i know i deserve it
God still is around smiting people after all.
it's just not worth it...
you go ahead and keep on convincing yourselves that it doesn't matter
that God doesn't exist
that hell can't be real
you keep on in your comfortable self-satisfying mentality
but what if you're wrong
you've been betting your whole life on it
when it comes time to pay up
you'll have eternity to work it off
but of course you may argue
"well you who believe are no better off,
you are going to end up on fire too"
and i truly believe that we are held accountable for what we know
but may i blame you unbelievers for my sin? you who mock me, persecute me, tempt me?
i am not strong
i am not pure
i am not holy
i am suspended between heaven and earth
dangling and twisting
i think if i give in, life will become more tolerable.
yes, life does get more tolerable
but punishment becomes more severe...
yet, oddly, tolerable.
if only i co