novastartherapter

So...this is kind of a goodbye to you guys? I'll probably drop back every now and then for group specific stuff, but other than that a lot of my main content probably won't come to this site. Look, I'm gonna be straight, I've looked back across my life and I came to realize I was...not, a very good person. In fact when I looked back at some of my mistakes I feel....disgusted, at myself. Ashamed that I lived my life like this. So this past year I decided to change. To change everything. To reboot everything about myself, from my behavior, to my characters and lore, to even my own gender identity. I just...hate my past self so badly, I don't want anything to do with the past. I've been active on Discord mostly, learning from friends how to be polite, honest and, overall, competent. I've...grown up from who I used to be, essentially. From the wacky little...I don't even know how I'd describe me when I first got to deviantart I was just too much, to who I am today. I've decided I'm

So I know I haven't been too active around here, admittedly I've been uncertain about returning to DA given how wacky I used to be here, I've considered moving to a new account at some point. That new cat we got was recently lost, they got outside and we couldn't find them for months. Thus we eventually got another new cat in the house. However, recently my grandmother has passed away. Another death in the family. I apologize I come with so much grim news but, I wanted to keep you all updated on what's going on in my life. Before she passed away, we got to see her by her bedside a few days ago, and we were able to talk to her. She wasn't able to speak, but every so often she'd open her eyes and her breathing would change. My grandmother was a writer, and I decided to read some of my story to her. I was told that her breathing changed slightly when I was reading my story, so I know she was listening so... I just feel like this story has a lot more meaning to it to me personally

Just when I thought 2020 couldn't get any more disastrous; we have another death in the family. This time it's my Aunt Helene. Not to mention the smoke that's been building up outside but... it's rather frightening how much death there's been this year, losing two family members in the span of such short time is...a scary thing. Me and my family agreed that we should try to go get a kitten this Christmas to reward ourselves for getting through this rather horrid year, but...yeah I wanted to give you all an update on what's going on our end as I realized I haven't updated you guys on what happened yet.