So. I’m not terribly good at organising myself. I get get discouraged easily. I often don't see a challenge, i see a wall. An unscalable wall. I suppose you could say I'm a very pessimistic type of person. Very much all about that glass half empty. And no matter how much i wish to fix that, it's incredibly hard. How do you fix something that's been you outlook all your life? All 25 years of it.
Now i get some of you probably sat there thinking, just do it. Just push through that wall. Run your life how you want to. Which is true. You should push to try and beat the walls around you down, but when you have no tools? No sledge hammer or wrecking ball (insert miley pun?). Just your own hands? It can seem really bleak. And lonely.
Not trying to be depressing. Not trying to fish for comfort or attention. I simply opened up word and started typing.
I want to do better.I want to try harder.