Novtholwen

I have come to the conclusion that my cat's only goal and objective is to see how badly he can annoy me... I suppose I should describe him... He's about 6 months old, weighs about 15 lbs, has ice-blue eyes and is a long haired Siamese. However right now he's not so long haired on account of me shaving him except for his head, lower parts of his legs and his tail... ^.^ Stupid hair... how dare it grow back dark instead of pure white.... oh well he's still in the range of being pretty... I suppose.. Anyway this is his typical day: 1. Wakes up at fucking 3 am to play run, jump, and attack me whilst I try to remain sleeping. 2. When that does

Yay, just when I figured that I could drop my guard and start letting people in agian... I'm reminded why I didn't want them getting too close in the first place... I'm so tired of being told one thing then told later that what was said wasn't ment or that what was said cannot come to pass... My whole world is crumbling around me and all I wish is that someone would see past my smiling facade and see the true me that is hurting inside... I thought that I found some people like that but I am proven wrong again just like every other time... Maybe I shouldn't try any more. It's not like it does me any good to try... I find myself reverting back