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Wow. Finally. I'm back. 

I had lost all drive, inspiration, and creativity because of my battle with drug addiction and alcoholism. I have not submitted anything since 2009. The addiction was my whole life, and I forgot about my passions. I lost my drive, inspiration, and dignity. 

I have had two 90-120 day stints in rehab at Transformations Wellness Center, in Klamath Falls, Oregon. I graduated the first time, was kicked out 10 days away from graduation for non-compliance. This was in May of 2013. Since then there have been a lot of slip ups&full on relapses; but, I kept trying. Every time I tried again to be sober, I learned a little more. On 09/20/14 I committed myself fully to sobriety. I now have 46 days. That is the longest I have been sober (outside of a rehab center, it's easy to stay clean in there) since I was 19 years old. A decade. 

My inspiration, my love of art, my love of writing down anything and everything that might make for a good project...it's all coming back. 

I am awestruck. To have my creative drive back is an incredible thing.

Point is - I will be submitting more, even if i'm a little rusty at it. I will work on my art, design, or writing every day. 

"There's a storm on the streets
but you still don't run
watching and waiting
For the rain to come

&these words wouldn't keep you dry
or wipe tears from an open sky
but I know but I know
but I know I'm right

&I won't let you drown
when the water's pulling you in
i'll keep fighting, I'll keep fighting"
Hurts: "Silver Lining" (from the album, "Happiness")