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Beth Defiled
Artist | Student | Traditional Art
United Kingdom
Tattoo Apprentice at Dexterity Ink, Wrexham
Owner of Celtic Dragoness Arts
I don't tattoo people yet, but I paint draw and make.<nbr />
On my second year of Fashion \m/

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Instagram; personal: beth_defiled, Business: celticdragoness, Tattoo Shop: Dexterityinktattoostudio

I do commissions. See my facebook page below for deets.
I don't do Art Trades or anything for free.
If you haggle or expect a discount, fuck off.
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White and gold dragon on a Blackcanvas.
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TW- Talk of suicide

How do I know things are getting really bad?
I wrote a suicide note. Not for today- not for tonight- but for some day soon.
I didn't really mean to, if I was honest. I just wrote what I was thinking, and that's what it became.
For the first time in my life it was calm and peaceful. It was brutally honest and explained everything. I won't share it here.
But I read it over and made myself cry, the acceptance I saw in my own words, the finality and the clarity that is so often lacking in me especially as of late because of my mental health.
I know I'm not meant to live till I'm old. I've likely, at 21, lived over half my time here.
The only reason I don't want to go is because I've lost so many people- I know what grief feels like and I don't want to do that to the people I care about.
But I even addressed that. The pain that I carry with me day after day, the pain that will eventually kill me, the ones who feel grief when I die, will be taking on the pain I carried through life, because I couldn't keep carrying it anymore.
And that was a brutal but powerful realisation.
I won't die today. I won't die tonight. But soon I'll lose my battle.
And that's ok. It's not about how long I'm here for. It's about making the most of the time I still have left. Who knows. If I live for five more years, everyone might know my name. Or only those that matter will.
Either way matters not. All that matters is that when I die I'm gonna have a smile on my face, finally free because my burdens will be gone, and all that will remain is a name, and memories of a part of me in other people's minds.

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