one day it'll all make sense. Three years, three friends, three promises to never let you go.
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Brain Storms and Word Vomit
Gone in ways where if I were to look for you, you'd simply hide away in the back of my mind, Brewing up brain storms, Lightening, thunder, and flash floods, All sent straight through my bloodstream and into my . You're my personal natural disaster. I miss the feeling of rain against my catalyst skin, The way you'd break down my hoodie armor, and eyeliner barriers, The feeling that your hoodie could shield me from anything. Even you. You're gone, and so is the beauty of a piece of fabric. I could call you back, but the line's been disconnected for years. No need chasing what can't be caught. "I made my bed so I'll lie in it" This
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I'm Only Human
You're absolutely golden, you scare me darling. I'm scared you're tiring of me, and I don't know how to fix it. It seems stupid poems about heartache and stars will only amaze you for so long. I can't hold on to you. I'm just not that selfish, I love you more than I love the heartache, And all the stars in the sky. More than all undiscovered planets, and nebula's ready to burst into life and destruction. I feel like I have to implode to create stars, Suck in all the bad stuff that's inside, and filter it until something decent comes out of it. I walk around and cough up diamonds out of my charcoal lungs. I've been smoking your pipe
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Lonely Bones
Alone in the way I could never get you back, or possibly apologize enough. Close in the way you still haunt my dreams, linger in the back of my head. Brewing up brain storms. I've never seen anyone so beautiful do such horrible things to the heart. What am I supposed to do when I can't reach you anymore? thinkfastthinkfastthinkfast Too late. You're gone, and I know I won't be able to chase you. No need going after someone who doesn't want to be caught. Clever words like lipstick on napkins, kisses on your wrists, I'm just trying to prepare you for the lonely nights. Lonely bones, lonely hearts. Where do I go when my conscious foll
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Angel Sharks
I'm pretty sure this is what needing a cigarette feels like, Not depressed as in artsy, depressed in sophocated by four walls, And no hand to pull me into the sunlight, I'm blinded by the absence of starlight, and the overrun of Angel Sharks in my heart. I keep trying to wear halos around my wrists, and ribbons around my neck. But eventually everything falls apart, eventually everything falls into place. But never before it's in pieces. However, pieces are easy to lose, and you never notice they're gone, Until you need them. I need you know. I had you then. Sensitive to the way the world moves beneath you, I'm worried I'll handle yo
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LAPAMBS pt. 2
Static induced nights, misery induced love songs. I can only pull myself open so far, dig only so deep before you hit nothing. And it's the nothing I'm most afraid of because that's all I have right know. People change, and sometimes they change without you. And it takes 7 monthes and long bouts of self hate to figure it out. I can't simply ride around in your pocket anymore. We dont' match up, we never did but that used to be the source of the magic. Now it's the source of the distance, and I can't stand it. When did we stop loving each other. When did we lose each other. How could I let this happen, I'm sorry in the way that a pill
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LAPAMBS
Remember the days when a life line was a phone call away? Well now you're writing letters to people you could never send them too. Ink in your tears, toxins in your blood stream. Ever wonder why people leave you? You're fucking contagious. I'm already infected. We could be lovers. But only long enough to break each other's heart. I feed off that kind of pain. Fully committed to heartache, and the beautiful pollutant that comes with it. I'd shoot liqour straight into my viens if I thought it'd make me deliusional enough to be a decent person. The decent person you fell in love with, and yet found it in your heart to hate. I don't bla
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Pieces
I worry myself to pieces at night. I have thoughts too heavy for my head                        [also see:headaches] I have feelings too big for my heart                        Blow my heart up                        [also see:achey viens] I have results for tests I didn't take and homesickness for places I don't remember going to. I leave my heart around.                        [I just want someone to pick it up and take it home] I'm built tall and empty.                        [I give my insides away to anyone who needs them] I'm falling in on myself.                       But I hate to worry you. So I'll just write in my
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I Just Want You To Miss Me
Wednesday, Dec 1, 2010 I want to write a letter to the yellow specks in your blue eyes. I want them to know they are beautiful little soul freckles and I love them. Explosions of spectacular emotion, fireworks of your spirit. I still miss them. I still miss you. But I'm better now, my skin can breath easy, and my lungs are all filled with stars again. ["Crying just leaves you empty"] I'm a disillusioned dreamer, and you are the dream. I'll never say forever, if you'll never say goodbye. Promise to always remember me after I leave for college, and my room is no longer my room and my home is no longer my home. I can't wait to become who I'm su
9
3
S
Shark Teeth and Bird Beaks
Come hell and high water, You've been brewing brain storms in the back of my head, Flooding my intestines with chances I'd never have to take you back in a heart beat. I've been cheating on tests I never took, looking over shoulders for answers I didn't even know the question to, I feel like I'm not supposed to forget you because you've already forgotten me, There needs to be some record that the magic truly existed, You're my Peter Pan,  no matter how much time passes you'll never grow old in my head, You'll never lose the fairy dust, the memories like Tinker Bell, If you stop clapping she'll die, if I stop grieving the memories will
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Blind
Love is blind. And I was so blind I ran into a fucking wall, one I can't climb over. I keep digging, and digging into myself, maybe hoping to tunnel my way out, But I keep hitting the bottom. I'm afraid one day I'll dig so far that I'll just fall right off the deep end. I don't know where I'm going, but I know where I've been was hell in a heart shaped briefcase. I'm naive enough to believe one day it'll all make sense. Three years, three friends, three promises to never let you go.
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Brain Storms and Word Vomit
Gone in ways where if I were to look for you, you'd simply hide away in the back of my mind, Brewing up brain storms, Lightening, thunder, and flash floods, All sent straight through my bloodstream and into my . You're my personal natural disaster. I miss the feeling of rain against my catalyst skin, The way you'd break down my hoodie armor, and eyeliner barriers, The feeling that your hoodie could shield me from anything. Even you. You're gone, and so is the beauty of a piece of fabric. I could call you back, but the line's been disconnected for years. No need chasing what can't be caught. "I made my bed so I'll lie in it" This
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I
I'm Only Human
You're absolutely golden, you scare me darling. I'm scared you're tiring of me, and I don't know how to fix it. It seems stupid poems about heartache and stars will only amaze you for so long. I can't hold on to you. I'm just not that selfish, I love you more than I love the heartache, And all the stars in the sky. More than all undiscovered planets, and nebula's ready to burst into life and destruction. I feel like I have to implode to create stars, Suck in all the bad stuff that's inside, and filter it until something decent comes out of it. I walk around and cough up diamonds out of my charcoal lungs. I've been smoking your pipe
0
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L
Lonely Bones
Alone in the way I could never get you back, or possibly apologize enough. Close in the way you still haunt my dreams, linger in the back of my head. Brewing up brain storms. I've never seen anyone so beautiful do such horrible things to the heart. What am I supposed to do when I can't reach you anymore? thinkfastthinkfastthinkfast Too late. You're gone, and I know I won't be able to chase you. No need going after someone who doesn't want to be caught. Clever words like lipstick on napkins, kisses on your wrists, I'm just trying to prepare you for the lonely nights. Lonely bones, lonely hearts. Where do I go when my conscious foll
0
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Angel Sharks
I'm pretty sure this is what needing a cigarette feels like, Not depressed as in artsy, depressed in sophocated by four walls, And no hand to pull me into the sunlight, I'm blinded by the absence of starlight, and the overrun of Angel Sharks in my heart. I keep trying to wear halos around my wrists, and ribbons around my neck. But eventually everything falls apart, eventually everything falls into place. But never before it's in pieces. However, pieces are easy to lose, and you never notice they're gone, Until you need them. I need you know. I had you then. Sensitive to the way the world moves beneath you, I'm worried I'll handle yo
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LAPAMBS pt. 2
Static induced nights, misery induced love songs. I can only pull myself open so far, dig only so deep before you hit nothing. And it's the nothing I'm most afraid of because that's all I have right know. People change, and sometimes they change without you. And it takes 7 monthes and long bouts of self hate to figure it out. I can't simply ride around in your pocket anymore. We dont' match up, we never did but that used to be the source of the magic. Now it's the source of the distance, and I can't stand it. When did we stop loving each other. When did we lose each other. How could I let this happen, I'm sorry in the way that a pill
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LAPAMBS
Remember the days when a life line was a phone call away? Well now you're writing letters to people you could never send them too. Ink in your tears, toxins in your blood stream. Ever wonder why people leave you? You're fucking contagious. I'm already infected. We could be lovers. But only long enough to break each other's heart. I feed off that kind of pain. Fully committed to heartache, and the beautiful pollutant that comes with it. I'd shoot liqour straight into my viens if I thought it'd make me deliusional enough to be a decent person. The decent person you fell in love with, and yet found it in your heart to hate. I don't bla
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Pieces
I worry myself to pieces at night. I have thoughts too heavy for my head                        [also see:headaches] I have feelings too big for my heart                        Blow my heart up                        [also see:achey viens] I have results for tests I didn't take and homesickness for places I don't remember going to. I leave my heart around.                        [I just want someone to pick it up and take it home] I'm built tall and empty.                        [I give my insides away to anyone who needs them] I'm falling in on myself.                       But I hate to worry you. So I'll just write in my
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I Feel As Though
I should let you lovely people know that I don't use this account any longer. I truly do appreciate the time we spent together, and it shall not go forgotten. But. I feel like I have departed from who I was when I actively used this account and to continue it's use would be to piggy back on the success and followers I gained under it. So. I've started a new account, and I do hope that our paths cross again. This one isn't going to be taken down or anything, I'm much too nostalgic. But it will no longer be responded to nor updated. A Loving Final Farewell, Oakmi
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I have a handful of poems coming.
You guys are simply too wonderful to me. I love you all very much, I don't deserve a second of it.
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So Here's the Thing...
It's summer time now, so hopefully I'll be on more. And writing more. Maybe something happier, I realize I only write in fits of sadness. I promise I'm not miserable all the time! I really do have a personality buried under all my emo kid poetry! xD I've been gone forever, I'm sorry guys. [They went and changed the layout on me! I was confused as hell the first time I logged in. xD] As an update on just my life: -My boyfriend and I are doing well. Things have fell very well into place since I last mentioned him. -I'm a Junior now!<3 -I pulled a C out of my AP Euro class, which to you is probably not even that great, but it's fabulo
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Happy Birthday Piece Of Rainbow Layers Cake 50x50 icon  
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happy birthday :cake:
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i used to be frozen-bunny-love
new account/profile
you had to be the first person i "watched"
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Happy birthday ^_^
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haaaaapy birthday!
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Thanks for the fave :D
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Thank you for the :+fav: :fuzzydemon:
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